Alive (Notes #5) by DeYtH Banger (suggested reading txt) 📕

am... 3 digit biatch ... who you can't understand and with using all words.



Nobody did really said... that theory or what they say about themself is a trust... that's what happen the first second when time came and it has been accepted in since then... nowadays people say stuff about themself... and people start trusting them... trust based on data.... so people are walking data.



And one moment  before:

Alcohol: The earliest alcoholic drink dates back to 7,000-6,600 B.C. Residues of the drink were found in pottery shards from the ancient village of Jiahu, in China’s Henan Province. The drink consisted of a mixture of rice, honey, and fermented grapes or other fruit.

Hallucinogens: The earliest fossil remains of the hallucinogenic San Pedro cactus, found in a cave in Peru, date back to between 8,600 and 5,600 B.C. The seeds of mescal beans, found in what is now southern Texas and northern Mexico, date from the end of the ninth millennium B.C. to 1000 A.D. And small stone sculptures called “mushroom stones” found in Guatemala, Mexico, Honduras and El Salvador suggest hallucinogenic mushrooms were used in sacred cults between 500 B.C. and 900 A.D.
Opium: The earliest found fossilized remains of the opium plant, dating back to the mid-sixth millennium B.C., were found at a dig site in Italy less than 20 miles northwest of Rome. Remains of poppy seed capsules and traces of opiates have been discovered in the plaque and bones of human skeletons dating back to the 4th millennium B.C., along with prehistoric art showing parts of the poppy being used in religious ceremonies.
Coca leaves: The earliest evidence of humans chewing coca dates back to South America around 8,000 years ago. The remains of pieces of coca leaves have been found in house floors in Nanchoc Valley, Peru, and in human dental remains and mummy hair.
Tobacco: Smoking pipes dating back to around 2,000 B.C. have been found in northwestern Argentina, although it’s unclear whether they were used for tobacco or other hallucinogenic plants. Remnants of nicotine found in pipes date back to 300 B.C.


And that's what people say drugs and alcohol and and other shit has been here for a very long time... and now lets see how  the world looks like:



Walking data with drugs and sedatives and substances in their system and feeling extremely confident... without that anxiety and depression drowns them up. People keep promising... keep saying promises... we and I have plenty of friends and how much times do we get with all outside?

Here is the answer:

- ... A Couple of videos and photos


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But let's clear that shit.. .videos and photos make us to feel like we are friends or relatives... just few pictures... that's what keep us close... and one moment we remove all this shit... walking data can it be a friend?

That's what the question for today dare is it! Money

 16.07.2018

 

by DeYtH Banger

 

 

I am not crazy religious person... but everything is about money...
You need money to get in that place... you need money to get that girl, you need money to get out of your home... you need money and money and money and money and money...

It's such a big attachment which in the end will cost your whole life... I am not fucking with you.


And I am getting crazier... wanting to slash and bash people.... I want to kill people it's lovely concept soon on CNN or New York Times... 20+ guy goes in killing spree

Thoughts are here to save us ... it's salvation from self-obesity. If you start going in your thoughts paranoia is the first sympton then feeling scared... even bluffing with somebody makes you scared...


So here is the thing... I went in somebody's house... and I have seen him 3 times and he let me inside his house... imagine this shit!?... Can you image it?

If I can get in his house who else can?

Stalkers Killers Haters

LIfe is about focusing too much of this shit is going to eat you inside of you... logically most people build there confidence not by adaptable behaviour ..... but by using some substances... drugs... alcohol then wanning better life... That's why an asshole kills a nerd and nerd is a guy who even blood is going to freak him out.

Let's dive deeper.. .we have plenty of time... time isn't really an obstacle in this here story... it's something which I get auto when I start sharing data... all here is data... and data by itself manipulates masses... and 

GoodNight,Puppets 

Thinking

 16.07.2018

 

by DeYtH Banger

 

 

 

So life goes on and on ... we see people we always want to talk to them but we never talk to them... why not? Why life goes on and on life a slip-less paradox of brutality.

We just can't do that... You are afraid.... me too... too much pressure... go home and watch more comedy and more movies social life isn't for you. It's too much... there is peer pressure and the condition isn't adaptable.

We always end up apologizing for not taking action and saying that we gonna take action later... or in other period in life and this never helps... it really doesn't later is never... didn't we understand that already?

Being adaptable means when people can't pull your strings easy... it's a social damage people drink so to make it like not giving fuck but you... dear you... you always want to talk to people and not to drink... this path which you have choosen isn't nothing more than a social damage created by the people around you... why you continue in such brutal way? Life can be easy... like not giving fuck... not caring... just grab a bottle and have fun.

Fun always has been for people to grab a bottle and have fun... that's what your mind says... thats' what people say but where are you?... I be that dear you is near "Now"...
People always want to proof themselfs that they are good that they are awesome, that they are cool adn so on and so on and so on... then life comes with it's grabs you by the throat and says last wishes?
And we like sick biatches wondering what we haven't done because of being afraid... always living a life of denial. My words are n't complex I am just using a vocabulary with which we are friends... but one day...

TO be simple is awesome... just go  and take the bottle... you gonna get extreme confidence people are going to love you (Note: For the person who you aren't)... all people grab bottles to proof that they can be cool... but they life a life full of fakeness... and leave life to dry you up to the bottom of this fucking sea.

The moment will come


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I am not weirdo... we are all one and one moment in life words are going to be the weapons which are going to safe you from self-destruction.

Life Is Boring

 07.07.2018

 

by DeYtH Banger

 

 

 

 This story isn't one of those boring stories which you while you surf on the social media or in the web you gonna find this story is what life is all about.

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So School has passed... I am not anymore a student... I am 19 years old kid... 
School has never been a good place for me... always getting annoyed by different people... always there is a big deal guy and always... I am somewhere in the middle of all this shit... BUt let's be honest life was easy... or ironicaly kinda easy... because after all I had something in my day going and kinda free... now I am not sure what to put in my time where should I go... should I be more outgoing person?



Or just be the sad little kid which nobody likes to chat or talk with him...

It's little bit scary 2 months have passed... now 3 is starting and I am bored...

I have been around pick up material for 2 years... 

Almost two.. I am new into that shit... and there is so much things


The way you say it... what to say... how to be funny!?
How to get phone numbers, you should always close!?

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So much details and information... if you are newbie... not like me but like others you gonna be socially fucked up... as for me... I am around such data for a long time... and I am starting to connect the dots...



And this is my life... all about connecting dots... it even not interesting if you are living my life you gonna hate it... there is slash or bashing somebody on the law and saying to him give me your money... this is very typical for school but here in this here game...


I have been around movies, TV Series, Reality Shows, Books... if we talk about movies... I have watched around 500 movies... for  19 years ... this is the sum, tv series around 45 probably... but if we are talking about series which I follow up... not about series which I watch sometimes...

Reality Shows, Larry King is a cool guy with a great show you have plenty of what to learn from him...

books around 800 probably this year I am going to make... which means in the sum of all my years i have read 800 books and wanting to read 400 books and the numbers go and go and go and go.


This life is little outlandinsh nothing interesting really going... I am like a guy who knows everything in theory... I know facts... I read books... I know stuff about statics... but this life which I am living everyday needs improvement... if I don't improve my life... I am living below average... if I improve it... it's extraordinary... so how fucked up is that?



To be honest...  I hate this life... lets grab one knife... and slit the throat up to the chase... blood is going to flush out... but this is blood of freedom...