What am I to do? by shi1234 (phonics readers .TXT) 📕

rite. I followed cuz i wanted 2. i'll jus have 2 live wif the heartbreak
kittykat>xxcooljayxx: Fine. Im leaving and dnt talk 2 me

There was this one guy who was a single father. Yet he comes into the room like "Are you freaky?" I was already irritable. I kirked. I asked him if he would want someone saying that to his daughter. He said no. Then I said "Ok. So y da hell would u say 2 some1 younger than ur daughter?" But the time I was done talking, he had promised to try to do better.

The super weirdos, if I already accepted their friend request then I told them not to talk to me. If they did anyway, then I unfriended them. And I was good enough on the site that none of them wanted to be unfriended. I met around 2 or 3 more like xxcooljayxx. As in, we talked for a while then out of nowhere they say that they've fallen in love. I mean, I know i'm cute but not that cute.

One of the first people I talked to on that site was a guy named Evan. He said I was cute. I said thanks. We talked then he asked what I did for fun......

kittykat>evan21: reading, writing, on computer, txtin, etc.
evan21>kittykat: wat about other things?
kittykat>evan21: wat other things?
evan21>kittykat: Lik.....sex
kittykat>evan21: Not happenin. Not anytime soon anyway.
evan21>kittykat: Y?
kittykat>evan21: Im nt tryna get an STD or get pregnant
evan21>kittykat: Its fun
kittykat>evan21: Yea. Shopping is fun too. And safer
evan21>kittykat: watever.
kittykat>evan21: yea. watever
evan21>kittykat: Ur a bitch
kittykat>evan21: No. Ur jus a bastard
evan21>kittykat: Ur the reason people become nuns
kittykat>evan21: Well, ur da reason girls r so stupid. Ur dumb ass knocks em up and they have 2 drop out of school
evan21>kittykat: U must have cobwebs between ur legs
kittykat>evan21: Dats betta than screwin everything with legs
evan21>kittykat: I dont screw everything with legs
kittykat>evan21: Uh- huh. Im going now. Bye idiot
evan21>kittykat: Son of a ----

I closed my laptop, rolling my eyes.

* * *

Few days later

Bad day at school. I log onto the site. My IM button is blinking. Who IMed me?

I wondered. I opened it up. It was semi69. I let out a breath. Good. A friend, not another creep.

Semi69: Hey beauty
kittykat: Hey
Semi69: how r u
kittykat: im ok, I guess. U?
Semi69: gud.
kittykat: dats gud. wyd?
Semi69: jus woke up
kittykat: tru
Semi69: u ok?
kittykat: ehh........mad. Bad day @ skool. Waitin 4 some idiot 2 hit on me so I can let out my anger
Semi69: Lol
kittykat: yep

I got another IM. I checked it. Some dude named Crazyashell.

Crazyashell: Hey sexy

I switched back over to semi69.

kittykat: Think I jus found dat idiot. Hold on 4 a while
semi69: Lol. okie dokie

I went back to Crazyashell. After IMing him back, he started givig me compliment after compliment. When I started typing back, the words just flowed out along with the anger. And let's just say that he never talked to me again. No loss though.

Confusion

I was talkin to a friend. I know he likes me, but I chose to ignore that fact. We're close. Gives each other a huge hug everyday. Talk, laugh, and just being there for each other. We were texting the other day.......

Him: Im cold
Me: Get under a blanket
Him: I did
Me: U have pants or shorts?
Him: Short
Me: Lol. Now ask me how i new dat?
Him: How?
Me: Cuz I no u. Long sleeved shirt?
Him: No
Me: Well put 1 on.....and imma shut up
Him: Y?
Me: Cuz i sound lik a mama. eww...........im still young. promise
Him: Lls. Yea. Let my mom do her job and u play ur part in my life even tho im nt sure wat dat part is
Me: U no wat? Idk either
Him: We can talk about it
Me: Sure. But l8er, ok? G2g 4 choir reh
Him: Ok

1 1/2 hours later

 

Me: Bac
Him: wyd?
Me: on my way home.U?
Him: at the movies
Me: wat movie u c-ing?
Him: Red Tails
Me: Tru
Him: So u wanna talk about wat we said earlier?
Me: ok
Him: So wat do u wanna b? in my life i mean?
Me: idk
Him: oh
Me: Feelings r blurred. People tell me wat they feel, wat they think

, and i cant think. My brain shut down, i guess.
Him: Well, we can fix dat
Me: How?
Him: Think of nttn but ur emotions and feeling
Me: ........................
Him: Lls.
Me: Dats gonna b hard
Him: No
Me: Yes
Him: Well try
Me: fine. After i eat dinner
Him: ok

After dinner I sat in my room, thinking. I was writing down my feeling. Well, the feelings I could recognize, anyway. I wrote down a few things, but then my mind went blank. I was staring into space for a while, before putting down my journal. I sent him a message that I couldn't do it then buried my face in my pillow. When he finally texted back, I was half-asleep. I picked up the phone.

Him: oh
Me: yep

And before he texted back again, I was fast asleep.

Beauty- Both Good and Bad

Have you ever had someone ask you to do something you know is wrong? Especially when they had just said that they appreciate honesty? I have and it sucks.

So I was talking to my friend James. We was texting, right? Anyway, before dinner we was on the phone talking. And we talked on the phone before school started. Yet here I am trying to get started on my homework and he wants to call me again. I mean, it's already 10:30!!

James: You know we need to talk, rite?
Me: About wat?
James: About us
Me: You do know i dnt lik u lik dat rite?
James: Yes u do
Me: No i dnt
James: Watever. Can i call u now
Me: No, i'm doing hw
James: Plez? Im only askin 4 30 mins
Me: And dats 30 mins 2 many
James: come on
Me: Im trying to bring my grades up, not let them drop
James: And im proud of u 4 dat but plez??
Me: im busy
James: Wyd? Cleaning your room?
Me: I need to but im doin hw. I have a project due on monday, a weeks worth of math due on monday, and a 15 page take home quiz due 2morrow dat i didnt even get yet. i have a reading log and a practice log. And i have an essay 4 history due on Tuesday.
James: fine then txt me when u in bed
Me: 4 wat?
James: So i can call u
Me: .........didnt i tell u i cant talk on da phone in bed? 2 many nosy ppl round here
James: Jus close ur door
Me: Cant
James: Y?
Me: Cuz i useed 2 do it 2 much. My ma said if i closed it again she gonna take it off its hinges
James: ......Find a way
Me: I c-a-n-t. Anyway i dnt want 2 run up my phone bill........again. If i do my ma takin my phone
James: My parents r payin 4 da call
Me: Hello? It goes 2 my bill 2
Me: Now i gotta go and i swear if u try2 call me i will either
1. not answer
2. answer and curse u out
James: Fine. Nite Ms. grumpy

* * *

Pool made me sooooo ready to punch him today. I left my instrument in my locker before lunch because i had a meeting and was hoping it would run into 4th mod. Well, it didn't even last the whole 30 minutes of lunch. So before I went to class I had to ask my teacher if I could go get the instrument. He said yes.

So I started walking to my locker. When I rounded the corner down the hall from my locker, I saw him play-fighting with another guy. He asked me to help him, and I laughed then said "If you can't beat him, then what the heck am i supposed to do?" Then I kept walking. A few seconds later I heard running and knew Pool was coming to give me a hug. I was getting ready to turn around but didn't have the time. "Hi" he said. "Hey" I responded. "We haven't seen each other much lately." he said. "I know right? Now can you let me go so I can go to my locker?" I replied. When I looked up he had this mischievous smile on his face. "Oh," he said "so you need to go to your locker, huh?"

He picked me up so fast I didn't see it coming. I started screaming without even noticing. It felt like I was getting ready to fall head-first to the ground. Once I felt stable, I sahouted "Oh my God, Pool!!! If you do that one more time your gonna get bitch slapped!!!" I was trying to scare him enough that he would put me down, but I don't think the laughter helped. So I just said "Just put me down." He put me down and I laughed and started back on my way.

Sometimes being so beautiful is so hard.

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