What am I to do? by shi1234 (phonics readers .TXT) 📕

really happy, then something happens to ruin that feeling.I had a bump and dump, only backwards. Dump and bump.

We have a dress down day tomorrow. All week, i've been saying the same thing over and over: "I need to pick my outfit." Yet, here it is, Thursday, and I still didn't know what I was going to wear. So, naturally, I was panicking.

I tried sending pics to Shortstack, but she couldn't help. Finally, I tried Epic. I know she could find an outfit where I couldn't. I sent her the same pics I sent Shortstack......

Epic: It's not summer, u no
Me: I jus cant find nttn else
Epic:Well, the shirt that says fly girl with the butterfly and the blue jeans would look good wif ur black converse
Me:K. I'll try it on in the morning. Nite.
Epic: NiteWhen

I got up in the morning, I put on the outfit, amazed. Knowing she would be awake already, I sent Epic a text.

Me: U r a GENIUS
Epic: Why?
Me: I had no idea dis outfit would b soooo cute!!
Epic: Duh. Hello? Im Epic
Me: Lol
Epic: : D I g2g. Dont txt back

Now my hair. As I was working, a chant was working it's way through my brain.

"It's gonna be a great day."

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Gym class; later that day

It was variety day. We could do whatever we wanted all mod. Well......except play soccer since this spanish dude hit the nurse upside the head with the ball. So I was talking to Taco and texting my friend Grant. About halfway through class, I asked Taco if shecould take a picture of me. After she took it, I saved it right before answering another text.

Later, when I got home, I was trying to show my dad the picture, but I couldn't find it! "Oh my gosh!! I could've sworn I saved that pic!! I was gonna put that on facebook." I sighed. "Dad, can you take a picture of me?"

Inside Joke

I was on the bus, riding home. I have a friend that I haven't talked to in a while, JB So I was on the bus talking to my friend Green. I heard her say "Ohhh.....I want some!" When I turned around I saw JB bent over in his seat, shoving something in his mouth. Green and I was laughing when someone said "First Rod eats JB's cookies, then JB eats Rod's nuts." We was like "Ewwwww....." while still laughing. Green and I have read a book series called House of Night where there is a gay couple, Damien and Jack. Green said they were like Rod and JB. I was like "Wouldn't it be funny if someone turned around and told them to keep it pg?" Green said "I dare you to do it." "For real?" I asked. When Green nodded I turned around. After getting Rod's and JB's attention, I shouted "Hey, make sure you keep it rated pg!!" Just then the bus stopped at mine and JB's bus stop. When we got off he was lookin at me funny and I couldn't stop laughing. After walking a few yards I stopped and turned around. Noticing that he was looking back, I raised my hand and said "Remember. Rated pg!!" After that, he started running........straight towards me!! I laughed then turned and started running. He chased me until we were right outside my house. "My dad is home" I said. "I don't care" he replied. Then my dad opened up the front door. Seeing JB backing down I started walking toward the houses. JB was still lookin confused. "Don't worry," I said "it's an inside joke. I'm sure Green or I will explain it to you......sooner or later." After waving to him, he finally started walking away.

But I kept on laughing.

Second-Guessing

So, there's a new guy. I really like him, but you know how most teenage girls are. He's told me that he likes me back, but i still have doubts. The way he treats me is perfect but still, i have doubts. I keep thinking about how great he is and about how he can be with whoever he wants, so why would he choose me? The insecurities of teenage girls are ridiculous. One minute we're perfectly certain of something, but then we get alone and we do the worst things ever: over-analyzing and second-guessing.

 

Vanilla is THE sweetest guy ever. On many occasions he would pop out of nowhere with words as sweet as sugar.  Here are some of the many examples.

 

Me: Ugh.....im so irritated

Him: Why?

Me: idek (i don't even know)

Him: Smile, you're beautiful

Me: Aww thx hun

 

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Him: You stay hiding from me when i come up to the school

Me: I don't hide from you

Him: Yea you do

Me: What makes you say that?

Him: Because i stay going up there and not being able to find you.

Me: Lol. I don't hide. It usually just turns out that i'm not in the spot you're looking in

Him: I don't like it. I look hard but it just doesn't work. You're one of the main reasons i go up there anymore. Not seeing you makes it a worthless trip.

Me: Aww i didn't know that

Him: So can you help me out some?

Me: Lol. Sure i'll try. But i'll talk to you tomorrow 'kay? Restriction about to ome on.

Him: : ( ok

 

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Him: Wyd?

Me: Typing up a weight loss plan

Him: th? (the heck?)

Me: Lol. What?

Him: you have no weight to lose

Me: Lol. Sweet o you to say. Not true, but sweet

Him: why do you think you have to use weight?

Me: Cause i like wearing t-shirts without sucking in my gut......and i like wearing pants without worrying about dino thighs

Him: I think you're over-reacting. You're beautiful

Me: Thx hun. I'm kinda tired. Imma do my sit-ups and go to bed. Night.

Him: Night sexy

 

These are just a few of the examples. We've been an item since the middle of last year. Unfortunately, he's in college now and i'm still stuck in high school but we make it work. We talk every day, and when he comes to town, he either drops by my house or comes to hang out with me and our friends at school. We never go long without ome kind of contact. I'm loving it.

 

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I guess to most people, Vanilla isn't the most attractive guy. But when we first started really talking, there's just something that attracted me to him, and as we got to know each other, that attraction got bigger and more pronounced. I first talked to him at a car wash last year. The school wanted to raise money and about 30-40 people volunteered to wash cars. I was hosing off a car, and my friend E moved my hand so it sprayed Vanilla. Later he retaliated by covering us with silly string. It makes me laugh just thinking about it. That string was hell on my hair.

 

 But we didn't actually start talking until Thanksgiving. 

 

Me: Happy Thanksgiving

Him: Who is this?

Me: Shiri

Him: Lol. Why haven't you ever texted me before?

Me: I did once, but you never replied

Him: oh really? Huh, I wonder why. If I had noticed it I wouldn't have ignored it.

 

We kept texting, all through the night, and into the morning. I fell asleep around 4 am, and woke up around 12:30 with a message from him in my inbox. It kept on like this for the rest of winter break. We wanted to know so much about each other that we started playing a game called questions and it went on, continuously, for days. I was so happy and immediatately started crushing, although whenver he asked me who i liked i changed the subject. Finally, one day we were texting and he was naming all the guys he thought i might like.....

 

Me: You kept getting it wrong. Lol. Why don't you give up?

Him: because i want to know. Why don't you want to tell me?

 

I decided to take a leap of faith and took a deep breath.

 

Me: because it's kinda hard to tell the guy you like that you like him

Him: so you like me?

Me: yea

Him: Huh.....i'm the last person i woulda thought you like. Well, then you already know who i like.

Me: Who?

Him: You

 

I swear I almost passed out. Then i opened my mouth and screamed from happiness.

 

I still have trouble every now and then believing that he actually likes me, but that's just how i am. It's a natural part of lacking confidence. But 99% of the time i'm certain he likes me and only me, and that's enough. He, along with his awesome sense of humor, gorgeous smile, protective streak, and intense eyes, is mine.

Great! Then Not-So Great

My really close friend E started dating my friend B, who's like a brother to me. When she told me, I was so happy for them. And I barely ever got to see B, so i was also thinking that them two together meant that i could see my brother more. Boy, it turned around on me. They are so  cute, and really really like each other but in my case, that's not always a good thing. Now he spends more time with her than me. I mean, i constantly see him now, but i can never talk to him when E is around, and when she's not, she's all he talks to me about. Whenever E and i argue, he takes her side and tells me that i'm the one being childish who needs to apologize. She pushes me and he stays out of it, but he's all in my face when i push back. And because