I Dont Want To Love by Nyree (inspirational books to read TXT) 📕

chapter 1 : Why Is This Happennig


I can't except what's going on with me,my parents are gone.Whats makeing my life a living hellll!!!Whats making everything i tuch turn to dust.Thanks now i understand it's me.I kill beautifull things with a smile,with a touch and a glance.

My name is Farganda Illane Mackavie people who know me call me fara.The stupid thing about my name is that it's sounds like faira and then ganda.

When my perents died in a freak accident,a car crash.You might not think that car crashes are a freaking thing but how about when there was no car in sight just air.But the thing is that the damage looked like a car crashed into us.

After that tragic day i was shifted around alot.I lived with some of my aunts and uncles but they died as soon a i started to love them like my own parents.

They all died.I live with my grandmother for a few months till she died.On her death bed she told me what i was gong on with me.Why all things i loved died.It was because i was cursed to witness eternal torture for ther rest of my life.When she was 15,which to me seemed like a thousand years ago.She said she used to hang out with the wrong crowd.

A crowed that was full of wickens for those who don't know what a wicken is,the are people who practice th dark arts and do them so much so they become witchs.well aperrently she pissed off one them off and they hexed my grandmother so that her daughters daughter will be cursed to a life of watching the people you love die right in front of you.

yeah as if i was gunna beleive that chizz.But the only reason i belived it is because my grandmother is someone who doesn't lie to any one.

so now you know,why i'm what people call a loan shark.I can't be friends with anybody.

My grandmother left some money in her will..Everything she saved when she was little to now,is now mine.Guess how much that is?? go on guess? if you guessed over 1 billoin dollars you're correct.

she won the lotto when she was 30,hid it and invested i some stocks those stocks grew ad now i'm filthy rich.


chapter 2 : Residency


When my parents past away i started moving place to place and town to town on my own.I use to live in town called forks in washington.And no people i'm not going to go all twilight hear in this book it's all about me.

But i will say that i think those books are awsome !!!i read twilight,new moon,eclipse and breaking dawn.I also saw the movies as well,except for breaking dawn.That movie is comeing out later in the year,can you belive there making it into two parts i'm glad besause if they didn't then they probulby would have cut out a lot of good parts and that would have sucked.

Thanks a lot people,you guys got me off track.Were was i,oh yeah.I am now living in shelton washington.I really don't want to leave washington because all the people i loved lived and died hear.Well i'm almost out of citys hear.so maybe i might have to leave.

Now i live in sheltoon wshington,but the bad side of it.( For younger children reading this book don't do what is being said in theses next few sentences DO NOT DO DRUGS !!! ).Were there are drugs being dealed on the streets,buildings looking like the slightest amount of wind could blow them down,people being mugged yeah if i could i could go all day with the downsides hear.

In this part of town i guess you don't have to be a certian age to rent an apartment.I new temperary home is in the fabulous shelton hotel.Yeah no it really isn't that fabulous.The place is a total dump.

I bet you're wondering why a kid with over 1 billion dollars is living in a place that looks like a tornado ran through a garbage dump and blew all the piles of debris around.Well would you pay 200-1,000 dollars on a apartment a night,no i think not.I'm trying to make my money last my hole life thank you ver much.

well the only room that i saw my self living in was way better than all the rest was room 1226.Let me tell you what the room didn't have.1 roaches,ants,mice,rats,crack heads in the corner,but the extreme thing is that all the bugs combined can spell the words welcome to our home.

I'm just glad the bugs are happy about the bugs staying there and thr crack heads doing crack.But mine has about 10 chalk outlines of the deseased,cobwebs,and last but not least bird droppings everywhere.I can move past the dead but the bird shit everywhere naw i don't think so.

The lease that i sighned alows me to decorate,fix,put things in and any thing else i need for an extra 100 dollars.So now i pay a total of $125.

I start school again tommorow and i don't know if i should be happy or just pissed.Think about it people would you like to go from school to schoool all the time moving.Yeah i think you would get mad doing the same thing over,over and over again.

The school i'm now going to is Shelton High.I actually googled the place and it's not so bad.Now i just have to see the people.

You know that curse I was telling you about.The one that this whole story is based on!!!!! yeah that one well with the curse killed my social life.I can't have friends.


chapter 3 : Yeah!!! It's Time For School,Syched :)


Shelton High,lots of freaking kids oh yeah it's a high.I can't wait for people to ask questions and stare at the new gilr like an alien,what funn.

Here we go.Excuse me lady where is the main office.My name is Mrs.sackatry and the office is 2 doors down on the left.Thanks lady.Mrs.sackatry,my name is Mrs.sackatry. "WHAT EVER !!!".I tryed to say it wit as much atitude as possible.But a girl can only give as much sarcasm as she can.

Here we are,main office.Excuse me miss,i need my claasss shcedule.Well miss whats you're name ? Faraganda Illane Mackavie.Oohhh wonderfull you're faraganda.we've been expecting you.

you don't have to call me by my full name,fara is good.Oh okay honey.Well let me call you you're pare.Wait what,what pare?

Oh you're pare that helps you get to you're classes on time and shows you were they are.This person has every single class with you.Why??.The reason is because thats our policy here at this school.Okay i get it.you don't have to keep elaborating!well hold on one moment while i call you're new friend.kay.

"Ms.share".yes this is Ms. share's class.can you send a Darren Welsh to the office please,is new friend is hear.sure.thank you.

Well Ms.mackavie i hope you enjoy shelton high school.My name is Ms.Ploopin and i hope i will get to see you later in the year.

Here we are young Darren.Ms.Mackavie here is you're buddy.Great here we go."Hi!!" i hear a strong voice call behind me.You're Darren?yep the one and only in the school,how do you do.Yeah i can't do this miss.Can i have a girl or something other than this guy.well Ms.Mackavie.... Fara or Faraganda,don't call me by my last name.Okay fara,well darren is the only guy that has every single class wit you.

you too do still know i'm standing right here right.ohh i'm sorry dude but i can't have a guya cute as you showing me around.i mean this guy is so cute that he look like a guy who would been in a movie like taylor lautner.Like she said i am the only one.Okay fine,lets get this over wit Darren.Have fun you too said MS.sare with a funny tone.

Well welcome to shelton high.yeah okay i think we got off on the wrong foot.lets try this again,erase and rewind.My name is Fara,Faraganda Mackavie.The reason i said Fara because i would really like you to call me Fara.you're turn.

Okay i don't think i can beat that,let me try.My name is Darren Welsh.no nickname whats so ever.

Since i'm going to e stuck with you for a while,i would like to get to know you.You first!!

Well i like Math,Gym,Science,Art and last but not least Lunch.how about you Fara.the way he said my nam was soo beautifull.

I hesitatde for a quick second and then snaped back.Well i don't like to talk that much about me but let me think.I like Art, Music and that spritty much it.

so what school did you go to before shelton Fara? Well i've been many places siince my parents died in a car accident.oh i'm sorry fara,i truely am.No don't be darren it was my fault anyway.

NO,NO,NO Fara stop and look at me right now.You are not responsible for you're parents death.oh yeah he didn't know,what i'm not going to tell him.Thanks Darren,i feel like we've been talking for hours and hours but just for 2 minutes.Yeah i kinda like this,can i tell you something Fara? sure,what is it Darren?well you're the person i've had the longest conversation with anybody since i was little.maybe we can become friends.well Darren i love talking to you but i can't,i just can't.

What,why,you said you even liked this.well i can't see you or anyone get hurt,i've been through to much to mess it up now.what do you mean fara? i don't can't explain.Fara you can't explain or you just don't want to?

Darren can you just show me my classes please.sure 1st period Math with Mrs.blotch.Dont stare at her right eye to much.why? because you'll see soon.Hi Mrs.blotch,herrs you're new student.Oh yes thank you Darren.welcome to advanced Math....OMG whats up with you're with you're eye.Well Ms. Mackavie i'm would be sad right now but thats every kids reaction to my eye i'm just happy you got it out of you're system now will you take you're seat next to darren.

Well it seems so far you can't get rid of me.he says in asarcastic tone.Okay class take a look to the person on you're left because thats you're new partner.Well lots stop right here Darren i don't want to be