I Don't Want To Love 2 : Don't Give up On Me by Nyree (reading diary txt) 📕

to tap the side of his leg.I don't hear people getting to knnow each other,i hollard from the other room.I feard Darren and Mathew chucckle a little bit when i said that.Iwasn't going back to smeine started to talk.Darren started the conversation first.So Mathew how long have you known Faraganda?I've known her for almost two years.I was her neighbor for a year and a half when we were little,before i moved.She was like another me back then.We had everything in common.We had stupid kame things in common like t.v shows,colors,actors/actreses,teachers and more.Just lame stuff.Then i moved back to stay but then i found out she was moving in a year.She started to keep to herself after her parents died.I walked back to wDarren and Mathew were.

The thoughts on my parents made me sad angery angry like they use too.I faked a smile as soon as i saw them both.Ikissed Darren and whispered in his ear "Don't worry when i get back,it's on."A big smile crossed his face and hissed me harder with more passion and aingst.Okay Mathew lets go.

We walked to the garage.If Mathews Jaw wasn't atached to is head and face,i think it would have actually hit the ground.You have two Ferrari's !!!!Yeah we also had one of those kia soul and the Honda.

Darren got me the soul for my twentythird birthday.I told him i didn't want a car but he insisted.I clicked the button that made the car that goes with it make a noise.The keys didn't go to the Honda.They went to the soul.The pretty red kia soul.I yelled "You tricked me" into the open air,but i know he heard my though.

I guess were taking the soul,you don't mind do you Mathew?No as long as i go some place to get some rest.It's a little bit chilly out hear do you want me to turn on the heat?No i'm cool,so when did you get the car?Ididn't get the car Darren did for me for my twentythird birthday.Your twentythree,i didn't know that.You still look like your in your teens,like your eighteen.Its kinda funny that he said that because that was when i was trasformed to this.Stuck at the age of eighteen.But thank you.Where did the time go Fara.I remember when we were just kids making mud pies and playing house.I remember when we played house.

You should because you always kept sending me to jail..You kept sending me there because i wouldn't wash the fake dishes.Yeah i liked seeing you in the pillow jail asking "can i come out now" over and over again.How long have you been married?All most six years today.So your not at that six year mark yet?No i'm not,on a friday three moths from now.Wow.Yep.Are you happyily married?Of course i am.I'm married to a man that loves me the same amount i love him or ten times more.Plus we have two beautiful twi girls.You have twins?I saw a sighn of shock appear on his face again,but it stayed longer this time.

It was silent for a few minutes.Okay hear we are.This is were you use to live.Yeah,sorry the place is in the bad part of town.But i wanted a place that wouldn't cost a lot of money to rent for a few months.A few months,your leaving.Well not anymore.Befor i thought i was just going to stay for a few months but then i found Darren or he found me.I dated him,got ingaged,had kids and stayed ever since.We took the elavatore to room 1226.I opened the door and walked in first.It all seemed so different.

It was almost bare,i guess Darren did move most of my stuff to the house.Wow this place looks abandodned but homey at the same time.Thank you i haven't been hear for years,i kinda forgot how i decorated it.Well hear you go,beds in the other room,kitchen,bathroom.You can do anything to the apartment exept knock out any walls or try to build on to it.I'll pay for the next four months of rent.Thank you Fara but you don't have to do that.Come on your and old friend,friends help friends.

Thank you so much Faraganda Merie Mackavie.He hugged me.He shivered at my cold touch.Your so cold Fara.Yeah and your so warm.He pulled away a litlle bit.I saw the clock and it said it was eleven thirty.Almost twelve at night and a start to the weekend i looked forward to.He stared at me for a few seconds.I blinked for less than fourty nano seconds.Then felt his lips pressed feirce against mine.I enjoyed it for a second because i did have a thing for him in the past.I pushed away.Mat What the hell are you doing.I haven't heard you call me Mat in so long.He tried to kiss me again but i pushed harder.

What the hell are you doing.I loved you Fara and i missed you so much.Thinling about the good times and seeing you again-.i cut him off mid sentence.Mat i'm married with two kids.I love Darren,i married himm because i love him and he loves me.My name is now Faraganda Merie Welsh.I'm sorry Fara,i just.Just what Mat,what.I can't deal with this right now.I gota go you can stay hear but don't come to my house for a while.Fara please.No Mat im not going to do this.I left and slamed the door behind me.If i didn't controll my self i probubly would have ripped it off it's hindges.I payed for his rent and drove off kinda slow like.I didn't want to get there in a hurry because i didn't want him to see me like this.

I pulled up into the driveway and i saw Darren stareing out the window with a smile on his face.I tried to fake the pain and guilt i had.But i never was a good liar,especually to the ones i loved.And Darren was definaitly one of them.I ran up the stairs and into his arms.I know he felt something wrong with me.He looked at me with worried eyes and that when i knew he knew.Whats wrong,what happened.I focused trying to find out what was racing through his mind but i couldn't.

I guess my emotions were blocking my ability.Nothing Darren i'm okay.No your not i know you and your not fine.Okay,please don't freak out but Mat kissed me.His stance tensed,eyes narrowed.He balled his fists.The were balled together so tight that i thought his finger were either going to brake or his nuckles pop out of his skin.Does he know your married and that we have two beautiful daughters.Yes i told him before he kissed me about ten times and after.It was quiet for a long time.He walked out of tyhe door and ran to the nearest tree and punched it.I hated seeing him like this.Well actually i never seen him this angery except when i was being hurt.

Mathew was a very good friend.I never told anyone this,not even Darren and i wasn't sure if i should even tell him.There was one key thing that happened before i left.I said my good by's to some of my friends.Well i actually didn't tell them.I didn't want then to get hurt in any way because of me.

Before i left he told me how he actually felt about me.I guess i didn't want to remember that moment because i felt the same way he did.I loved him and back then i new what would happen to those i loved.So i shut out those emotions and feelings.Darren was the first person who brought those emothions back up to me and i missed those emotions so much.Darren just kept paceing back and forth.Punching tree after tree.Some of the tree's fell and others just had gaping hles in them.

I tried to calm him down but he just kept punching.I sat on the step just watching him.It was around three am when i last looked at the clock.Me emotions started to set and i finally heard some of the things Darren was think.He was extremly mad and he seriously never wanted to see Mat's face ever again.I was sick of seeing him beating up helpless trees.If i let him continue he probubly clear the whole forest.

I ran to him and grabbed on of the rms that was going to hit the tree right in front of it.He looked at me with a little bit of worry on his face.I laid my hand on his cheek.He grabed the hand that was at my side and touched the hand sitting on his cheek.He started to smile.He pulled my hand away from his face and kissed my hands.I smerked a little bit.No more worry okay,i got you forever and you got me.He kissed me softly.Fine no worry.We stayed out there staring at each other.The sun started to rise.Now it was saturday morning,one day lost.But i know we had two more days to go.So that made me happy.

He brushed a peice of hair out of my face.Then in an instint i was off the ground and into his arms.I laughed and smiled.He set me down and kissed me.I felt that monster who hungered for is soft smooth touch take me over.I knew and felt everything i was doing.But it was like i was a totaly different person.Night Fall finally roled around.


Chapter 12:Who's howling in in the night


For the past few weeks we've been hearing nothing but howls in the night.Sometimes we go outside at night and watch the starts.But with the howls in the night we kinda stopped doing that.Yeah i'm a worried mother.I know they can protect them selves and each other.But what is a mother to do in her spare time besides worry.So who do you think is going all that howling at night?

Sapphire and Sophia we a sleep,snug in there little beds.It the wolves coming to steal my beautifull wife away from me because i truly don't deserve you.I smiled then a bad thought crossed my mind.What,what is it Fara.Nothing i don't want to worry you.Come on,i'm a husband and a