A woman Who is Searching For Nothing by Filamie Lourly Cacdac (big screen ebook reader TXT) 📕

Part 1: Dedication

Dedication

 

To my Family

Thank you for being my support system from the day I set my foot here on earth until now and forever. I owe you all everything for you all never fail to be there with me regardless of the predicaments that we all have been through. You all have driven me to keep moving forward and the reason why I stand up every single time I fail. 

To God

I am grateful to you for you have never forsaken me. You are my map that keeps leading me to the cross which is my salvation as well as my redemption every time I am lost or commit a mistake. Should you have gone somewhere else, I couldn’t have written this book without you by my side for all these pearls of wisdom actually came from you. To God be the glory.

Friends

You are my inspiration, role model, the characters and or roles in my novel. I am thankful for I have met all of you otherwise this book is nothing without you all, who have been a part of me. Somehow, somewhere, I hope that this book will reach you and inspire you too. I have written this book on August 12, 2008, therefore, no one is exempted and if I meant friend, that includes YOU.

 

Foreword

Foreword

 

An era of her existence…

Memoir of one’s being…

 

Life in a more profound way is really an internal conflict between ourselves. This is the era of one’s life wherein there are always two doors to choose from or perhaps crossroads for others. Two mysterious doors that if you chose the wrong one, you will surely receive the savage aftermath of life hence consequences of one’s wrongful act.

 

It is like a lurking, voracious beast which will tear your flesh and devour your soul. However, no one is ever certain about which one is the right one or the wrong one until you explore it yourself. You ought to take the risk upon choosing which door to open. How will you be able to know the right one? Is there really a right path? Know the secret of this girl and  how she became a “WOMAN WHO IS SEARCHING FOR NOTHING.”

 

“Hope exists in everyone. When you lose it then you’re in trouble. For the meantime, try to remember that today is a new day and you can still do something about it."

Synopsis

Synopsis

A realm of her own and a world she dwells by herself, disclosing every phase of existence and touches every page of her memory. Twenty-one lovely, unscathed tulips in hand, her diary and the exquisite little entity parallel to her heart lived to be her boon companion during her journey outside the fence.

 

She sought vengeance and intended to inflict pain against the people who have slaughtered her body and caused her sufferings, those who have destroyed her wit and led her dreams astray.

 

One ruthless felony shall unfold the insidious culprit but the eyes of light will reveal the stigma of an unchained sanctuary. The sacrifice of a woman who shall then turn the withered leaf into its mellow dancing of ebullience, leading the people of their land to an eternal cruise of a huge and unsinkable craft.

 

Her search for nothing…

Perceived beyond everything…

Chapter 1: The range of rainwater

Chapter 1

The range of rainwater in the forest is reflected in this rich symphony of night sounds. Choruses of insects and frogs fill the air with their song as condensing mist drips a rhythmic beat. Dozens of seeds and bulbs sprinkled and distributed on the fertile soil, waiting for the sun to brighten them in their next springtide.

 

A baby was born and a child grew somewhere in no particular abode. Life began meander existence with abyss happiness. For a child that has no worries, she’d always play along with other kids in town, pretended to be a princess, played as a doctor, cooked as a mother and did whatever her heart’s desires then she grew taller and was sent to school.

 

Here she saw how life must have taken place. From a youngster who possessed nothing but innocence have gained loads of query as she moved on to a new phase of her life. Some rude girls threw ruthless words against her, bullied her but she had no chance to ask why. A space in the heart began to wonder why the awareness for such emotions she’d never felt before. Feeling sorry for herself, she kept in silence for she knew that it was the best thing. Perhaps life is supposed to be that way. She never shed a tear, nor did she cry in silence for she knew that perhaps she deserved those things. Maybe it was her fault so she never fought back, besides she was so helpless. 

The girl manages the cycle...

This girl manages the cycle of the physical world during junior high, faced whatever difficulties came in her way and met new beings. During this phase of life, she senses some fondness on some particular individual. A desire to be caressed by which her heart has its place, a sensation grew intensely she was aware of. When she’s being persecuted and intimidated by someone else, he was there to protect and defend her. It was somewhat beyond her belief for she did not anticipate such an event in her life. 

 

 

“(laughing impishly)…what did you say loser?” A chorus of mischief was heard inside the classroom. They were having an activity when some of the girls picked her to tease.

 

“Leave her alone,” a tough voice came out from the back, giving a stern look at the girl who was mean to her. 

“Sit beside me, you’ll be safe here,” Enos directs her, as he guides her to sit beside him. They both ignored the mean girl who walked away from them, causing everyone to stay silent.

She sits beside him...

She sits beside him as being told, safely and in peace. A subtle smile suddenly appears on her innocent face because there is a real protector she never expected to come along. A real story of a knight in shining armour as they always say. For her, he is the most seamless guy she’d ever met. Tall, dark and handsome…those hands she wishes to hold, straight and fine hair that she adores, tidy shoes and his fine penmanship she habitually gazes upon. 

 

One day, much to her most utter surprise, a dreadful hearsay about the guy which rattles her as if she’d turned into ice and became speechless. She thought that they had the connection going on but all of it was just an assumption on her part. Her bones suddenly weakened and she leaned on the table for support otherwise she might lose her balance. Everything seems static and she couldn’t even feel her body. A voice wants to remind her that she had turned into red because of flushed cheeks. She wishes to hide such emotion but nothing really matters more than her first heartbreak with the man who used to be her first love.

 

Tears of the heart remain inside her which made her want to be embraced by the dimness of so-called nowhere. 

Before long, she met lovely

Before long, she met lovely people. “MY LOVES,” was their terms of endearment. These five damsels let their playful minds comfort them and they remain as calm as the sand still on the