The Life Of The Confused by Missy Miah (scary books to read txt) 📕

There was a 17 year old girl named Penelope Goodman. She was “confused” about what she wanted, according to her mom. Even though she didn’t care about what her mom thought most of the time, this subject really got to her. Her birthday is close and she has some things on her mind. She began to explore boys and girls. She knew that her mom wouldn't like the idea of that so she tried to convince herself she only liked boys, which was easy, since she already had a boyfriend. His name is Jundor White. He was sweet, outgoing, and REALLY sexy but He can be a little overprotective. She loves Jundor but there’s only one problem, her very close friend, Jayda Davis. They have been friends since 3rd grade, they spend every weekend with each other. But it was this weekend that was very exciting.

Like usual, they met at steak & shake to have some food then they go to a movie. This saturday, Penelope dug through her closet and put on her white and sky blue fitted dress with white heels and a sky blue purse. Jayda was always earlier then her so when she got there jayda was already sitting down at a table. Jayda was wearing a black and red silk dress with a garnet necklace with black heels, "You look amazing” said penelope, smiling at Jayda, Jayda looked up from her phone and walked over to penelope, “you look better” Penelope nodded in agreement and Jayde rolled her eyes smiling, walking back to the table, Penelope followed. Once they sat down, a waiter came and asked what they would like, “ Can I get the chocolate mint milkshake, a hamburger with no onions and fries please” said penelope. The waiter nods at Penelope and turns to Jayda, “i’ll have the same” “copycat” muttered Penelope, and smiled. Jayda kicked her under the table and penelope jumped, “ow” Jayda smiled at that. Penelope already knew that jayda liked only girls and she knew Penelope only liked boys. The waiter came back with their food and Penelope popped a fry in her mouth, “so, how’s it been going?” “Pretty ba-, I’ve missed you.” said jayda, reaching for penelope’s hand. Penelope looked at jayda’s hand then up at her, “Jayda you know I don’t like girls” “yeah i know, but i’m not going to hide the way I feel for you just because.” Trying to change the subject, she said, “well you ready to go?” Jayda looked up at her, “can I eat first?” “fine”

When Jayda and Penelope got to the movies, they decided on watching the conjuring 2. Penelope wasn’t worried about her mom being scared about where she was at 10:30, because she didn’t care, “Shit, it’s the weekend, go have fun”, is what she always said. The person she was worried about though was her dad. But she remembered he was out of town, cheating on her mom with a woman at his job. When she found out she debated whether or not she would tell her mom. She knew her mom would have asked him if it was true and of course he would have denied it and beat her for assuming. She felt that it was best not to say anything and so she didn’t.  They went to the back of the theatre and shared a large popcorn extra butter and white cheddar cheese, a slurpee, and a blanket. During the movie, Penelope looked over at jayda. She felt she should do what she wanted to do for once in her life. But she didn’t. It was a lot harder than it sounds, considering that Jayda kept holding her hand and rubbing her thighs. The movie went off but they weren’t ready to go home. Jayda can go home whenever she wants, her and her mom didn’t care for each other that much, that always made Penenlope feel sad for Jayda because they used to be really close but pne day things changed. “ask your mom if you can spend the night over my house.” Jayda said to penelope ”Is your mom ok with that?” asked Penelope with a worried expression. Jayda looked at her with a “duh” look on her face, “she loves you and she probably won’t even care, as long as she doesn’t see me, she’ll be fine with it.” Penelope looked at Jayda sadly, and touched her shoulder ”don’t say that” “it’s nothing but the truth.” Said Jayda, looking down at the ground. Since she did want to spend the night and it was already 12:00 she decided to just call her mom and ask if she could spend the night and of course she said yes. They went to watch If I stay and she let her urges get the best of her, she barely listened to her mother any other time, why should she now? When they got bored with the movie they left and went to the food court. When Penelope sat down at the table in front of jayda, she quickly said “So do you really like me. Like more than a friend?” Jayda gets really red and says, “of course, I mean you are amazing, who wouldn’t” “I’m so sorry, I didn’t mean to make you embarrassed.” Penelope says, smiling at her reaction Jayda smiles at her, “It’s okay, I figured that question was coming.” Suddenly, penelope had the urge to kiss her, like if she didn’t she would regret it. So she closed her eyes, leaned towards Jaya and hoped she would kiss her back. She felt Jayda’s lips on hers and she smiled, still kissing her. Penelope pulled back from the kiss and Jayda bit her lip then let it go and got out of the seat. She held her hand out to Penelope and said, “you ready to go?” Penelope put her bottom lip in her mouth and smiled and took jayda’s hand and they left, best night ever thought penelope, looking at jayda.

Penelope was laying in Jayda’s bed with her eyes closed going over what happened last night in her head. She couldn’t help but wonder what this meant. Does this mean we’re a thing now? Penelope thought. I mean it was just one really really long amazing kiss she thought. Fuck, what am I going to say to Jundor? I love Jundor, why would I break up with him? She started to get flustered and panicky but calmed down when she heard Jayda enter the room and say, “I know you’re up. I made you breakfast.” Penelope smiled and thought That’s why “I really just wanted cereal but than-” Jayda dramatically put her hand on her heart and gasped, “I am so hurt. I slaved in that kitchen ALL morning making you pancakes, bacon and eggs and this is how you repay me?” Penelope rolls her eyes and looks up at her and laughs, “Give me my food.” Jayda hands her the plate and sits on the bed in front of her. “So, why are you being so nice?” penelope says as Jayda picks up a piece of bacon and eats it, Penelope pouts and yells “put that back, it’s not your food.” Jayda laughs and eats the piece of stolen bacon then says, “Do you want me to tell you why I’m being so nice or no?” Penelope cuts a piece off her pancake and eats it then nods, Jayda smiles and says, “well I want to ask you something.” “I knew it, I knew you wanted something from me. Damn,why can’t you just be nice to me out of the kindness of your heart?” “Who’s ever nice to people out of the kindness of their heart?” Penelope rolls her eyes and says, “what is it?” “Are we gonna date now?” “P, you know I have a boyfriend, that I love very much. You really want me to make a decision like that?” Jayda looks at her in disbelief, “I understand you have a boyfriend but you’ve known how i feel about you for forever and then you kissed me last night, you were really happy, you’re still happy right now in this moment. I never see you smile as much as you do with me, with Jundor ever. You’re not even willing to give us a chance?” penelope looked down at the bed then said, “You’re right but it’s hard to just let someone you love go.” jayda sighs and gets up from the bed and walks toward the door, “When you make a decision, let me know.” Penelope smacks her teeth and says, “Are you actually mad right now?” Jayda stops and scoffs than turns around, “yes, honestly, I am mad. I’m mad because you kissed ME you’re happier with ME you smile more with ME you love ME more but because i’m a girl it’s a big deal. You’re playing with my fucking emotions, do you not get that?” “I do bu-” “I don’t really care, when you’re done with your breakfast leave.” Jayda turns back around and leaves the room, slamming the door on the way, making Penelope jump.

Penelope finishes her breakfast and gerts out of the bed and puts on her jacket and shoes. She goes downstairs and sees jayda watching tv. She opens the front door and leaves.

    It’s been a few days and penelope hasn’t even sent jayda a text message. She was sitting in her bed looking at the selfies her and jayda took the night of the incident and