I wasn't always like this by Cama seeney (an ebook reader TXT) 📕

I just want to start with I wasnt always like this. We weren’t always like this. For starters we were happy. We were never hit. Never, which is funny really – I am sourounded by people yet I have never felt more alone. Fucking Solomon told my him I had snuck out of the house to go to a party – truth be told I had snuck out but not for a party. I’d snuck out because I saw something in the woods, eyes like golden flames.

I shook my head that didn’t matter now, none of it did. I stood in the middle of the ‘townhall’ really it was basically a big torture chamber or somewhere you sold the young ones off for marage. Sounds bad right? People do it willingly. He stood there with a whip, slashing my back. People stood there and watched. Watched. I was not friendly with the monsters hiding in my clauset because he was real. He was my farther. My wolf screamed in my head – no im not crazy I am a shifter; well im standing in a room full of them.

I had went to see mum, to see my little brother. Yes I am in the wrong for saying hello to my dead brother and mother. I can still feel their pain deep in my heart. I can hear her cries as we found out he had canser. It was the only thing that killed us; other then a good head chopping we were pretty hard to kill. Other than old age and Canser we were pretty tough. That’s how I still stood at twenty lashes. At thirty I waded side to side, my arms and torse were covered. Suddenly the doors burst open. Lucas came barging in roaring. ‘How dare you touch our future Alpha in such a manner. Be ashamed.’ Lucas shouted carrying me down from my stage of embaracemnt. Wolves whinned and left embaraced.

‘No each and everyone of you can… clean up the blood you have spilt here. Each and everyone of you are on round the clock guard duty no matter your position. Now you Alpha go home and sober up.’ Only Lucas would get away with this, he was my Ed, my extra dad. His wife Rosalie was just as wonderful. ‘Hush now go to sleep. You Sol. Home. Now!’ He whispered yet Sol whined and followed us, Lucas dropped me into his arms and told him to carry me to his wife.

Lucas walked away but I didn’t say anything I knew Sol couldn’t do anything now. ‘Stupid bitch, bleading all over me.’ He muttered annoyed shifting my weight. ‘Maybe I wouldn’t be beaten if youd think Sol. I went to geo see my mum not go to a party. Why are you so horrible to me, what have I done?’ I pleaded, but I seemed to only be pleading to a blank wall. Tomorrow I am 18, tomorrow I will find my mate. He will chalange my dad, or hell take me far from here. I will be fine, one more day right?

You have me, you have no need for a mate.

Are you okay? – I asked a little worried, she had been present less and less lately.

Yes. Just stop fantasising about our mate, you wont like who it is.

Do you know who it is? – I asked intrigued

Of course I do. So do you.

Lets just say this wasn’t the first bad sign. By the time we got to Sol’s house I was lulling to sleep in his golstling arms. Unconfortable, but I was okay. I would not be this way forever. I will be okay. Sols stupid boring eyes smirked into mine as if he knew I was planning an escpae. How would it aid him? Rosaline laid me down on her table and added her salves and medicines, more importantly she fed me some of her blood. That is how warriors heal in battle, honey and blood were the soul search and rescue of the healing world. I quickly slept.

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I woke the next morning afraid, I kept picturing my mothers body. It had only been a month but It felt like hours some times. I ran through the forest back home. I head a commotion down stairs but knew better than to look, dad got really funny when even mom went down there. I showered with moderately cold water, my back was still a slab of useless meat. Painful and red raw, maybe if I showed my mate he could heal me.

I ran to school without my backpack little mattered today. I got to school and nothing. I sighed and leaned against my locker; great what was I going to say – sorry my dad beat me last night, I forgot my homework because I was fantsising about my boyfriend killing him. I doubt that would go down too well. ‘Em told me about last night you okay?’ Millie stood infornt of me waving a coffee infront of my face. Her folks own a nice coffee shop in town, she worked there and we always got free drinks. Ever since I went in for a job interview at 10, Millie was still working there even then. My mother wanted me to have my own money – now because of every weekend and holidays work for eight years I was pretty high in money. I haven’t even spent my first pay check. ‘Thankyou, I love you and ofcourse you did. It’s just another Monday morning; people will get over it.’

I snarled at the girls hovering close hoping to catch some gossip, they should have learned I don’t talk about it. People were afraid of my farther but I’m the one who always receives the blunt end of the lashes and there okay with it. ‘Mmm whats that smell? Ahh that’s really delicious did you bring cookies?’ I asked looking at millies died black hair, she was moderately slim with big flattering eyes. Well busted and had a but to die for, piercing that looked like they hurt but other than being a little bit way goth she was pretty amazing. ‘Follow it you dummie hes here!!’ She squeeled. ‘Ouch right in the warm and fuzzies much!’ I muttered but did as she told me. She clutched my hand tightly, for the last months shes being wanting him as much as I had. My pain has always and forever will be her pain.

We ran around the corner giggling and almost falling tit over arse, we slid to a stop and there he stood. Dark hair, tall and Oh shit it was Sol.

I told you.

I laughed so loud, right in his face. 'Ugh I must be cursed!' he shouted angrily slamming some innocent kid with his fist. 'Oh but honnie I love you so' I replied sarcastically, I sneered in his face. 'I want you tittle thats all you physo bitch' He muttered angrily. 

 I looked at Sol amused. 'Haa as if I'd give you a first let alone second chance.' I told him. Wolves all gathered around us, everyone of them to scared to help me. 'Solomon, you complete jack ass I formally reject you.' He roared at me angrily. 'Oh come on you knew it was going to be me. We are the only Alpha and beta in country.' I said laughing, he actually had the cheek to look hurt. He stepped towards me angrily, his fist slammed into my stomach so hard I gasped. As did many of the spectators around us. I growled deeply and swiped the dark blond hair from my face, it was cut short because long hair just annoyed me. I had intense grey / blue eyes and a brown mark that almost looked red in my left eye. It had always been there. At five foot three and barely nine stone I was no match for this guy even if I had alpha blood. His hair was the same blond as both his parents and his blue eyes were also similar to their though none of the shades matched one another. He towered over six foot and he was pretty much pure muscle. I stepped forward and seemed to leak power. 'How dare you hit your future Alpha.' I shouted outraged. This wasn't me. I had  no control of my body now, my feral and wild side took able. Glad to finally fight. 'I was supposed to be alpha!' He screamed charging at me again. This time I darted out of the way easily I snorted 'Never.' I snarled with such venom it scared me. 'Caiden' My best friend screamed at me, one of her my pack held her back. She was a low wolf and normally went unnoticed which was why I had befriended her, she was so loving and care free. 

'She's wild' The suggestion seemed to float around the corador. 'Her eyes' Another whispered. They felt like they were burning. Sol jumped at me again, unfaised all he wanted was my title. His fists slammed into me again and again. I was used to this. I stood back up, I would keep fighting till my last breath. 'How is she still standing?' I heard Mill whisper in shock. 'Wears are tough Mill. Alpha wouldn't want you to get involve, we should leave.' Some one begged her. Eventually someone dragged him off of me, I fell into strong arms. The last thing I saw was green  eyes. After that it was all darkness. 

I woke up in my house, I heard the commotion downstairs. The cellar, we had a prisoner. I ran down the stairs grimacing with every step. I saw my farther and Lucian standing facing a woman and her child, I could tell they were dragon shifters they smelt of fire instead of wood. Everyone smelt different, a whole combination of smells but each breed smelt only of one kind, come to think of it, the place had smelt weird yesterday I had forgot to ask. The woman cried and cried, begging for her child's life. 'No! You tress pass, attack seven of my warriors and expect mercy you've got to be kidding me. I order you to die in the morning. Any person tries to save him and they too are dead. ' The woman's golden eyes met mine. I had never met a dragon before. Ever, they turned into massive beasts of pure destruction. Their weren't any for thousands of miles around here.