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Having led him about ten paces, Willarski stopped.
βWhatever happens to you,β he said, βyou must bear it all manfully if you have firmly resolved to join our Brotherhood.β (Pierre nodded affirmatively.) βWhen you hear a knock at the door, you will uncover your eyes,β added Willarski. βI wish you courage and success,β and, pressing Pierreβs hand, he went out.
Left alone, Pierre went on smiling in the same way. Once or twice he shrugged his shoulders and raised his hand to the kerchief, as if wishing to take it off, but let it drop again. The five minutes spent with his eyes bandaged seemed to him an hour. His arms felt numb, his legs almost gave way, it seemed to him that he was tired out. He experienced a variety of most complex sensations. He felt afraid of what would happen to him and still more afraid of showing his fear. He felt curious to know what was going to happen and what would be revealed to him; but most of all, he felt joyful that the moment had come when he would at last start on that path of regeneration and on the actively virtuous life of which he had been dreaming since he met Joseph AlexΓ©evich. Loud knocks were heard at the door. Pierre took the bandage off his eyes and glanced around him. The room was in black darkness, only a small lamp was burning inside something white. Pierre went nearer and saw that the lamp stood on a black table on which lay an open book. The book was the Gospel, and the white thing with the lamp inside was a human skull with its cavities and teeth. After reading the first words of the Gospel: βIn the beginning was the Word and the Word was with God,β Pierre went round the table and saw a large open box filled with something. It was a coffin with bones inside. He was not at all surprised by what he saw. Hoping to enter on an entirely new life quite unlike the old one, he expected everything to be unusual, even more unusual than what he was seeing. A skull, a coffin, the Gospelβit seemed to him that he had expected all this and even more. Trying to stimulate his emotions he looked around. βGod, death, love, the brotherhood of man,β he kept saying to himself, associating these words with vague yet joyful ideas. The door opened and someone came in.
By the dim light, to which Pierre had already become accustomed, he saw a rather short man. Having evidently come from the light into the darkness, the man paused, then moved with cautious steps toward the table and placed on it his small leather-gloved hands.
This short man had on a white leather apron which covered his chest and part of his legs; he had on a kind of necklace above which rose a high white ruffle, outlining his rather long face which was lit up from below.
βFor what have you come hither?β asked the newcomer, turning in Pierreβs direction at a slight rustle made by the latter. βWhy have you, who do not believe in the truth of the light and who have not seen the light, come here? What do you seek from us? Wisdom, virtue, enlightenment?β
At the moment the door opened and the stranger came in, Pierre felt a sense of awe and veneration such as he had experienced in his boyhood at confession; he felt himself in the presence of one socially a complete stranger, yet nearer to him through the brotherhood of man. With bated breath and beating heart he moved toward the Rhetor (by which name the brother who prepared a seeker for entrance into the Brotherhood was known). Drawing nearer, he recognized in the Rhetor a man he knew, SmolyanΓnov, and it mortified him to think that the newcomer was an acquaintanceβhe wished him simply a brother and a virtuous instructor. For a long time he could not utter a word, so that the Rhetor had to repeat his question.
βYes... I... I... desire regeneration,β Pierre uttered with difficulty.
βVery well,β said SmolyanΓnov, and went on at once: βHave you any idea of the means by which our holy Order will help you to reach your aim?β said he quietly and quickly.
βI... hope... for guidance... help... in regeneration,β said Pierre, with a trembling voice and some difficulty in utterance due to his excitement and to being unaccustomed to speak of abstract matters in Russian.
βWhat is your conception of Freemasonry?β
βI imagine that Freemasonry is the fraternity and equality of men who have virtuous aims,β said Pierre, feeling ashamed of the inadequacy of his words for the solemnity of the moment, as he spoke. βI imagine...β
βGood!β said the Rhetor quickly, apparently satisfied with this answer. βHave you sought for means of attaining your aim in religion?β
βNo, I considered it erroneous and did not follow it,β said Pierre, so softly that the Rhetor did not hear him and asked him what he was saying. βI have been an atheist,β answered Pierre.
βYou are seeking for truth in order to follow its laws in your life, therefore you seek wisdom and virtue. Is that not so?β said the Rhetor, after a momentβs pause.
βYes, yes,β assented Pierre.
The Rhetor cleared his throat, crossed his gloved hands on his breast, and began to speak.
βNow I must disclose to you the chief aim of our Order,β he said, βand if this aim coincides with yours, you may enter our Brotherhood with profit. The first and chief object of our Order, the foundation on which it rests and which no human power can destroy, is the preservation and handing on to posterity of a certain important mystery... which has come down to us from the remotest ages, even from the first manβa mystery on which perhaps the fate of mankind depends. But since this mystery is of such a nature that nobody can know or use it unless he be prepared by long and diligent self-purification, not everyone can hope to attain it quickly. Hence we have a secondary aim, that of preparing our members as much as possible to reform their hearts, to purify and enlighten their minds, by means handed on to us by tradition from those who have striven to attain this mystery, and thereby to render them capable of receiving it.
βBy purifying and regenerating our members we try, thirdly, to improve the whole human race, offering it in our members an example of piety and virtue, and thereby try with all our might to combat the evil which sways the world. Think this over and I will come to you again.β
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