Howl at me by Cama Seeney (best non fiction books to read txt) 📕

mirrors on against the wall. I faught the erge to run. 

'Look in the mirror and tell me you are a beautiful, smart warrior.' . I shook my head once, not wanting to look, I turned away. Not wanting the tears to fall. 'If you can't see the beauty I do then I will buy a million mirrors until you do. Look longer and look harder. You are not the monster you pretend to be. Everyone is broken here, no single one of us is perfect. We wouldn't be here if we wern't. You are a surviver you just need to see it, believe it' 

 

I turned my head looking in to my weird eyes. My long auborn hair was bound back, reaching to the middle of my back. I was well brested, and slim. Well compared to the guy's sourounding me. My hipps jutted out, and annoyed me. My Stomouch wasn't completely flat but I had a thy gap - my body confused me. I mean you can see the outline of my ribbs yet I didn't have a flat belly. It was like my body wanted to be slim yet couldn't. My legs and arms were muscled from all the running and situps I had done for years prior to this 'training'.

 

At 9 stone and 5ft 2  I know I wasn't severely over weight nor really tiny but I personally disliked the weight I was. If I saw someone with my size and stature id not even blink an eye, so why did I hate myself so much? I sigh squeezing my eyes tightly shut. Not wanting to see my button nose, small ears hands and feet. I heard two retreating footsteps, maybe a third.

 

 Tears fell freely down my face, one after another. It was almost a race, like which could escape the quickest. I growled angry at myself for allowing my emotions to over whelm me. Cleanching my jaw a recited how stupid I was being mason had cried over his sister and me over myself how selfish.  'It dose not make you weak.' Den was close behind me, his arms wrapping themselves around my now tired and cold body. I nodded once, looking into his kind eyes. I remember the first time he took me into his arms, this big gentle creature. Never one to damage or break, maybe he should be a doctor. He had helped me when the torments of my past chanced me, and he had come now too. Would I never not need his help? Would for ever be in his debt? 

 

He didn't say anything, just led me into the middle of the room and began working on my form. I felt stronger and more worthy in his company. Like I belong, even though I was broken and unwanted. 

 

Much needed stresses

 Chapter 39

 

Tomorrow I have school. Today I am Den's project. He stood there with a punching bag whislt I tried to hit it without breaking my hand. Thud, thud, slap, shhhh....

 

Wait shh? Thats the door, I turned around to see hunter walk in slowly. 'She's no longer your worry why are you here?' asked Den annoyed. 'I am the best at mindread arent I?' He asked aproaching slowly. 'Yes, you are an Alpha.' He ground out. Well I think it'd be best if we make a truce, that way we wont have half a recon group and you're Apha needs more training than you can give her.'

 

Hunter turned to me with his boiling and freezing eyes, he may have been a real douche but atleast he cared for his pack. 'We don't need..' Den didn't even finish. I looked at him with wide eyes and awaited his responce to Hunters suggestion. 'Max you can't await on your beta, or what ever Den is to you. You are the only Alpha in your pack they must look up to you. Not you look to them for help.' Hunter told me softly. 'But I-i don't know how, I was never meant to be an Alpha, it's just because I'm a half breed witch with a crappy past.' I told him looking at the ground. 'Eyes, Alphas look other Alphas in the eyes, it's a sign of weekness if you dont. Look Max I can help you I just want to be included in the desisions of my.. I mean your pack.' He had began aproaching slowly.

 

Den growled and stood behind me. 'No, the people in my pack chose it for a reason. I will not hand the comand over to you. I will not hand control over to another person.' He growled at Den and looked me deeply in the eyes 'That's not what I'm asking. You - you have magic, in a few years no one will remember the pack you came from only that you are above them now. I just dont want people following you into war if you dont know what your doing. If you are not trianed correctally your chance at greatness will be taken away. ' He told me sternly. ' Do you, and don't give the bullcrap about being prepared for it your whole life. You are also half a pack down. I'm not saying that's your fault but neither of us is qulified for this!' I told him angry as to have been thrust into this war as much as he was. It wasnt right shapeshifters were humans too.

 

'You dont know?' He asked, I shook my head sadly. He took my hand gentally and sat down on the floor, awkwardly I followed him. Sitting cross legged he placed his head on mine, Den growled again so I reached out my hand and gripped his and that is when the nightmare began...

The lost battle

 Chapter fourty.

 

'Dad it's not fair when I'm Alpha I will adopt Chase it's not fair what his dad does to him.' His farther laughed humourlessly. 'Being Aplha isnt about who you adopt or not son, your entire pack is your responcibility. You dont get to pick and choose...' Suddenly the office door was thrown open; an exact replica of lee and Den ran in, his long dark hair a complete amiss. He was Hunters dad's beta, so why wasn't Den?

 

'Linclon were bein' attacked! Adults killed on sight children taken from there beds, Alpha you must open your mind link and listen!!' Both son and farther looked so distraught it was heartbreaking. Den ran inbehind his dad, 'They've taken Izzy... They took a bunch of kids from photography club, there was a meet out there. Alpha what do we do?' He was almost screaming, so frantic and afraid.

 

'Den take Hunter and collect the remaining children. We must keep them safe at all costs. Hunter, under twentys only. At all cost the children must be save no child under twenty is to come into the battle unless personally attacked I comand it!' He looked ready to argue but couldn't. He nodded and left with den, they both ran out into the barren forest collecting staragling kids, sending the lost soldiers back to their Alpha. That's when they saw it, the empty dead faces of the 'grown up' society. The warriors who had ran out blindly, were all dead. They had been taken supprised and fell into an asult of silver. The rest of the adult population, thoes able to fight charged and many died. Hunter and chase could do only what the Alpha demanded, they could not fight. It was physically imposible to bypass an Alpha's comand. A whole army of men lay before us, arms legs and faces burned untill no recognision could be found. Torsos never intact, bed clothes skattered. Mason just stood there tears streaming down his face, his sister in his arms. Suddenly she was dragged away and there was no way we could protect her with an Alpha comand.

 

I knew the second my farther was dead because teenagers everywhere began to lead the attack. That very night we all became murdrers. And it all meant nothing, everything was gone. The bodies were put into a mass grave in the moring where they were all burnt. The called it a forest fire... But we all knew the truth... The humans knew and they were out for war.

Gasping I opened my eyes...

Chapter 41

 I'm so sorry, Den your sister, mother and farther. And hunter your Alpha! He-he did it to save you not so you felt guilty.' I told him sadly as I moved away. 'I didn't show you for your sadness Max, I showed you this because our farhers died to save us, we could have helped and I cannot stand by and watch it happen again!' His sorrow sourounded him. 'Hunter, we are at a truce. I will not allow the forest people to die for nothing.' He nodded once before standing.

 

'I'm sorry you know. I-i pushed you too hard, even when you were human.' He admitted sadly. 'Hunter, it's not okay and it's not exceptible but I forgive you. Now go before my second viibrates into a millon peices' He chuckled before walking. 'I wasn't vibrating' he muttered moodily. 'You so were! My bones were rattling.' I pretended to be annoyed. 'Your bones always creep you old woman.' He said cockily. 'Well I am a witch they are supposed to be creeky and real ugly.' He suddenly jumped infront of me, he grabbed my sides and said 'take that back' in the most serious tone. 'Nope' I said giggling, thus began the tickling. Den the only man ever able to make me laugh, even when hunter left with a tear blinding his eye. It was hard to feel sad when this happy giant was tickling you half to death.

 

'We'll find her you know' I told den after the tickle war, this time we began with elbos and knees. 'Who?' He asked never taking his eyes from my ever moving