Destined to Change by Harley, M. (top android ebook reader TXT) 📕

lifted me up, wrapping my legs around his waist. It felt so good to be in his arms and to feel how much he wanted me. I hadn’t felt wanted like that in a long time. It was nice to know that I excited him as much as he did me.

Before I knew it he had carried me to the couch and I was straddling him. His lips never left mine and I ran my hand down his muscular chest, then his stomach, finally I stopped at the waist of his jeans.

He pulled his shirt over his head and started to do the same with mine. My mind was racing. I was feeling so many different emotions. I wanted him. He wanted me. I could feel him pressing against me. His kisses were so intense. I kept thinking about this afternoon, and how he had made me feel. I wanted to be with him like this. But that didn’t lessen the wave of fear that suddenly hit me. I didn’t know how to do this. I’d only been with one man. Declan. Oh my god, Declan. I pulled away from Jaxon. He looked up at me, he was breathing so heavy, “Did I do something wrong? Are you okay?”

I decided I should be honest. “Jaxon, I haven’t done anything like this in a while.”

“How long is a while, Loralei,” he asked.

“I haven’t been with anyone, well besides what we did this afternoon, since Declan. And we, uh, we only did it once.”

I had never been so embarrassed in my life, there was no way that he would want to be with me now. I expected him to run for the door screaming, but when I looked up he looked scared or sad, I couldn’t really tell.

“Did I hurt you today, Lor? I’m so sorry, I had no idea.”

Could this man be any more perfect? He was worried about hurting me, when all he did was give me the most amazing sexual experience I had had since I was sixteen years old.

I placed my hand on his cheek. “No Jaxon, you didn’t hurt me. I just don’t want to disappoint you. I’m a little naïve when it comes to this stuff, and I don’t want you to take my shyness as me not wanting to be with you, because I want that more than anything.”

“Loralei, I want to do this right. Our first time should be special and not a quickie on the couch, not that I am opposed to quickies on the couch, just for future reference.” God, that smirk would get me every time.

He reached out and pressed his hand into mine and asked me to lead him to my room. When we got there he laid down on my bed and motioned for me to lay down beside him. I crawled into bed and snuggled into his chest.

Bravely, I started to kiss his chest and trace the tattoo there and then when I nibbled on his nipple he moaned the deepest, sexiest moan I had ever heard. He placed his finger under my chin and tilted my head up to look at him. He pressed his lips to mine and when he slid his tongue into my mouth I returned the moan I had received from him earlier.

I ran my hand down his chest, his stomach, and my hands were shaking as I started to unzip his jeans. Jaxon grabbed my hand, whispering, “Slow down honey, there’s plenty of time for that. Tonight, let’s just, well - cuddle? Women love that, right?”

I giggled, “Yeah, I think I’ve heard that somewhere before.”

“Then it’s settled. I’m going to sleep with you tonight and I’m going to cuddle the shit out of you.”

“Well, when you put it like that, how can I turn you down?”

“I would never push you into anything, Lor. We have all the time in the world. I’m not going anywhere.”

 

 

 

Chapter 5

 

Loralei

 

I couldn’t understand why I was so hot and sweaty. And why I couldn’t move? And what the hell was poking me in the ass?  Suddenly, all of the memories of last night came back to me, along with the fear of God.

Jaxon kissed my neck. “Mornin’ sunshine, sleep well?”

Before I could respond I heard, “Mom! Mags hid my backpack and she won’t tell me where it is and I can’t go to school without it!” I heard the footsteps on the stairs and before I knew it the door flew open. Sammy stood there, staring at Jaxon and I snuggled up in bed together. I didn’t know what to say or how to react. I had no idea what to do so, I just laid there in stunned silence.

Jaxon broke the silence, “Hey little man, could you give your mom and me a minute?”

Sammy didn’t move, his eyes were glued on us.

“Mommy, why is Jaxon in bed with you? Oh my God, did you see his penis mommy? Grandma, mommy saw Jaxon’s penis!” That was the moment when I decided I had officially entered hell and my son was apparently obsessed with Jaxon’s penis.

My mom yelled from downstairs, “Sammy, honey please come downstairs and leave your mommy alone. Oh and Loralei, I’ll take the kids to school and we'll talk later. Jaxon hope you have a great day.” I could literally hear the shit-eating grin on my mom’s face. Jaxon laughed, and I elbowed him in the ribs. I didn’t find anything about this funny. I was mortified.

As much as we wanted to spend the day wrapped in each other’s arms, we knew we both had work to do. We got dressed and went our separate ways. He went out to get the four-wheeler that we got stuck in the mud yesterday, and I went to the barn to meet with the farmhands about the big cattle sale coming up next month in Joplin, Missouri.

This sale was always the most important sale of the year. It was where the best cattle were sold and if