Poems by Leanne Yerdon (e book reader online txt) 📕

was still blamed.
I don’t love you anymore
I may be lieing but it seems as if you don’t care
I lie to myself and say everything you said wasn’t a lie
But I don’t know what I should go by
I’ve never felt so alone and hurt
First them and now you
I thought the last thing for you to do was break me
Which was another thing that I lied to myself about
I built up walls and you broke them down
I let you in and I got broken all over again
I now know what not to do
I’m not letting a person in so easily like I did you
I won’t fall just because of the things I lied to myself about
I won’t let a person in
I lost people I loved and I’ve gotten to the point to where I don’t care
To many people this would be unfair
But I’ve been here before.
Unfortinantly no one stays when it comes to me
No matter who I want to be
I have to put that aside
Just so I can have one person to stay
Truly Love

Stand by me and show me that you care
Don't only stay to get in my underwear.
Dont play me
Im not here for you to pay me
I like to be loved
I don't think thats something I have to ask for from above.
I might have to give it a little shove
But should it be this hard to get someone that I can truly love?

So Alone

Ive felt so alone..

Even more then this

But for some reason I'm still waiting for just one kiss

I want someone to make it all better

To make me smile

A real one that wasn't a lie

So many lies that I was stupid enough to go by

And many ties that I couldn't get away from

I get everything but what I want the most

It makes me feel unwanted...it makes me feel dumb

Ive been through harder things

My life is like a song that famous people go on stage to sing

I want to have something special

But me wanting anymore, just isn't cutting it

I'm not in a fairy tale where you wait and your prince will come

My life is far from that

Just a minuet of being loved..just a little time...just some

I doubt I'm the only one that feels this way

And it will probably be a while before this feeling will go away

Its all your fault

You made me feel so small

Eventhough I'm increasingly tall

I wonder if love exists and will let me fall

And let the person I fall for not be lieing

Not a bit...Not at all

I feel so alone

All the emotion I have shown

Is a horrible sight

All the tears that Ive cried and the tissues Ive blown

Just make me think that it will never ever be right

I have friends and they tell me everyday

That the bad things in my head will go away

But I the things im thinking about myself...about you

Are not what im worried about

All I'm worried about is if someone will love me...And be true

You Make Me Sick

You make me vomit

You make me sick

Im not like Lady Gaga

That wants to take a ride on your disco stick

I'm not like the girls your used to

And it makes me feel a tad sad

How all the girls you were with were truly that bad

I feel for you

But I have enough going on with me too

We can be friends and nothing more

Im not like your ex thats a little whore

I know i'm being mean

I know it isn't fair

But I have a right

Since the only thing you wanted from me was to get in my underwear

You flatter me with compliments then change all in one day

The day that you decided to go away

You made me sad but then I saw

All your 'little' flaws

You want me back

And say I want you

But what your saying is so not true

I turned you down

And made your smirk and smile turn upside down

Now your out to get me and im trying to be nice

And not cold as ice

But thats getting hard

You make me vomit

You make me sick

So Stop being so proud about yourself and your little................................................................Chick

Prove You Wrong

I'm trying to stay strong

Im trying to hold on

Im trying to stay tough

And not break down

You know my insults are not true

You know that it hurts me to even try hurtting you

You know me to well

I hate that you know my thoughts

I can't believe I use to think that was hot

Im embarrassed at all you know

I hate that the emotions I try so hard to hide...and not show

You let everybody know

I'd love for you to let me win...just once

And make me stop looking like a dunce

You know that it's hurting me

You know it breaks me

I don't know why your trying so hard to make it seem like you hate me

I want to make this thing...this tension between you and me end

I use to think but no longer want to be friends

I'm gonna try brushing it off

To see if it makes your long line of come backs...just stop

So you can think that the me you knew before

Is anything close to what you say all the time...a whore

But I can't wait till you see what I have in store

I have so much more

I can't wait till I see the pain cross your face

And make you feel out of place

I'm going to be happy and be able to go off into outer space

A place...where your face...

Will no longer be

Because the new me

Is nothing like she used to be

I'm...over you and it's somewhat true

I no longer think of loving you

I think of all the ways I could make you disappear.

And make it so your no longer here...in my head or in my heart

Have You Forgotten?

This is inspired by a song by Avril Lavigne.

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Have you forgotten?

Everything we were

Everything we were going to be

...Did you completely forget the feeling you said you had when you were with me?

I lived by lies

And sometimes thinking about it just makes me cry

My life went by

And I never understood

That everything you said you didn't mean

Everything you did that meant so much to me..I regret even being seen

I stay strong...but only for so long

Its hard trying to go along..knowing that moments in my life...

That I spent with you

That I thought meant so much..to me and to you

Were nothing at all

They meant nothing....they were nothing

It makes me somewhat ashamed

And people are saying Im the one to blame

When its you that should have nothing but shame

But it will always be the same about how we ended.

But it will never be the same...between us

Because you forgotten everything that we were..

You've forgotten everything that I wanted..everything that WE wanted

But thats all