Poems by Leanne Yerdon (e book reader online txt) 📕

Bite my lip and close my eyes
Take a breath before I cry
As your face crosses my mind
I take in the feeling of wanting to die
Tears glide down faster now remembering you made a vow
I’ll never hurt you
It will always be just us two

The tears gliding down my cheeks
Love I thought we both felt for weeks
Is gone, its dead
I don’t love you like I did
I don’t feel anything like I should Im numb

They say I was dumb
They say I told you so
But I was already broken
You were my first
That’s what made it so easy for my heart to burst

You were the one that made it all go away
Made the shame and the denial just fade to grey
You made it all okay
Where are you today? not here not there not anywhere
Your not with me

They say thats how it should be
No.
I never wanted you to go
I wanted you to stay
I wanted it to always be that way

But dissapointment is all I feel
All I that love, those looks that made me think this was real
All the feelings of hatred and sadness that dissapeared
Now my life is very shear
Im on edge and

Its all your fault
My wounds stinging as if they were covered in salt
I’m not afraid to die
I’m not what meets the eye
Im ready for death

I’m ready for the stealth of burning forever inside
Because I have nothing left to hide
I’m on my way
To the things that make you look away
Im breaking my promises to you

Because you did too
I’m done pretending I’m okay
Im done pretending all the bad will actually go away
Because I know its here to stay
Nothing good ever has came my way and stayed

You were just another example
Just another test that I have failed
The test that pierced the veil
I’m done waiting
I’m done taking risks

Because every time I’m left
With a feeling as horrid and broken as this.

I'm done with the bull shit
I'm done with the lies
So I'm sorry Baby but the is Goodbye
So here's to every vow
The knife pierced above my brow

Your sadness means nothing
Because neither did mine
All the love that my time
Your a cheat,liar and pathetic waste of space
Fuck the heart in my chest that raced

Because you changed from the loving caring guy I once knew
Our hearts and love together that flew
Your good turning to bitter disgust
The love turning to hate

I'm sorry heart but this is our fate
You pitiful cheat
Don't worry I'm hanging off my seat
You were nothing but a tease
My horemones fully loaded for such a breeze

But my heart yours for the taking
The life I knew was breaking
Your beautiful lie
The one that made you look me in the eye
When you said goodbye

Because you changed from the loving caring guy I once knew
Fuck the hearts of our that once flew
Your goodness and love turning to disgust
The love turning to hate
I'm sorry heart but this is our fate

All I needed was a chance
All I needed was a reason to fall into this trance
The reason was you
You were so perfect it was untrue
But unfortunantly I was right
Every thought
Every tear
Every heart breaking pathetic year
Coughing and hacking
Dying inside from the love I was lacking
Crying every night
Because your words were the ones that bite
But not today...
I will smile
I will act as if everything is okay
As if the color in my life didn't fade to grey
I'll talk and laugh
Letting people think I'm not dwelling on the past
I wanted it to last
I wanted my future to be ours
I wanted to hold the wedding flowers
Every piece of you I wanted to be mine
until the end of time
But it ended because I was only thinking of you
You'll give you anything you want
Even if that means it doesn't include Me and You

Publication Date: 12-01-2011

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