Lost Wife by pokhila (life changing books to read txt) 📕

LIFE WITHOUT ANIRUDH

 

as promised ..... 

I rewrote  this omitted part of Runi's pov ....

actually I thought you all don't want any details , so I kept it aside .

but the response was sweet .... 

 

 

Runi's pov ........

 

Looking at the small figure on the monitor ,I couldn't hold my tears ....  today was third sonography , my baby looks a little bigger , can see his small feet and ......  'O'my ..... my heart cried out for him , wish you were with me ,' ....... I always deramt ....  my husband will take me for my routine  check up when I'll get pregnant ....  but he don't even noticed the changes in my body ....  he didn't even spare me a minute to give him the good news . 

 

What was my fault ?

What is my baby's fault ? 

It was our  decosion , both of us ...  we were planning to start a family after my completion of m.tech .

And now ....  he was busy with ..... 

For a second .... I got lost in my pain .... 

 

 I promise myself I'll  not let pain to even touch my baby and  my baby will bring all the good things back in my life ... I don't want a fu... husband to survive , I'll raise my child alone , will shower her the love of both her mom and dad . I'll give everything , every happiness to my baby , that she will never miss her dad . 

 

But my rolling tears say a different story , I miss Anirudh , his presence beside me .....

 

The lady doctor touched my hair , a  caring touch , that I miss so much . I smiled at her with tears , she helped me to sit up from the bed , catching her hand , I got down slowly .

 

" Come dear , slowly ... yes , now sit here " the helper gave space  holding  a chair , 

 

"Thank you ...." I smiled at her .

 

When I took my seat , the lady doctor  went on ....

" The baby is healthy ....  you are doing good too and  all your vitals are normal . " the lady doctor smiled at me . She was among the few who speaks  english and cares for me like a mother . She was an elderly doctor , and have her private nursing home .

 

My helper and caretaker  Lena brought me here , for first check up after I reach here all alone ...  after that I come regular , like today . She thanked the doctor and took her leave . 

 

Runi stepped outside , it was a bright sunny day , she looked good in her light blue maternity dress , it was loose fit and reach below her knee  , the colour  suited her . she tok out an umbrella that was floral and matching . 

 

Runi don't drive and now with her baby , she was extra careful , don't love to share  a taxi  , afraid of conjusted . she took a empty taxi and gave her the address .

 

 

Runi reached home ....  

 This  cottage style home was  a gift .......  Anirudh bought this home in the suburb ...  a small vineyard was the main attraction , as Runi told him once she would love to go to a vineyard and he brought this place on one of his visits  and it was  her gift on honeymoon . They have the sweetest of the sweet memories in this house ....  in every room , in every furniture ,  where  they made love . 

 

Lena opened the main door before she can press the bell 

 

" Come  dear , you must be tired " , she took the bag and the umbrella from her hand and let Runi sit on the rocking chair , Runi's favourite ,

 

It was then ..... when she used to be with Anirudh , sitting on top of him ..... 

 

It is now , because she want to make her baby stay calm .... 

 

Leaning back ...  she remembered her last day in her hubby's place , 

 

Flashback ......

 

Running away from Anirudh was never in my mind , I always believed that we come to our husbands house in red attire and leave it in a white piece .

 

My destiny was never meant to be with him ....  I must have accepted my fate early , at least my child won't suffer ...  I felt guilt , sorrow for my little baby , she will grow up with a single parent , a single mom . 

 

I leaned back , on the arm chair . Closing my eyes , I can still feel his angry look ....

 

It seems like yesterday .... when all this happened , when I took this decision , a strong and determined one , All my life I followed what others , specially my dad and my elders told me to do , whatever they said was sort of a rule , I obeyed them followed the path however hard it might be .....  I was too submissive , very obedient and always want to please ..... others .

 

I knew from the begining that my step sister was lying , a bitch like her cannot have all these ....fear and anxiety and what not , but all of them believed her , my husband became her friend , guide , nanny and protector . I told him so many times , but no ....  

 

Anu was right ....  after all  he believes her , cares for her , more than me . The knife issue hit me the most , Anu was trying to stab me , right on my stomach , trying to kill my weeks old baby in my womb....   and my husband , the father , the one to protect was taking the side of the murderer .... Anu .

 

Runi cried aloud .....  holding herself  tight , those moments haunted her didn't let her sleep for so many nights .

 

I criied the whole night waiting for Anirudh to return , but he didn't ......  

next morning I tried again ....   but the situation was now out of control , Anu won , I lost him.... 

 

I lost my husband forever , what was the use of his name , his mangalsutra , his name of kumkum in my forehead if his heart don't belong to me .... if he don't believe me , if he don't trust me . 

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