Lost Wife by pokhila (life changing books to read txt) 📕

When he left me behind , carrying Anu ,Anu opened her eyes for a sec and winked at me , that was it .The final hit , I made up my mind in the flick of a sec as much time it took Anu to wink at me . She acted to faint and my hubby picked her up in bridal style and ran inside . 

I wish I died that very instant ....  where are the lightenings were  when we need them . 

But ......

Dying , killing oneself was not an option , now I was not alone , I touched my unborn inside me and promised  we'll survive everything together ...

We won't fight         .....        but let it go .....

 "We'lI be fine , we'll be fine   ..." I assured my little , inside me , saying again and again , more to myself .

No one noticed me , when I went inside , all busy to recover Anu from her shock , which my husband thought the reason was me ,

His wife , whom he promised to take care ...  be by her side in every step , to protect her ....  was busy protecting his sister in law . I looked towards them hubby was holding her head , sprinkling water ...

That same hands which touch me with so much love and care , make me go crazy with one touch ...

I hate those hands ....  now .

After I reached my room , first I removed my mangalsutra , then my bangles , my ring , everything ....pulled out a skybag , then choose some clothes , when I ws putting away my ornaments , I pick the ones that I brought with me , from my dad's place . 

I removed my diamond ring too , and placed it along with other ornaments .

I changed my clothes , and was constantly throwing my comfy clothes inside the bag , nothing , not a single designer wear that my hubby always buy for me .

I want to leave everything , everything that relates to him .... 

I don't want to hold unto him ....

I want to let it go...... 

I left behind everything that  I loved  ....  my hubby , my whole family , brothers... Panchi , my home ...  but now I've a new life inside me ....  and I must protect my baby from Anu and also her jiju .

I was thankful, to myself that I didn't tell my hubby about my pregnancy , because what I saw downstairs is making me have doubts ....

I doubt Anirudh ever loved me truely .....   as a wife ,

If he believes Anu so much , maybe ....... he won't accept my baby ,

Fear and anger gave me the strength and courage at that time .

I picked my documents , then my passports  , 

Checked my extra large  bag for my belongings ....  I took out all the credit and debit cards from my sling bag  and placed it with all those jwellery in the safe ......., from today ...  no more expensive and luxury things . 

I came down carrying my skybag and my extra large shoulder  bag .I avoided the living room , took the back door from the kitchen , everything was happening fast , very fast . our driver was already with the car I told him I want to go mom's place . He looked towards the door ... then to my large bag , but didn't ask anything .

When he was putting my sky bag , I heard his footsteps .... but I didn't turn , it will make me weak .... and I can't  be weak , not now .....  

I got inside quickly , before he reach me .....

He came to my window .....  

I thought , just for a sec .... that he will stop me .... will open the door and carry me back , inside . 

But I was wrong , he took my hands , which I withdrew at once ..... 

I hate those hands ...  they were touching Anu , a few minutes ago .

All he said was .... " I won't stop you now , but I promise to bring you back by evening ."

I didn't look back once ..........

I know mom and dad will keep me , will always support me .All my life I was so dependent , on my own parents ,then my foster parents and then my husband ..........

This time I won't be a burden on anyone , I already made my decision . 

I told the driver to stop outside the gate , he did and I just wait for him to leave , he gave a nod and left . Getting inside the house was never the plan , I stayed low , as I don't want to be seen from anyone inside the house . I took the first cab that came along , " where to mam ?" the driver asked ...

" Heathrow please ..."

I didn't look back this time either , today I'm leaving everyone  mom , dad  Panchi ....everyone  ....  it was  all for my baby , I want to give a beautiful life , not a complicated one that I'm going through .

After reaching Nice I spend a night in a small hotel , I can't affort luxury , I've to save for my baby , so I must learn to be economic . Next day , I left for the University of Nice , it was a very beautiful structure , not the modern type but belongs to ancient style . 

I met some professors , who guide me to  Dean's office ....  he was friendly and since I was already in ,

 It  was just the formalities ....  

I gave my house address , it was the gift , that Anirudh gave me on our honeymoon .

It was not hard to reach my address ....

The cab brought me upto the main door , as the cottage  have a long driveway . Thankfully there was a caretaker . Anirudh was so precise about all these . The lady was in her fifties ....  but strong and healthy she recognised me at once , came to help me with my luggage . If she had any doubts she kept it aside and looking at my condition , it didn't take her time , she took me to the hall and made me comfortable .