Blank Page. by Ash . (i read book txt) 📕

or disappear. But he grabbed my hand and, when I looked at him, he kissed me on my lips. I tangled my fingers through his soft hair and pulled him closer to me. As good as it felt to be kissing a guy again, I was the one to break our contact and gasped for air when we stopped tonguing each other vigorously. He smiled at me, his face flushed with embarassment, and opened my door for me to get in.
When I got home, Ricky was upset with me for the fact that I was late by ten minutes but I didn't care. I got the guy, the night, and the kiss. Caleb's Girlfriend.

Monday was another whole week for me. I walked into me and Caleb's first period and sat in my seat. No Caleb?

I wondered. That was odd. He was the student who would never miss a day at any cost. If he was dying, he'd die while he was learning in school. Then, as I numbered all of the things he'd do to stay in school, he was at the classroom door with some girl pressed to his body, kissing him like he was her last meal. I stared in disbelief and then he let her go with one last peck on the lips and came to sit next to me. I looked away from him and looked down into my textbook.
All period, he tried to get my attention by writing notes or poking my arm softly during notes or lectures but I'd ignore him with a passion. He finally sighed and gave up. When the bell rang, I grabbed my backpack and ran out the room. I avoided him for the rest of the day and barely got passed him when he stopped me in the parking lot.

"Why have you been ignoring me, Dana?" he asked me while following me to my car.
"Go kiss and hug up on your girlfriend," I snapped.
"Is that what this is about? Me and Georgia?" he almost yelled.
"Yes, it is! I go to one dance with you and you have a damn girlfriend two days later? That's what I call a fucking whore! A man-whore at that!" I screamed back at him.
"Stop making a damn scene. You know that kiss didn't mean anything to you," he said.
"If it meant nothing, then I wouldn't be making a big deal out of it! If it meant nothing, it wouldn't have fucking happened!" I was still screaming and it drew more people.
"Lower your-," I cut him off mid-sentence.
"Make me!" I got inside of his face and wasn't moving away any time soon.
Just when I thought my temper would go down, a voice came from behind me and said, "Who the hell is this, babe?"

I turned around to see the girl that was locking lips with Caleb this morning standing there looking pissed off beyond belief. She had her hands on her hips and looked me up and down with a disgusted look. I stared at her with the same look of disgust on my face and then smirked at how pissed she was at me.

"White trash," she mumbled while turning around.
"Have fun with my sloppy seconds, whore." I called after her and then got in my car.

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I got home around five o'clock and then got started on the cheer routines for the upcoming game. All the while I was practicing, Caleb kept calling and texting my phone. I ignored it and just focused on the routines. I continued for another half hour and then went to sleep on my bed.

Ordinary Days.

Life just keeps getting harder and harder for me lately. Guys are always cheating on women and using them as toys. I should have listened to my brother about the guys in this town. They're nothing but lying dogs and only want one thing. I ignored Caleb everytime we were in Physics together and the times he tried to sit with me and the other cheerleaders during lunch. Life without Caleb was much more easier.

I walked to my locker and stuffed books inside of it while fixing my ponytail in the mirror. Caleb's reflection was behind me and I rolled my eyes and slammed my locker shut. I fixed my sock and then adjusted my shorts before starting to walk away from him.

"Dana, stop!" he shouted at me.

I just kept walking and ignored him until he came behind me and grabbed my hand. I jerked away from him and he stared at me with hurt in his eyes. I had tears flowing down my cheeks freely and then started to let my emotions out.

"You think it's alright and that I'll forgive you if you sit here and ask me for forgiveness? That's not how it works Caleb! You're not who I clearly expected you to be and I wasted a kiss on you!"

"You don't mean that." He whispered.

"You're nothing to me! That kiss meant nothing to me! You're nothing but a silly pool boy who works for my brother's friend! You're nothing but the guy I sit next to in Physics class! And you're nothing but the guy I spent two hours at a dance with that I didn't even want to go to! Face it! You're just not my type," I said to his face and walked away without interruption.

 

That night I cried for the first time over a guy. I weeped, actually, into my pillow and didn't stop until I heard the front door close and my brothers footsteps fill the hall. He knocked softly and then entered my dark room.

"You decent?" he asked.

"You were right. You've always been right, Ricky. About everything! Caleb has a girlfriend and the night after I go to the stupid dance with him, he's eating her face off in front of everyone." I couldn't keep myself from bursting into sobs.

Rick stepped over to me and held me close to him like my father used to. Well, before he died, that is. I sobbed on my brother's chest until I grabbed ahold of myself and sniffled as I backed away from him. My brother had a look of pity on his face and reached out for my hand. I slipped back and brought my knees up to my chest slowly.

"Dana, you don't have to be strong anymore..." he whispered to me.

"I have to be. I promised daddy I would be." I said quietly and pulled my covers over myself.

Jai.

After spending a week and a half out of school, I found the strength to go back and finally face Caleb. I walked through the door with my headphones in and bookbag over my shoulder. He looked directly at me and then stepped quickly towards me. I bowed my head and walked in the opposite direction, back out the doors. I saw familiar boots in front of me when I bumped into a body and took a step back to see the face. His high cheek bones, his eyebrow lines, his long lashes, his pale blue eyes, his whiter-than-white teeth, his familiarness.

"Jai Ramirez?" I smiled a little.

"Hey Dana," he said to me and pulled me close.

Our faces were so close and I felt the urgency to lean forward more and bring us closer together. I smelled smoke and cigarettes on his body but it didn't matter. He smelled like home to me. He smelled like Jai. He was the one to close the distance between the two of us and kiss me softly on the lips. I stood there for just a moment with my hands on his forearms before he deepened the kiss and I wrapped my arms around his neck. A throat's clearing pulled us apart and I looked over to see Caleb's hurt face staring at me. Then his hurt turned to anger as he looked over at Jai.

"Why are you kissing my girl?" Caleb said to Jai's face.

"Last time I checked, my best friend was single," Jai retorted.

"Is that what this is? A friendship," Caleb scoffed.

"Yes, that's exactly what it is. And really dude? Grow some balls. You're premature," Jai said.

"Enough!" I yelled at both of them.

They turned their attention to me and my eyes filled with tears. Caleb reached for my arm but I just stepped back. Students were filing around us now and I didn't want to make a scene so I just walked off school grounds and went into the woods beside the coffee shop.

I couldn't believe Jai kissed me. I couldn't believe Caleb called me his. I couldn't believe I was crying over either of them. They aren't worth my time. They never will be.

I'll Be Over You.

I rode in the car with my brother then Flaws and All by Beyonce came on the radio. I couldn't help but smile and sing along with the lyrics.

I'm a trainwreck in the morning

I'm a bitch in the afternoon

Every now and