Blank Page. by Ash . (i read book txt) 📕

"You sure, baby?" he whispered in my ear as he thrust one last time.

I came in a rush of spasms and tried to catch my breath once we were done. Jai lay on top of me and was equally out of breath from his orgasm. Once he found the strength to roll off me, he pulled me close and we fell asleep just like that.

I woke up the next day and the sun hurt my eyes a little. I looked down at Jai's sleeping face and smiled softly. I tried to get up but every time I moved, Jai's arms tightened around my waist.

"Don't you move," he whispered playfully.

"Why not?" I wondered.

"I loved the warm feeling of you in my arms," he told me and opened his eyes.

We kissed passionately before a knock came at the door. I pulled the sheets around my body and then told the person to come in. It was my mother.

I jolted awake from my sleep, gasping for breath harshly and tears streaming down my cheeks. Jai woke up quickly and wrapped an arm around me.

"Baby, what's wrong?" he asked in a worried tone.

"I... I..." I tried to say something but I kept choking on my breaths.

Jai called for Ricky and Camille and they ran down the hall and into the room. Ricky sat down next to me, despite my nakedness under the sheets, and pulled me close.

"Baby girl, what happened?" Rick whispered to me.

"She was here," I sobbed.

"Who was?" he asked.

"Mom!"

He held me tighter to his chest and I sobbed onto his shoulder. Camille and Jai sat there with worried looks on their faces and didn't say anything until Ricky and I broke apart.

"What's wrong with your mother coming, hun?" Camille asked.

"My mother used to beat me. Like, really badly. And that's why I'm living here with you guys," I whispered.

Jai pulled me close and laid me back down. He promised Ricky that he'd get me to sleep again and he and Camille left.

"I'm so sorry, baby," he whispered once I settled down.

I couldn't speak. I couldn't think. All I could do was listen to the sound of his beating heart and fall asleep in his arms again.

Two months later...

I walked into first block and saw Caleb sitting in his usual seat next to me and rolled my eyes. I sat down next to him and pulled out my textbook and homework.

"Hey Dana," he said nicely.

I didn't answer him and just flipped through the pages of my book. He tried to talk to me again during class by passing me a note but I just pulled out my phone and checked my messages. When the bell rang, I grabbed my stuff and hurried out the door before he could try and stop me. At lunch, he even sat at the table near Jai and I. I was really confused about what he was doing and then Jai spat out his water.

"Why do you keep looking at him?" Jai asked me after a couple minutes and looked a little heated.

"I'm just trying to figure out why he keeps sitting so close to me... and trying to get my attention."

"It seems like you're trying to get his attention instead," Jai said jealously.

"Jai, are you serious right now?" I said in disbelief and scoffed.

"Well you're staring at your little sloppy seconds and you're my girl!"

"Jai, I'm not into him if that's what you're thinking."

"I never said that but that makes me wonder!"

I couldn't believe him. "Well fine."

"What does that mean?" he asked as he watched me throw my tray away and grab my bag.

"I don't know. Makes me wonder why you're so worried about me leaving you." I stalked out of the Cafe without another word to him.

"It's stupid," Ricky said as I stood in my closet taking clothes off hangers.

"It's not stupid because you'd do the same thing if you were in my shoes."

"Dana, you're going to leave and hurt all of those you've become close to, including your boyfriend who is worried sick about you. And you're pregnant?" he asked in disbelief. "It's stupid. All he did was ask you why you were looking the damn guy!"

"Well goddamnit, Richard!" I shouted at him and threw the clothes at my suitcase. "What the hell am I supposed to do?"

"How about go to him and talk about it before you walk out that door!" he yelled right back at me.

I let the tears run down my face as I stared in my brother's eyes, which were filled with rage. I shook my head and then started packing again.

"I won't," I whispered.

"You won't what?" he snapped.

"I won't stay here and pretend like everything's ok when it's not, Rick! I'm not a dumbass."

"Watch your mouth and tone in my house or you'll be right back there with mom!" he shouted but then looked at me and calmed down. "Dana, I'm so sorry... I didn't mean it..."

"Yes you did." I zipped my bag and started down the stairs.

"Dana, stop it ok? Please sis, I'm so sorry." He grabbed my arm gently.

I completely lost it at that moment. "Let me go," I screamed as loud as I could, possibly waking everyone in the neighborhood.

He let go reluctantly and his eyes flooded with tears. But I didn't care. I opened the front door and dragged my bag out behind me.

"One room," I slid my credit card to the man behind the desk.

"For one or more?" he asked dumbly.

"Is there anyone else here with me?" I snapped.

"No, of course not. I'm sorry miss. Chace, come get this nice lady's bags and go with her to her room," he ordered a young blonde boy sitting in the corner.

I got up to the hotel room and kicked my shoes off. My feet were starting to swell and so I sat down on the bed and sighed. I turned my phone on and jumped into the shower quickly. Once I got out, there was a knock at the door. I gripped my towel around me tightly and slid it open slowly. The stranger pushed it open farther and stepped in the room with me, locking it while still turned. I didn't recognize the hoodie he wore or the boots that covered his feet so I grabbed the nearest object: a brush. He turned and removed his hoodie and looked at me with dispair.

"Jai," I exclaimed and jumped into his arms.

He hugged me tightly and rubbed my hair gently, setting me back down on my feet. "Oh, Dana, I'm so stupid. I'm sorry for ever doubting you'd go back to that asshole. Baby, please," he pleaded and kissed my face all over, avoiding my lips.

I sobbed into his arms, despite the anger I felt towards him anymore and melted into his loving embrace. I guess that no matter how much we've gone through or will go through. He's been my best friend since the beginning of time and he'll be mine until the end of it.

"I miss you so much," he whispered. "I miss having you in my arms at night. I miss the warmth of your lips against mine. I miss the way your small, dainty hands fit into my too-big hands. I miss you, Dana. Please forgive me."

"There's nothing to forgive..." I couldn't stay mad at him for something so stupid.

We spent the night in the room and left in the morning, stopping every so often because I had to use the bathroom or puke. Jai kept asking me if I was alright and I kept avoiding the questions and asking him another one. We rode for what seemed like hours before I fell asleep and didn't wake up until it was total darkness and I was laying in his bed. He was sitting at his desk, staring at me and then grinned when he saw me waking up.

"A baby?" he asked, more to himself.

"Who told you?" I shot back.

"No one had to tell me. You're getting fleshed, puking, urinating every