love lust by Yliana Martinez (read this if txt) 📕

I watch TV till I am bored once more, my good mood quickly fading because of this house. I flicker from channel to channel until I just settle with LAW AND ORDER: SVU. This episode is about a little seven year old girl that was murdered in front of her 5 year old brother. God, what is wrong with people now and days, killing little girls, scarring pure little children. I wonder why people are so vicious and sinister. I tear up, thinking about how my dad passed. “Hey sweet heart I’ll be home in time for dinner” he said “okay I missed you, I’m glad your back from your business trip.” I say happiness gushing inside me “okay honey I got to go I’m about to start driving,” he urges “I love you, see you soon.” “Love you to dad bye.” He never would make it back home, he never would see me soon because only 5 to 10 minutes after hanging up someone crashes in to him, the person is drunk off his ass and only gets a couple of bruises while my dad being sober for almost 16 year takes the toll and dies. Silent tears roll down my cheeks, mini little warm streams running in tandem down the side of a mountain. I wipe the tear and stand shutting off the television; I leave to my room taking the stairs two at a time. BAD idea my brain screams as I open the door the room is decorated with pink and there are teddy bears everywhere most of them my dad gave to me. I walk into the room and go to the closet ever since dad died I moved most of my stuff downstairs so I wouldn’t have to come into the once happy sanctuary every day, I open the closet door and reach for the shoebox. I run out of the room and back into the living room not being able to stand being there one second more. I open the shoebox, inside is pictures of everything, everyone. I pull out one from where dad, mom and I went to panama for the summer. Sucks instead of having fun you’re stuck here mourning your dad my brain says to me. There is only a couple weeks left until school starts and I have to walk through the halls once more this time I will be a junior, I started school early so I’m usually youngest in my classes. I call Anthony looking for a distraction and man is that what I got, I asked him if he could pick me up told him that I didn’t want to be in the house at that moment and he said that he would be here in like fifteen or twenty minutes. I go to the hallway where there is a mirror and rub away all the make-up with wipes I don’t reapply any I don’t feel the need to. I then go to the closet (also in the hallway) and take out some more comfortable clothes. I then take my blanket outside and wait. He shows up in the time frame he told me he would and walks up the porch stairs to meet me. I put the blanket on the rocking chair then make sure I have a key and lock the door. He wraps his arm around my shoulders and I pull closer into him. I get in the car and then we are off I don’t know we’re we are going and he probably doesn’t either he takes one hand off the wheel and holds my delicate more frail hand in it. He stops at a gas station “I need to fill up the car it won’t take long.” “Okay.” I whisper, I lay my head back and close my eyes focusing on the good. He gets back in the car and pulls off; I don’t question where we are going because I really don’t care I just don’t want to go home. He parks in front of a house not bad looking at all. He gets out of the car and I follow closely behind. He opens the door to a rather expensive looking house I would have never guessed he lived here I would have thought that frat boy party house was more of his style. We walk up the stairs and though a hallway to a room I am guessing is he’s, he lies on the bed getting quite comfortable and pats the space next to him suggesting I do the same. I am too tired to be suspicious so lay down too probably messing up my curls. I face him and tuck my face into the crook of his shoulder and he wraps his hand around my waist, we stay like this for a long time, unmoving until someone walks into the room. “Whoa dude sorry I should have knocked.” To that Anthony laughs and says “get out of here.” And so whomever that random person was closes the door again “Sorry about that, that was Chad my roommate somehow he finds the perfect time to kill the mood.” Together

Chapter 6: Together (Anthony)

 

Holding her close is magic

I feel her breathing slowly

Steady I want to stay like

This forever then I wonder

 

Is it getting to serious to fast?

Am I doing it wrong, will this

End up all wrong. I don’t care

Because for right now it feel

Perfect it feels like a symphony

Of feeling one cannot control.

 

After the interruption via Chad look into her eyes while explaining who that was and it all feels so perfect. I bring her closer to me and kiss her gently not feeling the need to be greedy because I know for right now I have her all to myself; I can take it as slow as I want. We kiss for a good amount of time and it feels like heaven but I want to experience it all so slowly I mound on top of her and take off her shirt like it was made of the most delicate fabric in the world. She lies there goose bumps forming over her body yet she does nothing to stop me.  Suddenly I feel wrong about it as if though I’m using her in her time of weakness. When it does happen I want her to be sure I want her to be ready for me, I want it to all be so special to her like how special she already is to me. I do something stupid I tell her I love her, I am not sure how she will react but then when she does react it doesn’t feel like such a stupid thing to say anymore because she says I love you too. I know she means it too because of all the sincerity in her eyes no one could ever fake that. I tell her why I can’t go through with it, I tell her that I want to make sure she is ready, I tell her that when she is I will be here; and so we go back to becoming a tangled mess and go to sleep that way. It is 6:45 when my alarm wakes me, and for a moment I don’t remember what happened then I see her lying next to me. I detangle myself from her trying not to wake her. I go to the closet and go get my work clothes; I work with some guys from a roofing company. She wakes up rubbing her eyes slowly watching as I change into my work clothes. “There is food in the fridge, I will be back at around two, and sorry I didn’t want to wake you up.”

Boyfriend's bestfriend

Chapter 7: Boyfriend's bestfriend (Anna-bell)

 

 

I am only half awake, I don’t know where I am but I do know who he is. Anthony is already half dressed by the time I wake up and man when I look over to where he is do I wake up, I see his perfect upper body from his toned biceps to his awesome abs. he leans in to kiss me and I kiss him back for a moment it feels as if he might get back into bed but no he doesn’t instead he says that he has to go to work or else his boss will kill him. “Once Chad wakes up he’ll keep you company.” Anthony says and with that he’s out the door and in his car. I think I really do love him but how we only met a couple weeks ago, three at tops. I think about love at first sight then quickly push the thought out my brain with a shove, I never believed in all that fairy tale fruity magic stuff. Ugh I forgot my toothbrush at home but I will not go around this house with bad breath so I brush with my finger and overload on mouthwash. Quickly I have woken up and start to think about getting a job because the money dad left behind for mom is starting to dry out and I’m not about to touch what dad saved for me because without it I can’t go to college. I urge myself to relax so I find the living room and turn on the TV not too much later Chad emerges from his room and goes to the kitchen to prepare himself some cereal in his boxers which is quite a sight.

Quite a sight

Chapter 8: quite a sight (Chad)

 

I have to give Anthony props this one is a real looker, damn if he didn’t have her already I would try her out. I sit next to her in front of the TV and eat some cereal.