love lust by Yliana Martinez (read this if txt) 📕

Chapter 1: we met (Anna-bell)

 . We met at the fairgrounds my friends took me there to help me not feel so sad for a bit since my father had passed not too long ago.

“Come on you need to get out for a little, get you mind off things, you’re not gonna be able to do that sittin’ in this house moping around.” Said Mia my best friend, I’ve known her since the 3rd grade and since then we have been stuck together. Mia reminds me of a fairy with her crazy colored hair which for the moment is a hot pink, she stands a barely five feet and is just a ball of energy.

I feel annoyed with myself for being so damn sad and gloomy. “Yeah I mean come on just one night and if you don’t feel even a little better then we won’t force you out again.” Badgered grace my second closest friend, only making me feel worse. “Okay.” I finally give in, and so I walk up the stairs slow as possible grace skipping with excitement in front of me. Oh how I love her and her personality, her wild red hair like flames in wisp in front of her face that only highlights her fair skin and freckles, her deep blue eyes flaked with a purple/violet.

We proceed into my room, pink engulfing us… ha what an unfit color for how I feel now; it is so painful to be in here to remember the happiness, so painful in fact I don’t even sleep there anymore. I change quickly as possible; I just need to get out of this room NOW.

After the quickest change of my life I walk towards the exit of the room stiffly, trying hard not to run. Mia notices something’s wrong but like the magic I know she is she doesn’t need to ask, she knows and whispers in my ear “It’ll be okay let’s just go.” And as Grace goes to sit on my bed Mia says “Let’s get out of here the fair closes at eleven, you know.” And for that I am grateful no need to linger in that room that spits at me with its happiness.

we leave in Grace’s BMW her father bought her for her 16th birthday not too long ago….father the word almost makes me cry, being in this car almost makes me cry thinking my father won’t have the chance to buy me a car or even wish me happy birth day. I mean my mom will but that’s just not the same and it will be even worse because my mom is like a zombie that only comes out of the room to use the bathroom, I don’t want a zombie mom telling me happy birth day, after she decides to wake. I shake my head and try to concentrate on something else, so I look out the car window (a beautiful scene that I would notice if I weren’t so grief stricken) and immediately decide it was a bad idea, looking out it seemed like every single person there, was happy and laughing with their families’ they got that and what did I get, I got me, myself, and I.

just as we stop at a red light, my eyelids brimming with pools of tears about to flood over, I notice a girl about my age sitting at the corner of a building staring out into oblivion with her glassy, gazed blue eyes, looking as if though in another universe completely. I gawk at her long as possible before the light turns green and we drive away, forever leaving this girl that I am so intrigued by. As I look I notice that she has bags under those perfectly blue seas for eyes. Also I notice her clothes are torn and worn out and that she is so skinny her hip bones protrude from where her jeans land at the middle of her hips, I want to be that skinny, her face takes on the look of a little girl but weirdly at the same time it is aged, maybe because it is sullen and sunk beautiful i think to myself.

Green light, the world moves again into that never ending line of happiness and smiles that time stopping moment has passed now it is only a mask of happy, joyful faces to be forgotten soon after they are saw, not one of the faces stick in my memory except for hers.

Finally after what seemed like hours we get to the fair; I look at my phone it lights and the screen says its 9:06, oh great we have three whole hours to wander around a fair that is already familiar to us because we have gone here since we were ten. Realization hits me like a slap in the face I am going to be going on the same rides I have known my entire life for three hours, for three whole hours I will have to endure looking at merry faces pass by me oblivious to the problems of the world around them, OBLIVIOUS to how much money they will waste for nothing except kiddy rides and impossible to win fair games digging themselves into a hole of debt if they are already at that fine line. We get in paying 10 dollar at the door EACH. We walk passed the side show attractions like the world’s smallest person, and the lady with the beard. As we walk passed the last of the attractions, a man that can supposedly breath under water, Mia sings out “I’m hungry, wanna get a bite to eat?” followed almost immediately by grace saying “yeah I’m up for it.” And so we walk to the food stand, neon pinks yellows and greens screaming out words like Georgia’s best hot dogs and kettle popcorn. Eventually we stop at a small stand and grace buys cotton candy and a Coca-Cola, while Mia gets a sprite and disgusting candy called Twisler, while I stay simple with water (cal. 0).

I start to wander a little because something catches my eye it’s a fair game where you try and throw gulf balls into fish bowls then funny enough if you get at least one in you win a fish that will most likely die the next day. I snap back into reality when someone bumps into me causing me to fall and spill my water. I’m about ready to scream at whomever it is pushed me, then I hear the gentlest, kindest voice “I’m so sorry, are you okay… I really didn’t mean to; I didn’t see you” I look up and feel as if all the air has disappeared from me and there is no more in sight, man those eyes; those sensitive green eyes with gold flakes shine down at me “I….I…I’m fine, uh sorry for being in the way.” That was all I could manage. He reaches a hand out and for a minute I only stare then I take it, pull yourself together don’t act like a total moron! I think to myself.

I suddenly go from being on the ground to my feet in a matter of milliseconds, I look into his face, its perfect from his chiseled jaw to his deep brown hair “hey…” he says its meet by silence till I figure out that it was directed towards me “oh ummm… hi” dumb I think, that’s all I can think “uh do you need me to get you some napkins or..something.” this time I answer before the silence strains “yeah, please, uh thanks.” Then he was off to find napkins, I found that the space around me didn’t shine like it did a minute ago but I knew it was only momentarily.

About two minutes later he came back napkins in hand (those perfect, soft, but strong hands.) “Here you go.” He said with one of those wary half smiles that made my stomach flutter and my heart pound. What do I do, what do I do?Reach out and take the napkins you idiot! Eventually I snap back from the daydream I was having and take the napkins, Dabbing at my shirt I say “Thank you.”  “No problem, I mean it is the least I can do since I did cause the spill in the first place.”he replies almost immediately, He flashes a breath taking smile “Again I’m really sorry.” He says

“Oh yeah its fine, I mean thank god I got water, so it doesn’t stain I mean.” I say. Our eyes meet and its instant magic “So umm…” he mumbles putting a hand on the back of his head “Can I buy you a drink, I did spill yours so it’s only fair.” Our eye contact breaks “Umm sure if you want to, I mean yeah, ok.”

I look back at my friends like an excited puppy dog about to go for a walk. “I’ll be right back, okay?” Mia waves a hand at me and Grace says “Take as long as you want.” And winks at me, and with that me and him are off.

(Me Anna-bell Marie Lavet walking around the fair with the cutest guy I’ve meet so far, but man what bad timing.) I think to myself, drawing a bitter sweet smile from me, wow this feels weird; it’s been a while since I’ve last smiled.

we walk to a new stand, a bigger one. “Yes may I help you?” A woman says in utter boredom. “Umm yeah can I get some water?” I sputter as fast as I can, feeling slightly scared because this woman is kinda intimidating. He stares at me in utter disbelief “Are you serious, that’s all…really, I mean come on, I’m paying.”  He looks at the lady “And a large cotton candy please.” She basically slams the water down and says “$4.51 cash, debit or credit.” He replies “Cash.” And hands her a ten, the woman groans then proceeds to say “Your change is $5.49.” she hands him that and just kinda goes back in to her mind somewhere.

We walk away, and then he says “Man, for that I woulda just went to another stand.” I respond “Yeah that was really uncalled for.” He hands me my water and our hands meet, lingering for a second, I felt as if my brain would explode at any minute “thanks.” I say “Oh yeah, no problem.” He answered “Here have some, it’s really good.”

He nudges the cotton candy towards me “Oh no thanks, I’m really not hungry.”  He edges it towards me “Come on just a little.” He begs

“Oh okay.” How could I say no I the first place it’ll give me more time with him…..idiot, and so I take some and we walk around some more then after what feels like hours of dead silence he finally speaks “so umm.. How old are you?” I reply “I’m 15.” Pause of silence “Oh, cool I’m 16” I say “Yeah that is pretty cool.”

I don’t know why but I feel like I have to agree with him, I don’t know maybe I’m trying to provoke the conversation further but I guess it worked because he then says “yeah, so I really liked talking to you today and I really don’t want to leave but the fair closes in like 30 minutes, But I would like more than anything to do this again; Well minus the beginning when I spilled your drink.”

I try not to show the excitement that sends my brain into a frenzy of thoughts and rainbows, I think to myself wow this is really happening, he is really the one telling me that he enjoyed this day… wait he is too cute what if he has a girlfriend… what if he thinks I’m some type of anytime girl on the