Her Love Fades... by Kerry Boo.. (books suggested by bill gates TXT) 📕

Would bring me to my knee’s begging for her to kill me. I know she’s waiting for me to talk to her, but I don’t know what to say… I would never forgive myself for this… Andi was just a sweet girl… Who made a major mistake….

“Andi.” I finally manage to speak, by the look on her face I can tell she wants nothing to do with me right now.

“No Luke, Save your breath… I can’t understand what I did wrong…”

I thought I had Andi in my grasp but as soon as she was there, she slipped through… and she was gone forever.

“Andi I told you, you didn’t do anything.”

“apperantly I did, or else I wouldn’t be In so much pain.

Hearing Andi say that ripped my heart out all I wanted to do was tell her that I love her, but I knew that could only worsen the situation… Besides Andi had taken off running. I had tried to follow her but I soon lost her.


Alec<3

I was highly pissed my teacher had just told me that I had failed class and I would need to go to summer school. I had gone into the woods to punch the hell out of shit in there. When I hear crying, The crying sounded familiar.. I racked the tree’s and the bushes trying to spot who was sad and in need of a shoulder to cry on. I stop when I get beside a bush, the crying had gotten louder so I figured this is where the person was crying. I had moved the bush branch and seen a girl crying.. she was laying there; her hands in front of her face. I coughed a little to get her attention she didn’t even move.

“excuse me.” I whispered hoping she would hear. She sniffles away more tears and lifts up her head, Only then did I see that it was Andi.

I scream her name and grab her up, she has eyeliner and mascara smeared all over her face. I don’t know if It’s the fact that she didn’t know it was me or if she was just desperate for someone to care for her but she wrapped her arms around me and cried on my shoulder.

Andi had been like my sister for a year, I know only a year that’s not long. But I loved her more than I could ever explain. I mean I foreal loved her, I was IN LOVE with her. Sure she did know that, but her heart belonged to Luke. I had watched him break it once and she had just run right back into his arms as soon as he had apologized, as if that made everything ok. But I was almost positive that the reason she was falling apart, was because of him. I waited for her to calm down till I asked her, I made my voice sound calm and I whispered sweet nothings in her ear, telling her that I love her, I’ll always be here for her, talk to me and I’ll listen.

That’s where I’m different from most of the guys she knows… If they say they’re listening to her, they just want to make her trust them…. Purely for sex. But anytime Andi needs me there for her, I really listen.

“Andi talk to me, tell me what happened.” I begged.

Finally she took a deep breath and wiped away her tears, as soon as she started to talk though her phone went off.

I could tell she wanted to ignore the call but still she picked it up to see who was calling. She threw her phone back down on the ground in the dirt, so I knew it was Luke.

“Come on Andi’s.”

“O.k. I was in homeroom waiting for school to begin and Luke came and said he wanted to talk to me, so Mr. Whatever pushed me in to the hall… and Luke just told me that he won’t date me again.”

“awe Andi’s, I am so sorry, he’s a dumb ass if he won’t date you again.”

“it’s not that… He just said that I deserve better.

“well you do Andi.”

“thanks Alec.”

Before I could help myself I leaned forwards and kissed her, I wasn’t sure how she was going to react, I was just hoping that she would kiss me back. Her lips froze on mine… She never made a move to kiss me, but yet she never pulled away until 3 seconds later. I think I shocked her and upset her because she started crying again. Next thing I know, I was watching the girl that I love walk away.

Andi<3

What had just happened? Did Alec just kiss me?? No…he would never... he knows how I feel about Luke; he knows that I don’t want anyone… I mean he knows that right? I don’t want him, he’s like my brother! That’s all I have ever thought of him as… I stopped walking abrubrently. I don’t know where I had planned to go. I feel my phone vibrate. I just want to change my number right now, or smash it against a damn tree. When I woke up this morning I guess I knew it was going to be bad, considering all I wanted to do was take my last breath when I was laying in bed. I take my phone out of my pocket and I check who called. Luke of course it was Luke, Why the hell wouldn’t it be Luke? I can’t imagine talking to him right now. I just want to go home. I turn off my phone and I slip it in my pocket. I start walking home slowly when I hear footsteps. They sound close behind me, they’re heavy… almost sickening. I start to walk a little bit faster, I really just want out of here. I can still hear the footsteps but I don’t know which direction they’re coming from. I whirl around in a circle looking for the mysterious person. I see nothing. I only hear the footsteps stepping on leaves; crunching them every second… they’re cracking… they’re like my heart… Luke was just waiting to crack it… His favorite one… That he just wanted broken. I don’t know when or why but the footsteps finally stopped. I look up to see a man staring at me… I didn’t like the look in his eyes… they were full of evil… I start to run, but I feel like I am about to get ambushed by men in boots. He starts running after me, I go as fast as I can but I wasn’t fast enough.

I woke up with leaves in my hair and dirt all over me, ya I woke up on the ground. It was dark and I was sore as hell, my head felt like it had been beaten with bricks. I touched my head with my hand; half expecting they’re to be blood. They’re was nothing… maybe a slight bruise later on. My arms felt like someone had been squeezing them, I looked down to see why they hurt so bad… they’re was nothing… then I can feel it start to sprinkle. I had no idea what time it was or what had happened but I just wanted to go home. I stand up and dust myself off; I see boot prints beside where I was sleeping… Why was I sleeping there? Was the question that kept replaying in my head… I had no answer. I was confused as hell and I just wanted to know what happened. I try and figure it out my entire walk home… But nothing comes to mind. I get to my doorstep and there is an envelope taped on the door. It was from Luke... I already knew that… I didn’t much feel like opening it; so I just slipped it into my pocket. I unlocked the door and I went into the kitchen to get something to eat. I didn’t feel like eating... All I wanted was a shower. I go to my room and I grab some clothes to wear after my shower. I walk into the bathroom and undress, I get in the shower. I turn the water on as hot as it could go. I felt dirty.

I walk into the living room and sit on the floor, I take out my phone to see how many missed texts I have received.

-Luke- Hey Andi
I ignore deciding that it isn’t important enough. Before our talk earlier, I would have had butterflies in my tummy, just because I had a text from him…Now I just wanted to cry

I felt weak and alone, all I could do was sit there and think of our memories… I never wanted to let those go… I wanted to be with Luke… He’s the only person that I need… I begin to cry because I know it’s too late for that. He doesn’t want me anymore and I guess I have to accept that. I sit there and I remember all those times we laid in the grass, I would stare in to his eyes… He had the most beautiful eyes I had ever seen. I wipe away the tears and go back to checking my texts.

-Morgan- Babe trust me, If Lucas is dumb enough to let you go, then he deserves to cry.
I wanted to tell her Luke never deserves to cry… But she wouldn’t understand…
-Andi- Morgan; I don’t think you get it… He says that I deserve better than him... And by telling me goodbye… I guess that it’s better for me…

-Luke- Andi, you have every right to hate me, but you are the most amazing girl I have ever meant, when I said all those things to you…about me loving you and wanting to be with you… I was being honest… I don’t want to lose you as a friend… Can we please try? Please Andi….Hello?

I can’t help but cry when I read that text from him… Here he is… Wasting him time for a simple girl… with a broken heart.

But I still dial Luke’s number…

Luke<3

I sit here in my bed and I cry, I feel like such a dick for putting Andi through all this, I hate knowing that all those tears… Are because of me… I promised Andi when we first meant that she would never have to cry for me… that’s all she does. All I am is a promise breaker and a heart breaker... I’m staring at my father’s gun and I understand I deserve to die. It’s lying in front of me on my bed just daring me to pull the trigger. I feel like I have unfinished business here with Andi though, I need to talk to her, but she wants nothing to do with me… Not that I can blame her much. I deserve this I smashed her heart shattered it in two and made it bleed. Then I crushed her dreams… Now they’re broken dreams. In mid thought my phone lying beside me rings, I reach for it slowly knowing that Andi wouldn’t be calling me. I didn’t bother to look at the name, it wasn’t who I wanted to talk to and I knew that.

I take a deep breath before I speak. –Hello-
-Hi- I hear Andi’s weak voice, it sounded broken.
-How are you? - The only thing I can make escape my lips.
-Which answer do you want- I heard the tears in her words.
-What are you talking about Andi? - I was dumbfounded.
-The truth or the answer to make you feel