Her Love Fades... by Kerry Boo.. (books suggested by bill gates TXT) 📕

better-
-Andi, The truth.-
-I am living in hell, and I’m tired of breathing.-
-I’m sorry Andi! - That’s all I ever say to this beautiful girl.
-K. is there something you wanted Lucas?-
-Yes-
-What would that be?-
I take a deep breath before I speak –Us.-
-Well you made it official, they’re will never be an us again.-
-Andi when I said that earlier I was thinking of what was best for you, not me but you.
-Luke I don’t get it. - I could hear the tears in Andi’s voice; I sat there imagining the tears pouring down her face.
-What babe? And please Andi, Don’t cry.-
-Do you love me or not? - I hear her sniffling.
The fact that she had to ask that made me wanta cry –Andi you know I do.-
-Luke, I’ve begun to doubt that. - And there was where she ripped my heart out… I guess I had that coming; I have been acting like such a jack ass to this amazing girl.
-YOU DOUBT THAT I LOVE YOU ANDI!?- I screamed that to stop from crying.
-Yes. - I could hear Andi’s voice cracking, and I knew again it was my fault.
-Andi I am always going to love you, and I want you back…But I want what is best for you.-
-You should have known the answer.-
-I still don’t know the answer.-
-I do.-
-You think you do.-
-Luke If you want to talk, can we at least change the subject? - I could tell my last comment had hurt her further.
-Sure Andi.-
-Thanks.-
-your welcome
-How are you?-
-Im ok, but I want to apologize for earlier.-
-Luke you’re forgiven like always.-
-You shouldn’t always have to forgive me.-
-oh well, I don’t care.-
-you should. How was your day?-
-like I said, hell… first Becca tells me you guys are dating again, I had to hide the tears, tell her I was happy and hope you two can make it. Then you tell me you never want to date me again… I run into the woods to cry my heart out. Alec finds me there; he asks me what’s wrong… I tell him everything… He wipes away my tears and kisses me.-
-ALEC KISSED YOU!?- I know I don’t have any right to be pissed but the fury just kept rising in me.
-Yes. - She didn’t get any satisfaction to my jealousy.
-what did you do Andi!?- I balled my fist up I was so fucking pissed, I wanted to cry.
-I ran away.-

Andi<3


I was on the phone with Luke, and I started to remember what happened after I had left Luke at the school… But what about after Alec? What happened after I left him?

Luke had fallen silent for sometime, while I waited for him to speak I tried to remember what happened… all I knew was something was wrong. Luke finally managed to speak again.

-Um Andi can I please kill that son of a gun?-

I don’t know if he had noticed that I had fallen silent, or if he could detect that something was wrong

-Andi is something wrong? I mean did I upset you?-
-No Luke, you haven’t done anything wrong… But something doesn’t feel right.-
-Baby girl, what are you talking about?-
-After I left Alec I have no memory of what happened, all I know is I woke up in the woods and I was really sore and I had leaves in my hair and dirt all over me, so I came home and took a shower.-
-you woke up in the woods Andi!? Um do you want me to come over? Then we can talk…-
-Uh…-
-no, your right… stupid question, Go to sleep Andi…Maybe you will remember later. And what Becca said was a big ass lie…-
-Ok…Boo.-
-night… Love you Andi.-
-Love you too Lucas. - I said that with hesitation.
-Do you mean it? - A part of me knew he would ask
-Yes Luke, I do.-
-Ok- I could hear the smile in his voice.
-bye. - I hang up the phone, and move to my bed, I get under the covers… All I want to do is sleep.

Is this a dream, or is it reality? The leaves of the tree’s rustle in the wind. I can even hear the wind whispering telling me that I need to go, I need to run. Go before it is to late… But I’m held in place, I try to move and I try to scream for help… But it is too late. I can already tell. The clouds get closer and closer, and darker and darker. I hear footsteps slowly coming closer… they are heavy footsteps; I can hear the danger in they’re walk. I know that there are bad intentions. I look at the edge of the hill, when someone steps up; they’re wearing boots and a hoodie… I can’t make out what they’re face looks like. He looks at me, at least I assume he does, he was staring straight ahead… Could he see me? He walks right past me; it’s at that moment when I take a deep breath prepared to run. He instantly stops and turns back to me. Fuck now I was caught. He walks over to me and bends down. He asks me what my name was and I tell him Andi… he takes his hand and he brushes it against my face. I shudder at his touch, its cold and evil. I scot backwards, but there was a tree there. I was fucked unless I tried to crawl away quickly. Even at his age he looked like he could keep up with me. I sat there taking deep breaths when he brought his fist up and punched me in the head. He grabbed my arms and he shook me. Then everything went black.

I jolted up screaming, my throat hurt and my hair was soaked to my face, damn tears. I checked my phone to see what time it was, holy shit. Only 3:30. Luke would probably be asleep but I needed someone to talk to. Would he care if I called and woke him up… Or would he be pissed? I decided to take that chance and I dialed his number for the second time today.

Luke<3


I was woken up 3:30 in the morning. I wish I could be pissed, but everyone I have talked to lately is getting used to me being awake at this time. It’s the damn situation with Andi… Knowing she has a broken heart… makes it nearly impossible to sleep.

I grab for my phone off my night stand, and I knocked my alarm clock off. Fuck it I think and finally find my phone.

-Hello?-
-hey… Did I wake you? - When I heard Andi’s voice I felt a certain amount of joy that was until I could hear her sniffling in the background… Will she ever be able to talk to me without crying?
-Ya I was sleeping, but I would rather talk to you.-
-Are you sure Lucas?-
-Absolutely Andi-
-well ok, I called because I had this dream, and I just needed someone to talk to about it… And even though you’re my ex you were the first person I thought of. - It hurt remembering that Andi was no longer my girl. She was just THE girl, which I’m sure I’ll be in love with till the day I die.
-Andi, you know I’m here for you. I don’t care what time it is…Or if you hate me, I’m here for you.-
-Thank you boo… and um ditto.-
She called me boo. I couldn’t help but smile. –What was your dream about baby girl?-
-Actually…If you don’t mind, Can you come over?-
-I’ll be right there.-

I hang up the phone; did Andi just invite me over to her house? I thought she wanted nothing to do with me, But she does… Yes this is all too confusing. I walk over to my dresser and I slip on some black skinny jeans and my converse. Andi loves my Asking Alexandria shirt… I’ll wear it… “But she’ll probably try and run off with it” I say to myself, laughing at the thought of Andi running away with my shirt. I grab my keys and lock the house, and then I start walking towards Andi’s house. It’s kind of cold... As soon as I stepped out I wish I had grabbed a hoodie.

I get to Andi’s doorstep and I knock. She comes to the door a second later and she looks amazing. Her hair is curly when it’s normally straight. She’s wearing her long black skinny jeans and her converse that go to her knee. I can see her studded belt hidden under her hello kitty shirt and her face was the most beautiful face I had ever seen.

“Lukas” she says smiling, she was happy to see me.
“Hey Andi, you look amazing” I smiled when I seen her smile at me, so far so good. She moved aside to let me through.
“Come on in, oh and that shirt will be mine.” I walked in there and just stood in the living room, it was kind of awkward and I didn’t know what she had planned to do. She laughs like she can sense the awkwardness and points me in the direction of her bedroom.
“We can sit on my bed and watch a movie”
“Oh sounds good, what movie?”
“Saw? I guess. Does that work for you?”
“Yeah Andi that’s perfect.-

It was about 4:20 in the morning and here I was sitting on my ex’s bed… I have school at 7:00 which means I’ll have to leave as soon as the movie is over if I want to make it home.

Andi puts the movie in and jumps on her bed beside me. I could tell she was tired and just wanted to sleep. That made me wonder what her dream was about but I didn’t ask, I would wait until later.

When we were in the middle of the movie, we layed down and covered up with her blanket. I wrapped my arms around her and kissed her, and then we eventually fell asleep together.

At 6:30 I hear:

It's cold so
I cover myself with this blanket
but the weathers the same
and I hate this
I'm warm for this moment alone

And I don't see anyway
that I could mean
anything to you

Save me
tell me the ways that you changed
things
Make me believe that I'm okay
tell me I'm different from you

I don't see anyway
that I could mean
anything to you

Tell me
my tactic to
brush away feelings
The truth and the way that I'm living
will leave me to
blame and alone


I still don't see anyway
that I could mean
anything to you

I open my eyes and I have no idea where I was for a moment, and then I remembered that me and Andi watched a movie and we must have fallen asleep. I was so tired and I didn’t want to let go of her, I was to confterable. I move my arms and sit up… I can see Andi is awake. She sits up.

“Lukas…”
“Ya?” I thought by her tone that she had implied that yesterday was a mistake… even though all we did was watch saw.
She leaned over and kissed me and then she whispered…”I love you.”
“I love you too” I kiss her back laying her down, there was no way around it that I was in love with this girl, and