Keep quiet by Chalen D. (best books to read in your 20s txt) 📕

"dig deep." gabe said. i nodded. dig deep? dig where? i began to think. There's this thing inside of me that i can't name. irrataion is just another word that goes along with confusion. i can't tell you what it is, perhaps it's a little too dark for words. you say you understand, but it's just another unknown lie, that you placed inside of my mind. i can't explain what happens in my mind, it's just one major mees that i can't sourt through. Acusion come to mind, only when i think of you. lies and torrment, run through my mind, only stopping to remind me of the things, i can't get out of my mind. voices tell me that i'm not good enough and i should just give up already, but i know i'm better than that and i continue to go forward. No one knows the things i carry around with me, it's just a little painfull to say. so many people for just one mind and they all want to make themselfes known. i think i'm not worthy and hide myself away, i can't get close to people, cause i don't want to drag them down with me. My life is a downward spiral with no meaning to stop anytime soon. with all these things runing through my mind i think i might just yell! i'll never let people see inside, i'm afriad that they'll run away and hide. if i could run away from myself i would. i lay awake at night with all my thoughts. doing the things i love help keep me alive. i'm a troubled girl, that won't face the truth. there's something wrong with me. all my life, being different has gotten me beaten black and blue. i shut out knew faces, afraid of the things that they can do.
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after i came up with five songs we practiced them non stop untill 4 in the morning when we started to drop like flys. after playing at the park we started to put everthing away. "hi." gabe said. "hi." i said. "oh just kiss her already!" luce said, putting an amp in the car. gabe became red and i looked at the floor. we all went out for pizza. "that was awesome i've never felt so alive." luke said. i looked down when something touched my hand. gabes hand was raped around mine. i looked up at him but he keep eating like nothing was wrong. and nothing was wrong. it's just that in the begining he barely even said, hi, and now he's grabbing my hand? i studied him. his black hair and blue eyes, where stunning. "eath to belle." luce said. "what?' i asked, looking to her, embarrased. " do you think this could be a regular thing?" she asked. "if we practice." i said. "but for now lets just work on getting out of the crazy school shall we?" gabe asked. at the same time everyone at the table drank their soda. we got a letter in the mail saying that we needed to go to the court house right away. so we did. only to find a verry peeved mom. "how dare you take my daughter! i'm taking her home and i'm filling for joanah to come and live with me." she said. "why so you can put me in the crazy school too?" he asked. "so we both can get ignored?' ia sked. a woman wrote something down. we where put into an immeadat custody battle. in the end dad one. i was taken from the crazy school, put in reagluar school with everyone else. i was in the kitchen when gabe came up to me. i smiled. "i want to try something." he siad. his voice was low, and warm. he leaned in and kissed me.
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Publication Date: 05-02-2012

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