how to fix the cut by KLeena Girl (grave mercy TXT) 📕

for me to stay any longer”, he said and left.
She didn’t know what he meant. „Wait! Adam, what the hell is going on?” Her words hit onto deaf ears as she hard the front door falling into lock.
„Dammit!” She cursed out loud and threw herself on the bed. How could she be in love with such a fool?


* * *


„I’m feeling a little uneasy about leaving you behind with that son of a bi-“
„Hey, hey”, Serena exclaimed and wiggled with her index finger in front of his face, „no more insulting. I thought we had talked about that.”
David’s shoulders slumped down. „Yes, sister

”, he drawled out as he approached her. Her green eyes quickly changed from playful to sad. „Are you sure you’re going to be alright alone by yourself, Serena?”
She gave him a reassuring smile. „I’m all grown up now, Dave. You don’t need to worry about me.” Breathing in deep, she added, „More important, I want to be informed how you are. And how the next exams will turn out.”
„I’ll write. And phone you. Every day if you want.” David was serious. Lovingly he laid his hands onto her shoulder and looked down into her big, hopeful eyes. „Thank you, Serena. Honestly. Without you I wouldn’t feel this happy right now.”
The 16-year-old frowned. „But I haven’t done anything significant for you, why-?”
„Yes, you have”, David told her and pulled her close. „You still do.” He leaned forward to press a chaste kiss on her forehead. When her face came in sight again, he noticed her eyes becoming glassy. „You care.”
A soft sob escaped Serena’s lips. It was followed by uncertain laughter. „No, don’t make me cry”, she answered and the first tear made its way down her cheek, „not again. I don’t want this to be a sad goodbye.”
„We’ll meet again soon”, he replied and embraced her. She stood at the edge of the street and waved till his taxi disappeared behind the corner.
* * *


„A little uneasy, indeed”, Serena breathed out, after she had come to a stop in front of the front door. She stared at the wooden surface for a few seconds, anticipation and a little bit of fear rushing through her. Hesitantly she lifted her arm and pressed the alarm button quickly, before pulling back her hand, as if she had been burnt. Willing herself to come down, she put on a bright smile and folded her hands together in front of her breast.
„Serena”, the young man, who had opened the door, greeted her, „you look lovely.”
A blush crept up her face and she entered. She strolled around the familiar living room and turned around to see him smiling.
„Your family?” She asked curiously.
„On holidays.”
„So, why did you want to talk to me, Adam?”
He gulped as she moved forward to the point so fast. „Serena, I’ve been a complete idiot the last days. And I’m so sorry I started avoiding you, for I know that you sometimes feel lonely.”
He made a pause and looked at her intently. The blue reminded her for a brief moment of David, but only till she found a flicker of love, romantically love, and even a tiny spot of lust in them.
„It isn’t my place to tell you with whom to be friends with”, he continued, „and you were right. I am jealous.”
Serena watched in awe, how he approached while going on with his apology. „I’m such a fool, aren’t I? “ His lips came close to her skin and she could feel his warm breath against her skin.
„Adam, I…”, the young girl was at a loss of words when his lips descended with hers. It had been so long since she had kissed someone, out of love. Adam’s movements became more direct and his long fingers glided over her back. As much as passion was longing inside of her, as burning was the desire to tell him the words she desperately needed to tell him. „I…I have to tell you something”, she murmured in between his kisses and their panting, „you…I…” Her mind was lacking, as his hands found the clasp of her bra. She opened her mouth to begin again, though he quickly silenced her with a long, sensual kiss.
„It’s okay”, he whispered into her ear, „Don’t be afraid.” She looked into his deep blue eyes with excitement and confusion. „I want you to remember this night, Serena.”


* * *


Rays of sunlight shone through the curtain onto her peaceful face. Her eyes were closed and she wasn’t smiling, but one could tell she was deep asleep and at comfort. She was snuggled up in a thin blanket, since the summer nights were quite warm. Her panties were the only thing she wore, but the blanket did enough to cover up her breasts. Serena stirred slightly and her eyes opened. Today felt right. It was the right time to finally tell Adam about her past. She had sensed it last night more clear than ever. She was in love with him. She loved him with all her being. And that fact alone, that he was able to make her feel love again, was enough for him to deserve hearing the truth. She blinked at the alarm clock. A few minutes after 9 am.
Pushing herself into a sitting person, the blanket wrapped around her torso, she let her gaze wander across Adam’s room. It seemed so familiar to her and actually it was a nice feeling waking up in here. Though, she did miss his presence. Was he already up? She shook her head a bit and the messy strays fell down her shoulders. Standing up, she clutched her hands to her cleavage and adjusted the fabric, so it would stay covered.
A little insecure, she sneaked down the stairs. She didn’t feel like calling him, so she went from room to room, just to find those empty. Where was he?
She was about to go upstairs again and to dress herself, as she noticed something shiny on the commode in the living room. Now at full attention she gave it a closer look. It was her necklace with the heart-shaped pendant. How could she have forgotten about that piece of jewellery? She picked it up carefully and the paper lying beneath it, as well. Slowly she opened the paper and read:

Dear Serena
I had no idea it was you. I should have known.
Don’t try to look for me. I won’t be coming back soon.
I love you
Adam

She stared down at the words and her gem. Running a finger along its side, she had a look at the inside of the locket. Lucas was kissing her cheek on the one side, on the other she was laughing along with her boys, Lucas and David. Her eyes kept staring at the image of herself and her deceased lover. It was so full of love and intimacy. Feelings she had missed for so long and she had begun to believe to have retrieved them. With Adam. And now he was gone, just as Lucas, as David, as Jenny, as Sebastian…why did they all leave her behind? Adam’s smile flashed through her memories. Why did he go? He should have known. What? She was so in love with him. It had taken her so long to open up again and now, when she was ready, he simply broke her heart by leaving. Running away. But of course not before he had had his way with her. I love you – how could he write such words, when he behaved like a fucking bastard? Suddenly she felt dirty that she had let herself be touched by him at all. She tore the blanket away from her skin and sank to her knees, an angry and desperate sob fled from her lips. Lying in a foetal position she let her anguish free. Her breathing was hysterical and her weeping was actually more like screaming. She sounded like a wounded animal. Her naked skin tensed up to goosebumps despite the warm temperatures. The pupils of her emerald eyes remained wide as she stared at the wall. The sheet lay around her ankles, crumpled and messy. It might appear strange, but Serena’s pain wasn’t just mental. She could feel her heart beating fast and faster and the lump in her throat hurt. Holding onto her necklace as if it was life itself she waited, crying and gasping for breath, for the ache to subside. Futilely.

She was so cold. Serena knew she had to get up, she didn’t want any of Adam’s family members to find her here. Naked and all. Slouching back into Adam’s room, she wiped away the last of her tears. Fucking idiot, why did she cry over such an ass? Her grief turned into madness. She threw the blanket onto the bed and dressed herself hectically. Only when it came to her necklace, she slowed down her movements and put it on. Taking a deep breath, Adam’s words echoed in her mind. I should have known. Her fingers encircled the locket, hanging from her slender neck. The solution shot through her and woke her from her state of anger. Adam had known about Lucas and also about his fate. However, he hadn’t realized who she was. In the end, she couldn’t blame him for not-knowing, since she had been the one keeping her true self as a secret. Such irony. She grabbed her bag and glanced at the clock. It was afternoon already. Not even trying to get a look at the mirror – she knew she must be a mess – she smoothed her hair over the back of her head. The letter was crushed in her fist and she left the house in a hurry. The hot sun outside shocked her body with a sudden wave of warmth. She made her way through the park and came to a halt, when she reached the favourite spot of Lucas, David and hers. It was the exact spot, where she had lain with Adam and the place where he and David had beaten each other. It was so paradox that she almost had to smile.
Serena closed her eyes and let herself think about the day of them, LSD and their promise. It was a nice memory, even though both sad and happy. She wanted those times back. She wanted Lucas and David back. She just wanted to stay in the past and forget all this present misery.
A soft breeze brought some cool air along and made the green leaves rustle in the wind. Only a quiet whisper cut through the sound of nature.
„Let’s promise we’ll never let anything take away our happiness together.”

* * *


Green eyes opened and gazed at the bouquet of flowers decorating the grave. Her breath was visible, as she spoke, „I’m glad you could make it.”
„I had wanted to come earlier”, a deep, male voice answered, „I’m sorry I didn’t.”
Serena turned to face him. „You’re here now. That’s all that matters. I don’t think I could have made it on my own today.”
„Jenny and her family understand. It’s hard for you.” David replied and she was captured by his unique eyes.
„It is”, she murmured and pulled her scarf tighter around her neck. Breaking free from his gaze, she reversed and started walking, „let’s go.”
David followed her and they went away from the cemetery in silence. „Go ahead, say it”, bitterness strained her voice. „What do you mean, Serena?” he replied.
„That you were always right about Adam and you’ve told me so”, she muttered annoyed.
„I’m not going to do so”, he said honestly, „you’re my little