how to fix the cut by KLeena Girl (grave mercy TXT) 📕

not everything, but enough to understand how her feelings were.
Serena was startled, when she entered the living room. She hadn’t expected anyone else in here, not even his parents, because she knew they were at work. So when a young man – at the age of 19, she guessed – looked back her, she was slightly taken aback. Said man who had been sitting on the couch rose and faced her. His face was strong and manly, the hair chocolate brown. The stranger’s form was skinny, like you could almost see his bones sticking out of his pale skin. Deep circles ran beneath his bright blue eyes, making him look tired and drained. Somehow, this person seemed familiar to her, but she couldn’t quite make out who it was. Searching through her memory, she couldn’t recall knowing someone who appeared so…sick. His thin lips were pulled into a smirk.
„Hi”, Serena said a little confused, „I didn’t know that Sebastian had been expecting another visitor.”
The man looked like he was trying hard to suppress a chuckle. He took a step forwards and held out his long, bony arms in front of him. „Serena”, he said in voice so familiar that Serena didn’t even question why this man knew her name, „do you really not recognize me?”
Her eyes met his and she felt herself instantly dragged into a pool of memories. Could it be…? Just hearing this voice left no room for doubt, but still…if this was really him, then he must have changed dramatically, his outward appearance, that was.
Not even having finished thinking, her mouth opened to answer. „David, is that you?”
The man laughed, as he pulled her into a hug. Serena couldn’t help but breathe in his scent. Yes, it was definitely David. But what had him turned into this? Back then, David had been a strong boy, slim, but muscular. His skin had always been pale, but now it was white. She actually feared crushing his bones, when she returned the embrace. Pulling away a little, she saw right into these blue-whitish eyes, which were glowing with joy and happiness. Despite the dark circles beneath them, they were radiating now with energy and…hope?
Even if she didn’t mean to, Serena smiled back at him. No matter how messed up their past had been, she was so excited to see David again.
She hadn’t realized that the two of them had been standing in front of each other for a long moment, until Sebastian came in and snapped them out of it.
„I see, you two still know each other. Take a seat”, the blonde said and his guests did as he said. With shaking knees, Serena sat down next to David, of whom she couldn’t seem to keep her eyes of. She blushed, as she realized she was staring and turned her face towards the coffee table.
When the silence continued, Sebastian took the word. „David was with me in Croatia. And now he’s here in Germany to visit his father and his friends, of course.”
„Is that so?” Serena asked, a hint of curiosity spreading out in her voice. She didn’t quite believe that he was here because of his family. Maybe he’d come back to clear things. Or to make peace with the past. She wanted to be angry at him for coming over so sudden and unannounced, but couldn’t bring herself to be that way. It was nice of him, if not brave, to meet her again and she was willing to give him a second chance. What had happened about a year ago wasn’t his fault. It had taken two. She was just as guilty as him.
David nodded and a mysterious glimmer appeared in his eyes. His gaze made her nervous, yet she kept looking into his eyes. „That’s good to hear, Davy

.”


* * *


„Adam, I’m here!” Serena shouted as entered through the back door. „Adam, hello?”
„Who are you and what do you want?” A grumpy voice answered and Serena was startled. She saw Adam’s parents sitting on the couch.
„G-Good evening, sir, ma’am”, Serena stuttered politely. „My name’s Serena Morgan. I’m looking for your son. Adam.”
His mother spoke up. Her voice was high-pitched and horrible to listen to. „And what makes you think it’s okay to come in all by yourself through the back door?”
Serena attempted an apologetic smile and failed. One thing was clear, Adam’s parents didn’t like her. But at least that was vice versa. Should she tell them that Adam had actually allowed her to come in that way? Would they even believe her? Well, it was at least worth a try.
„I told her to do so.” The firm reply was, before Serena couldn’t even open her mouth. Adam was walking down the stairs. „Let’s go to the park.”
„Your parents hate me”, she huffed, when they had finally left the house.
Adam chuckled. „They don’t. They’re always like that. I have to admit, a bit psycho.”
„What a relief then”, Serena commented sarcastically, „how do you live with them?”
„You get used to it, believe me. My parents’ relationship had always been bad. But let’s talks about something else. How was your visit at Sebastian’s?“
„Great“, Serena answered now happily. She was glad fort he topic switch. Adam didn’t seem to like to speak about his parents and she found that this was yet another thing they had in common. She told him about Sebastian’s experiences and his plans for the future. Adam appeared to be a good listener and was all ears for the younger girl, only interfering with some questions here and then. When the two teenagers approached the playground, they sat down in the grass. The older boy lay down on his back and Serena leaned herself gently onto his chest. She could feel his heart beating beneath her. It was a nice sensation. It didn’t beat too fast or too slow, it kept a perfect rhythm. Closing her eyes, she snuggled up into his sweater. Adam reached his hand down to smooth over her long, brown hair.
After some minutes, Serena opened her eyes again. „Adam?“ She asked insecurely. When he answered with an ’hm’, she kept on speaking. „Do you know this fuzzy, exciting feeling you get, when you meet someone you haven’t seen for a long, long time?”
Adam’s chest shook slightly as he chuckled. „Yeah, I guess. But you know, Sebastian had only been gone for a few months. He always does so. Shouldn’t you be used to it by now?”
Serena blushed. Of course, her statement must have led him to think she was talking about Sebastian, when in reality she wasn’t. She stayed silent for a moment, trying to decide whether or not she should tell him about David. In the end, she decided that Adam didn’t need to know. It would only make him curious for her past and she really wasn’t eager to tell anyone about that. Besides, it wasn’t like there was still something going on between her David and her. Not like there ever was, but talking about her previous best friend might indicate something else. So why bother with the past, when the present was so much better?
Serena closed her eyes and giggled. „You’re right. But I can’t help feeling happy, when I see my friends. No matter how long we’ve been separated.”
„Does that mean you’re happy to see me, too?” Adam’s response was. It held some kind of hope and expectation.
„Of course, silly”, she smiled, unaware that he was watching her beautiful face, „I’m always happy to see you.”
He didn’t reply, but he put his arm around her shoulders, closed his eyes as well and smiled.


* * *


She checked herself in the mirror for the fifth time now. The simple red shirt was tight and showed off her grown curves. It was hard to dismiss Serena’s more and more female becoming body. The short, black trousers complimented her long legs, even though she was still not nearly as tall as her male friends. Why did she care so much about what to wear tonight anyway? David had told her it would be a small party, more likely to be an evening with a few friends, to celebrate his return. So now Serena felt overdressed. To make that up, she decided against her high-heeled boots and went for her plain chucks. Yes, that should compensate the sensuality of her low-cut shirt, which dared to expose not enough cleavage to see, but enough to imagine. It was still too early for her to head off and she wondered why she was so nervous. Breathing calmly, she tried to get her nerves down. Tonight would be just a comfortable being-together with no stress at all. Or drama for that matter.
Serena felt a wave of nice – yet strange – memories rushing over her mind, as she entered the Newton mansion. Not so long ago, this house had been her home. Now the place was filled with a mass of people, bottles of beer were standing everywhere and music, so loud you couldn’t figure out what was played, numbed Serena’s ears. For a moment, her senses couldn’t make out what she was looking for until a hand touched her shoulder. Surprised, she swirled around to see David’s grinning face. She wasn’t exactly able to hear his words, but she tried to understand by reading his lips. „Glad you could make it here”, they said. He rushed to embrace her. Her breasts were pressed down against his chest, covered only in a thin black t-shirt, allowing her to feel his skinny ribcage. Slowly, Serena had accustomed herself to the loud music and shouted back, „I thought this would be some simple friends meeting, not a huge party.”
David laughed embarrassed. „That’s what I said, wasn’t it?” He led her through the hallway to the living room, where the noise amplitude wasn’t quite as big. The living room, Serena’s favourite room, was still the way she used to remember it. Large, with a high ceiling and white leather furniture. Even the chandelier was still in place, though it wasn’t the source of light now. The dim illumination came from a standard lamp and some candles. Touched in a dizzy way, Serena looked around. This was the place where she had stayed up with her brother David some sleepless nights to talk, tease or to simply watch TV. Other times, Lucas had been here with them, cuddling with her beneath the soft white blankets. And then, Christmas and Hanukah had been celebrated in this room, too. She sighed, lost in nostalgic thoughts, and took the beer David offered her.
A few hours and beers later, she found herself again in the living room, sitting on the couch next to David. They were laughing and talking the whole time. She didn’t know if it was the alcohol or her real feelings, but somehow she gained the courage to tell him how much she had actually missed him. When she talked, her voice was slurring slightly and chuckles broke down her sentences. She didn’t realize how drunk she was. Everything seemed funny to her. It was so relieving, Serena had to giggle.
At first, David’s attitude had been similar to hers, all easy-going and happy. But when she looked at him, she saw that his smile was gone. Insecurely, she tore her gaze away to see dim light flooding the room and making the contours of the people appear softer. In the frame of the balcony door the smokers were standing, the others were sitting around or moving along the heavy Placebo – sounds.
Serena’s eyes found their way back to David’s, whose gaze was serious.
„I left because I had Leukaemia.”
He said it so casually that it appeared to be