Remembering Altair by Rob Astor (types of ebook readers TXT) š
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This is a collection of lyrical poetry inspired by the recent sudden loss of the person I was most close to in this whole world. Every part is a glimpse or a picture of a feeling or a frustration while I continue to wade through the unsure aftermath of her passing.
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You wonāt be happy until thereās nothing left
Caught in an infinite loop
You better back off ācause Iām loosing it!
The Spiral
August 23, 2010
No one wants to help me out
No matter how loud I shout
Although all my dreams have been shattered
Iām gonna break out of this holding pattern
Silly little court jester doing my juggling act
Waiting on the Devil to make good on his pact
Donāt bring your war home to me
You donāt have to settle a score, so let it be
Iām the victim, but, you donāt have to believe
When that cold icy wind blows
And cuts me right down to the bone
You said youād be there and Iām all alone
No helping hand to pull me out of this hole
Strong enough to stand on my own two feet
Pityās not what I want, nor what I need
Yes, Iām the victim canāt you see
Itās no less true just because you donāt believe
Someone throw me a lifeline and help me
They say the words and put me in a rage
Play all the games and never turn a page
Thinkinā theyāre the new king in town
Tryinā to beat me right into the ground
Like a teenager, go make minimum wage
But, grow up, pay the bills, and act your age
Just when I think Iāve earned their respect
The cold shoulder is all Iām ever gonna get
Thereās a never ending spiral carrying me like a whirlwind
What once was calmed by you is now a stormy sea
Roll me over and over and crash me against the rocks again and again
Iām never strong enough to claim my rightful victory
Spinning through this spiral
Ever falling down into the pit
Spinning through this spiral
Just need a lifeline to avoid the split
Spinning through this spiral
With no lifeline and no intent to submit
I wish I could cast off the inertia of spinning through this spiral
Spinning through this spiral
Ever falling down into the pit
Spinning through this spiral
Just need a lifeline to avoid the split
Spinning through this spiral
With no lifeline and no intent to submit
Damn the inertia of spinning through this spiral
Dark River To Antares
July 19 - 25, 2010
Do you know what kind of hurt youāre causing
Every time you say it wonāt work
Do you know what kind of doubt youāre sowing
Every time you tell me itās wrong
Theyāll have you believe
The sun and moon set on gold and silver
Unless youāre a winner
Only the rich get richer
With the flip of a card
With the turn of a phrase
Theyāll never hesitate
To run you right over
And send you right down the dark river to Antares
The inner voice I depend on to guide me
Fell silent the day youāre gone
Will good fortune bring me serenity
Horoscope says it never comes
Theyāll give you headaches
Weighing heavy on your weary mind
It all goes away when
You leave the money behind
With the flip of a card
With the turn of a phrase
Theyāll never hesitate
To run you right over
And send you right down the dark river to Antares
With the turn of a phrase
Theyāve taught you how to hate
Anytime anyone
Canāt pull their own weight
Theyāll send you right down the dark river to Antares
Clean out my house damnit
And knock my planets in line
Gonna play celestial billiards ācause I deserve better than this
Iām drowning in a deluge of back luck, stop wasting time
Itās time to let luck align
Put good fortune right over here in my corner
Better keep quiet if I donāt have your support
Thatās right, keep quiet
With the flip of a card
With the turn of a phrase
Theyāll never hesitate
To run you right over
And send you right down the dark river to Antares
With the turn of a phrase
Theyāve taught you how to hate
Anytime anyone
Canāt pull their own weight
Theyāll send you right down the dark river to Antares
So donāt hold out your hand
Theyāll tell you to go straight to Hades
When it weighs heavy on your mind
You gotta leave the money behind
Silent Rage
July 27, 2010
Canāt move forward
If Iām stuck in place
Canāt go backward
Canāt relive yesterday
Someone, anyone
Tell me which way to go
Itās a vicious circle
Trapped in limbo
Inner workings
Tormented feelings
Private perversions
Veiled in thin disguise
Just below the surface
Just below my surface
Barely kept in place
Under this Poker face
Silent rage
Buried within
Anger burning
Bright as a blue flame
Canāt turn the page
And I canāt make it go away
Like a soul full of Black Plague
Iām burning in silent rage
So whereās my sunrise
Whereās my bright new day
Gotta chase a dream
But thereās a price to pay
Canāt survive on so little
There has to be more
Opportunity aināt
Knockinā down my door
Inner workings
Tormented feelings
Private perversions
Veiled in thin disguise
Just below the surface
Just below my surface
Barely kept in place
Under this Poker face
Silent rage
Buried within
Anger burning
Just below the skin
Silent rage
Bright as a blue flame
Canāt turn the page
And I canāt make it go away
Like a soul full of Black Plague
An arrow shot with no aim
Iām burning in silent rage
Over and over
Itās a vicious circle
Goinā over and over
Trapped in limbo
Over and over
āPlease sir, can I have some moreā
You know opportunity aināt
Breaking down my door
Itās a silent rage
Buried within
Anger burning
Just below the skin
Silent rage
Written on my face
Bright as a blue flame
Canāt turn my page
Sure as hell canāt make it go away
Like a soul full of Black Plague
An arrow shot with no aim
When nothing ever goes my way
Iām burning in silent rage
Playing With Fire
August 24, 2010
I know you think youāre better
You really wear the right attitude
So if beggars canāt be choosers
Why play the game like a looser
Thatās right, Iām better than that
Every right to be holier than thou
You think your way is the best
No room for choices, forget the rest
How presumptuous to think you can control my life and so much more
How arrogant to make that assumption
When you take a swing at me, better be sure to knock me on the floor
Donāt put me down ācause Iām not controlled by your demons
Youāre playing with fire
Donāt you dare scream at me like a wailing banshee
Youāre playing with fire
I donāt have time to sit here and listen to your sermons
Youāre playing with fire
Youāre as out of tune as an old worn out guitar string
Youāre playing with fire
And, one day Iām gonna recoil like a spring
Just because you think youāre the best
Doesnāt mean you have my respect
Grow up is the message to you from me
Stay in your own little world and let me be
And stop playing with fire
Remember, evil is as evil does
Better stay with your angel
Curl up next to her all fetal
Donāt turn me into the evilest evil doer who ever eviled
How presumptuous to think you can control my life and so much more
How arrogant to make that assumption
When you take a swing at me, better be sure to knock me on the floor
Donāt put me down ācause Iām not controlled by your demons
Youāre playing with fire
Donāt you dare scream at me like a wailing banshee
Youāre playing with fire
I donāt have time to sit here and listen to your sermons
Youāre playing with fire
Youāre as out of tune as an old worn out guitar string
Youāre playing with fire
One day Iām gonna recoil like a spring
Just because you think youāre the best
Doesnāt mean you have my respect
Grow up is the message to you from me
Stay in your own little world and let me be
Better stop playing with fire
Highway To Nowhere
August 30, 2010
Ninety-three degrees with crushing humidity
Might as well be a fire roaring
Hazy clouds like skid marks in the sky
Asphaltās melting, itās the warning signs youāre ignoring
Itās a crazy little world spinning like this
Perfect stance, take a swing but you miss
You want to be a legend in your own time
But youāre just a legend in your own mind
Like a hot wind blowing in the August heat
Always in a hurry to rush off to nowhere
To some important appointment to keep
Run a few red lights and ignore the exit signs
Just peel your rubber right on down the highway to nowhere
Your so-called busy life is only important in your own mind
If you see the warning signs
Can you hit the brake in time
Are you speeding off to nowhere
Or trying to leave it all behind
Night falls over the sultry neon city
The smoke from another fire set you off and running
The impulse of money is always never enough
Stomp on the accelerator till you hit one-twenty
Itās a crazy little world spinning on its axis
When that scheme fell apart, did you take time to assess
If you want to be a legend in your own time
You gotta draw that dream right out of your mind
Like a hot wind blowing in the August heat
Always in a hurry to get to nowhere
To some important appointment to keep
Run a few red lights and ignore the exit signs
Spin your wheels right on down the highway to nowhere
Your so-called busy life is only important within your own mind
If you see the warning signs
Can you hit the brake in time
Are you speeding off to nowhere
Or trying to leave it all behind
If you donāt listen
No oneās gonna listen
Squealing your tires
No, you donāt listen
So no oneās listeninā
Youāre burning your rubber
If you see the warning signs
Can you hit the brake in time
Are you speeding off to nowhere
Or trying to leave it all behind
Spin your wheels down the highway to nowhere
Go Away
July 27 - 28, 2010
Go away
Release your hold on me
Get out of my life
Put an end to the loosing streak
Go away
And get out of my life
Take the negativity with you
Stay out of my sight
Push it away
Shove it aside
Lock the door
Keep it outside
Iāve had enough anger, sadness, and pain
Itās not who I am
Make it go away
Iām not ready for Arkham
Iām really not insane
The real meās coming back through
Darkness, you have no place to stay
My message is loud and clear I said go away
Go away
Iām filled with confidence
Get out of my life
Iām no longer innocent
Go away
Iām ready to conquer the world
And get out of my life
While the clear blue sky unfurls
Push it away
Shove it aside
Lock the door
Keep it outside
Iāve had enough anger, sadness, and pain
Itās not who I am
Make it go away
Iām not ready for Arkham
Iām really not insane
The real meās coming back through
Darkness, you have no place to stay
My message is loud and clear I said go away
You wonāt be happy until thereās nothing left
Caught in an infinite loop
You better back off ācause Iām loosing it!
The Spiral
August 23, 2010
No one wants to help me out
No matter how loud I shout
Although all my dreams have been shattered
Iām gonna break out of this holding pattern
Silly little court jester doing my juggling act
Waiting on the Devil to make good on his pact
Donāt bring your war home to me
You donāt have to settle a score, so let it be
Iām the victim, but, you donāt have to believe
When that cold icy wind blows
And cuts me right down to the bone
You said youād be there and Iām all alone
No helping hand to pull me out of this hole
Strong enough to stand on my own two feet
Pityās not what I want, nor what I need
Yes, Iām the victim canāt you see
Itās no less true just because you donāt believe
Someone throw me a lifeline and help me
They say the words and put me in a rage
Play all the games and never turn a page
Thinkinā theyāre the new king in town
Tryinā to beat me right into the ground
Like a teenager, go make minimum wage
But, grow up, pay the bills, and act your age
Just when I think Iāve earned their respect
The cold shoulder is all Iām ever gonna get
Thereās a never ending spiral carrying me like a whirlwind
What once was calmed by you is now a stormy sea
Roll me over and over and crash me against the rocks again and again
Iām never strong enough to claim my rightful victory
Spinning through this spiral
Ever falling down into the pit
Spinning through this spiral
Just need a lifeline to avoid the split
Spinning through this spiral
With no lifeline and no intent to submit
I wish I could cast off the inertia of spinning through this spiral
Spinning through this spiral
Ever falling down into the pit
Spinning through this spiral
Just need a lifeline to avoid the split
Spinning through this spiral
With no lifeline and no intent to submit
Damn the inertia of spinning through this spiral
Dark River To Antares
July 19 - 25, 2010
Do you know what kind of hurt youāre causing
Every time you say it wonāt work
Do you know what kind of doubt youāre sowing
Every time you tell me itās wrong
Theyāll have you believe
The sun and moon set on gold and silver
Unless youāre a winner
Only the rich get richer
With the flip of a card
With the turn of a phrase
Theyāll never hesitate
To run you right over
And send you right down the dark river to Antares
The inner voice I depend on to guide me
Fell silent the day youāre gone
Will good fortune bring me serenity
Horoscope says it never comes
Theyāll give you headaches
Weighing heavy on your weary mind
It all goes away when
You leave the money behind
With the flip of a card
With the turn of a phrase
Theyāll never hesitate
To run you right over
And send you right down the dark river to Antares
With the turn of a phrase
Theyāve taught you how to hate
Anytime anyone
Canāt pull their own weight
Theyāll send you right down the dark river to Antares
Clean out my house damnit
And knock my planets in line
Gonna play celestial billiards ācause I deserve better than this
Iām drowning in a deluge of back luck, stop wasting time
Itās time to let luck align
Put good fortune right over here in my corner
Better keep quiet if I donāt have your support
Thatās right, keep quiet
With the flip of a card
With the turn of a phrase
Theyāll never hesitate
To run you right over
And send you right down the dark river to Antares
With the turn of a phrase
Theyāve taught you how to hate
Anytime anyone
Canāt pull their own weight
Theyāll send you right down the dark river to Antares
So donāt hold out your hand
Theyāll tell you to go straight to Hades
When it weighs heavy on your mind
You gotta leave the money behind
Silent Rage
July 27, 2010
Canāt move forward
If Iām stuck in place
Canāt go backward
Canāt relive yesterday
Someone, anyone
Tell me which way to go
Itās a vicious circle
Trapped in limbo
Inner workings
Tormented feelings
Private perversions
Veiled in thin disguise
Just below the surface
Just below my surface
Barely kept in place
Under this Poker face
Silent rage
Buried within
Anger burning
Bright as a blue flame
Canāt turn the page
And I canāt make it go away
Like a soul full of Black Plague
Iām burning in silent rage
So whereās my sunrise
Whereās my bright new day
Gotta chase a dream
But thereās a price to pay
Canāt survive on so little
There has to be more
Opportunity aināt
Knockinā down my door
Inner workings
Tormented feelings
Private perversions
Veiled in thin disguise
Just below the surface
Just below my surface
Barely kept in place
Under this Poker face
Silent rage
Buried within
Anger burning
Just below the skin
Silent rage
Bright as a blue flame
Canāt turn the page
And I canāt make it go away
Like a soul full of Black Plague
An arrow shot with no aim
Iām burning in silent rage
Over and over
Itās a vicious circle
Goinā over and over
Trapped in limbo
Over and over
āPlease sir, can I have some moreā
You know opportunity aināt
Breaking down my door
Itās a silent rage
Buried within
Anger burning
Just below the skin
Silent rage
Written on my face
Bright as a blue flame
Canāt turn my page
Sure as hell canāt make it go away
Like a soul full of Black Plague
An arrow shot with no aim
When nothing ever goes my way
Iām burning in silent rage
Playing With Fire
August 24, 2010
I know you think youāre better
You really wear the right attitude
So if beggars canāt be choosers
Why play the game like a looser
Thatās right, Iām better than that
Every right to be holier than thou
You think your way is the best
No room for choices, forget the rest
How presumptuous to think you can control my life and so much more
How arrogant to make that assumption
When you take a swing at me, better be sure to knock me on the floor
Donāt put me down ācause Iām not controlled by your demons
Youāre playing with fire
Donāt you dare scream at me like a wailing banshee
Youāre playing with fire
I donāt have time to sit here and listen to your sermons
Youāre playing with fire
Youāre as out of tune as an old worn out guitar string
Youāre playing with fire
And, one day Iām gonna recoil like a spring
Just because you think youāre the best
Doesnāt mean you have my respect
Grow up is the message to you from me
Stay in your own little world and let me be
And stop playing with fire
Remember, evil is as evil does
Better stay with your angel
Curl up next to her all fetal
Donāt turn me into the evilest evil doer who ever eviled
How presumptuous to think you can control my life and so much more
How arrogant to make that assumption
When you take a swing at me, better be sure to knock me on the floor
Donāt put me down ācause Iām not controlled by your demons
Youāre playing with fire
Donāt you dare scream at me like a wailing banshee
Youāre playing with fire
I donāt have time to sit here and listen to your sermons
Youāre playing with fire
Youāre as out of tune as an old worn out guitar string
Youāre playing with fire
One day Iām gonna recoil like a spring
Just because you think youāre the best
Doesnāt mean you have my respect
Grow up is the message to you from me
Stay in your own little world and let me be
Better stop playing with fire
Highway To Nowhere
August 30, 2010
Ninety-three degrees with crushing humidity
Might as well be a fire roaring
Hazy clouds like skid marks in the sky
Asphaltās melting, itās the warning signs youāre ignoring
Itās a crazy little world spinning like this
Perfect stance, take a swing but you miss
You want to be a legend in your own time
But youāre just a legend in your own mind
Like a hot wind blowing in the August heat
Always in a hurry to rush off to nowhere
To some important appointment to keep
Run a few red lights and ignore the exit signs
Just peel your rubber right on down the highway to nowhere
Your so-called busy life is only important in your own mind
If you see the warning signs
Can you hit the brake in time
Are you speeding off to nowhere
Or trying to leave it all behind
Night falls over the sultry neon city
The smoke from another fire set you off and running
The impulse of money is always never enough
Stomp on the accelerator till you hit one-twenty
Itās a crazy little world spinning on its axis
When that scheme fell apart, did you take time to assess
If you want to be a legend in your own time
You gotta draw that dream right out of your mind
Like a hot wind blowing in the August heat
Always in a hurry to get to nowhere
To some important appointment to keep
Run a few red lights and ignore the exit signs
Spin your wheels right on down the highway to nowhere
Your so-called busy life is only important within your own mind
If you see the warning signs
Can you hit the brake in time
Are you speeding off to nowhere
Or trying to leave it all behind
If you donāt listen
No oneās gonna listen
Squealing your tires
No, you donāt listen
So no oneās listeninā
Youāre burning your rubber
If you see the warning signs
Can you hit the brake in time
Are you speeding off to nowhere
Or trying to leave it all behind
Spin your wheels down the highway to nowhere
Go Away
July 27 - 28, 2010
Go away
Release your hold on me
Get out of my life
Put an end to the loosing streak
Go away
And get out of my life
Take the negativity with you
Stay out of my sight
Push it away
Shove it aside
Lock the door
Keep it outside
Iāve had enough anger, sadness, and pain
Itās not who I am
Make it go away
Iām not ready for Arkham
Iām really not insane
The real meās coming back through
Darkness, you have no place to stay
My message is loud and clear I said go away
Go away
Iām filled with confidence
Get out of my life
Iām no longer innocent
Go away
Iām ready to conquer the world
And get out of my life
While the clear blue sky unfurls
Push it away
Shove it aside
Lock the door
Keep it outside
Iāve had enough anger, sadness, and pain
Itās not who I am
Make it go away
Iām not ready for Arkham
Iām really not insane
The real meās coming back through
Darkness, you have no place to stay
My message is loud and clear I said go away
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