Destined to Change by Harley, M. (top android ebook reader TXT) 📕

could feel his warm breath on my face.  “Someday soon, Loralei.  Someday very, very soon.”

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It had been a month since Jaxon and I spent that night together in my house. I couldn’t believe how right this all felt. He might be more than just the right guy for right now, he might be my forever. The kids adored him, my parents loved him, and I kinda thought maybe I did too.

I asked Jaxon last week if he would like to go to the cattle sale with me. He jumped at the chance of us spending an entire weekend together away from the kids in a hotel in another town. I was pretty excited about it too. I was nervous too, but mostly excited.

After the kids went to sleep that night, I called Emma to chit-chat. She told me she and Eric were celebrating their six year wedding anniversary with a huge party at the lake this weekend.

“Lor, you have to bring Jaxon with you to the party. I can’t freaking believe you won’t introduce him to me,” Emma whined.

“Ems, you know I love you, but I just don’t know if Jaxon is ready for a party with a bunch of country folks. You know he’s not exactly a cowboy. I don’t want him to feel out of place. And I explained to you that it’s not that I won’t introduce him to you; you’re just so busy all the time with your new catering business. I never get to see you anymore.”

I couldn’t explain it, but I did feel kinda weird introducing Jaxon to Emma and Eric, especially Eric. He and Declan were best friends, and he and I had shared a special bond since the night of the accident. He had always treated the kids like his own. They adored their Uncle Eric, and he adored them. I was really afraid of what his reaction to Jaxon would be.

“Yeah, yeah, that’s what you keep saying, but I think you're embarrassed of me. I’m not a total hick, you know. I do have all my teeth, and I don’t wear overalls everyday!” I really hated to make Emma feel that way, but I felt that it was best to keep them away from Jaxon until I figured out my feelings for him.

I relented, “Okay, I’ll bring him to your party, geesh, woman, calm down!” As I was saying this to Emma, I was worrying about Jaxon. I would never want to put him in a situation where he would feel out of place, and I was really afraid this party might do just that. But I decided to hope for the best and invite him anyway.

Once I got off the phone with Emma, I called Jaxon to share the invite with him.

“Hey babe, what’s up?” he asked in a way that made my toes curl. I couldn’t believe he hadn’t pushed for us to have sex so far. I would’ve been concerned that he didn’t want me, but we made out like a couple of teenagers every day.

“Did I wake you up?”

“Oh, no baby. I just got out of the shower.”

“Well, I wanted to ask you something. I was wondering if you would like to go to a party with me on Saturday night?”

“What kinda party?” he asked.

“Emma and Eric are having a party at the lake to celebrate their anniversary. It should be fun and I would love for you to meet them.” I really did want him to meet Eric and Emma. As worried as I was about him fitting in, selfishly, I wanted my friends to get to know him. And I really wanted to hear Ems thoughts on him.

“You really want me to meet your friends? I was starting to think you were ashamed of me. You talk about Emma and Eric all the time, but you haven’t ever said anything about introducing us.” He sounded really sad when he said that last part. Had I made him feel that way? I hadn’t meant to.

“Jaxon, I’m so sorry if I made you feel that way. Of course I want you to meet my friends, please say yes.”

And in the sexiest voice I have ever heard he said, “For you baby, my answer is always yes.” Yes, that man could definitely make my lady parts dance. As I was standing by the bed thinking about my lady parts dancing, Jaxon asked, “So, what are you wearing right now?”

I couldn’t help it. I started giggling. The way he said it was just too funny.

When he didn’t say anything and I noticed he wasn’t giggling, I asked, “Um, are you serious? You really want to know?”

“Baby, I just got out of the shower. I am standing in front of my bed with only a towel wrapped around my waist. And just hearing your voice has made me hard. I miss how it felt when I slept beside you. The way it felt when I held you in my arms all night. I wanted to do so much more. You know that, right Lor?”

I couldn’t believe this was happening. Jaxon wanted to have phone sex with me. Surely, I was misunderstanding this.

I knew I sounded scared. “Yes, yes I know you wanted more. I did too. I was just scared, because it’s been so long.”

“Lor, do you want to have a new experience with me? I mean I just figured - you’ve never, uh, done this before, like on the phone?”

“Of course not Jaxon! You know I haven’t. Have you?”

“I’ve never wanted to before.”

“I would love to share my first time with you. I want you so much Jaxon. I’m about to explode.”

I heard something crash and then I heard Jaxon say, “Holy fuck.”

“Jaxon, are you still there? Are you okay?”

“Yeah, baby I’m here, um, wow, you just surprised me is all. I kind of dropped the phone.” I giggled and he said “Are you laughing at me?”

“Why yes I am Jaxon, now what are you gonna do about it?”