Destined to Change by Harley, M. (top android ebook reader TXT) 📕

Why should I give a shit about what he thinks? How dare he say anything about my life choices!”

I pulled the door open on the jeep and climbed in. Jaxon shut the door behind me and ran around to get in. He started it up, and I watched Emma run over to Eric. She was beating at his chest and screaming at him. Eric couldn't take his eyes off me. He wasn't angry, he looked sad. I started to tear up again and when I looked over at Jaxon he was just staring straight ahead as we drove down the road. He was acting like I wasn't there. I reached over to grab his hand and he pulled away.

“I'm sorry you had to hear that. I shouldn't have said that in front of you. I am so sorry.”

Jaxon finally looked over at me and said, “Eric's right, Lor. I don’t know who the hell I was trying to kid.  I’m not the right guy for you. I was just fooling myself thinking I was good enough to be with a lady like you. I’m not. You deserve so much better than me.”

Then he stared off into the distance in front of us again.  “I’ll talk to Uncle Jake and leave tomorrow. I don't want to hurt you anymore than I already have. You’ll always be special to me, and I hope that you’ll always remember me.”

I was crushed. I had opened my heart, my life, and my body to this man and we hit one little bump in the road and he was ready to leave?

“Well apparently our time together meant nothing to you if you’re willing to just leave when the going gets tough. I thought we were falling in love, but I guess I was really, really wrong.” I tried to hold back the tears.

Jaxon pulled the jeep over and grabbed my face in his hands. His eyes were so intense. We sat there for a long time just staring at each other until he said, “God damn it, Lor. I don't think I love you.”

My heart sank in my chest. He doesn't love me. That's why it was so easy for him to just walk away.

“I fucking know I love you. I have never felt this way about anyone before. Saying all that shit just now about killed me. I can’t stand the thought of not being with you. Not seeing you every day. I love you and I love the kids and I want to see where this goes. I want us to try for our happily ever after. Don’t you want that too, Lor?”

I wanted to scream “yes” and “I love you too”, but I couldn't say anything. I reached up and swiped my knuckles across his jaw. “Eric is an asshole. He doesn't know what's best for me and the kids. But I do, and I think that's you.”

He kissed me, a sweet, soft, meaningful kiss. A kiss that told me that we were going to be together and that it didn't matter what anyone else thought.

Chapter 6

 

Loralei

 

The next few days were great. Jaxon and I spent every minute we could together. The fact that we worked together was really convenient. That's one of the perks of being the boss, you can make-out with your farmhand boyfriend in every possible place you can think of on the farm. The barn, the field, the garage, the garden, my office - so many places, so little time.

I walked into one of the horse stalls and suddenly felt warm breath on the back of my neck.

“Morning, babe,” Jaxon said, placing a kiss on my neck. I felt his tongue as he licked a trail from my ear to my jaw. I shivered from my head to my toes.

“Jaxon, stop. Someone will see us.”

“No, they won’t. Everyone went into town for the sale this morning. We have the barn all to ourselves. Of course, we have to share it with the horses, but I don’t think they’ll mind if we roll around in their hay for a bit.”

I turned to face him. “Did you just insinuate that I would roll around in the hay with you?”

He nuzzled my neck and nipped at my ear. “Why yes, ma’am. I believe I did.” He laughed against my neck and pushed me onto the bales of hay in the corner of the stall.

I giggled as he was fumbling with the buttons on my shirt. “You need help with that, stud?”

Jaxon pulled away. “You know I hate it when the guys call me that, but when you do it, it really turns me on.” The sexy smirk was back. “I’ll make you think stud.” He kissed me hard.

As his tongue thrust into my mouth, I pulled my knees up so I could get him closer to me. He pressed into me and let out the sexiest moan. “God, you feel so good. I want to bury myself inside you, and never come out.”

“Then do it already. Please, Jaxon, I’m ready. I need to be with you.” I was breathing heavy and probably sounded like a crazy person.

“Not like this, Lor. Not out in the barn, literally rolling in the hay. It needs to be special.”

“How about tonight? My parents are keeping the kids. We’d have the whole house to ourselves.”

Before I got the words out of my mouth, he picked me up off of the hay and started swinging me around in circles. “Whoa, calm down stud. I’ll take that as a yes?”

He stopped spinning and sat me down. “Yes, for you the answer is always yes.”

The rest of the afternoon dragged. It seemed like the day would never end. I got home and called my mom to make sure the kids were okay. I told them to get their homework done, be good for their grandparents, have sweet dreams, and mommy would see them tomorrow.

I could do this, right? It’s just sex, Loralei. I tried to tell myself it was