Pieces of Me by Pua Ramona (small books to read txt) 📕

eyes and says, “You deserve so much more than that Sina. I hate that you’ve been through all this in the short period of time that you’ve been back, but I am so damn proud of you for being such an amazing person. I mean, fuck, I would have probably lost my shit, but you didn’t ‘cause that’s just the person you are. You always put your feelings aside to make sure the other person is okay. As much as I want to talk so much shit about that asshole, I get it Sina, I really do.” She reaches over for my hand and says, “ Just promise me that if you ever go through anything like this again, that you’ll call me first? Even if I’m at work, just call me and I will get to you as fast as I can.”

I pull her in for a hug and say, “I’m sorry for not coming to you first, I just didn’t want to be a burden to you.”

She hugs me tighter and says, “You are never a burden, you’re my sister, and I’ll always be here for you.” We sit there for a few minutes and Megan messes up our moment when she asks “Did he make you come at least?”

I punch her in the arm and say, “You’re so damn gross you know that right. I can’t believe you just asked me that.”

She laughs, “You’re blushing, that must mean he made you come more than once,” she says and does this weird waggle thing with her eyebrows at me.

“You’re sick and I can’t stand you right now.” I say as I get up from the bed, feeling my face getting warm.

She laughs a little bit longer and says “Okay, okay, I’m done. Whew, I needed that laugh after the long week I’ve had. Is he still coming today?”

I shrug and answer honestly, “I don’t know. I didn’t tell him not to come, but I’m hoping he doesn’t show up.”

Megan looks at me and says, “And if he does?”

I take a deep breath and say, “Then I’ll make sure to wear my prettiest smile and to be his friend.”

She shakes her head at me and says, “I don’t know how you do it Sis, but I love you for your patience and how you care so much.”

I smiled at her, “Are you ready?”

Sadness taints her smile as she says “Let’s make this weekend the best one, especially for Daddy.”

I grab her hand and say “You know, Daddy was and is still proud of you right? And he wanted me to let you know that he heard you talk about Colin, and that he gave you his blessings.” Colin is an amazing husband to my sister, he's lucky to have her and she is lucky to have found her person in him.

Her hands go automatically to her chest and she says “He heard me?”

I pull her in for another hug and say, “Yes Sis. Daddy heard you and he wanted me to let you know that he’s proud and he loves you.”

My sister hugs me tighter and I let her cry before we make our way downstairs. “I love you,” she whispers.

I kiss the top of her head and say, “I love you forever sister.”I held my little sister and silently pray that she believes that Daddy is proud of the woman she’s grown up to be. I feel some lightness seep into my heart, and I know I’m going to be okay.

Chapter Twenty-Five

Eli

I don’t know what being lonely feels like, until she leaves me standing there with pieces of my life falling apart. I can’t help the pain that I’m feeling. I know I have to do my part by being there for Becca, but a huge piece of me wants to go after Sina and beg her not to shut me out.

 “You’re in love with Sina aren’t you?” Becca says.

“Don’t ever say her name again” I snap, hating hearing her name on Becca's lips.

She looks at me and says, “It’s okay if you are Eli. You look at her the same way Michael still does, and I don’t blame you.”

“Becca, stop. Just stop okay” I say through gritted teeth.

She takes a deep breath and says, “I hate that I hurt her the way that I did.”

“Then why did you do it? Did she deserve it at all?” I ask because there is a part of me that always wondered why she hurt Sina by going after Michael while they were together.

She looks at me and says, “I have always been jealous of her, even when she was the only one who stood up for me when people used to talk behind my back. I wanted people to love me the way they loved her, I wanted to be respected the way she was respected. I wanted what she had.”

“But you were the popular girl Becca, you had everything back then and you still do today. Of all the guys that wanted you, why did you choose unavailable Michael out of all of them?” I ask because shit I’m fucking curious.

She doesn’t look at me this time but says, “Because I knew that she wasn’t sleeping with him, I figured he was curious about sex and I used it against him ‘cause that’s all guys think about anyways. So Michael and I ended up at the same party, we drank and I knew we slept together ‘cause we both woke up the next morning naked.”

“So you were Michaels first and Sina doesn’t know?” I say, looking at her in a whole new light.

“She thinks that we slept together after she lost her virginity to him” she cries. I can’t believe the shit I’m fucking hearing. I’m pissed and hate that they fucking did this to her. But I’m also no one to judge because I’m doing the same thing by hurting her right now myself. “I knew Michael never stopped loving