Pieces of Me by Pua Ramona (small books to read txt) 📕

to have a pity party because for what? But I did allow myself to cry one more time before I closed the door on that piece of my heart for good. When he said that Becca might be pregnant with his baby, I was ready for the ground to open up and swallow me whole. I couldn’t even get upset because I didn’t have the right, it was a waste of time, and I was done allowing all the things that hurt to control me. I knew Reese was angry, and Leila was quiet about the whole thing. But I told them that I was okay, did they believe me? Probably not and I loved them for that. All I knew was that I was already up and getting both Emma and I ready for today’s family festivities.

“Morning Mama” Emma says.

I kiss her on her forehead and say, “Morning baby girl.”

“I am so excited to meet my cousins,” she smiles at me.

I pull her in for a big hug and mumble into her hair, “I’m excited for the food” and she laughs.

“Mama, can you braid my hair the way I like it please?” she asks with a handful of hair ties.

I think about my sister and it makes me smile. “Sure Love, hand me the brush” I say as there’s a knock on the door.

“It’s me, can I come in?” Megan says from the hallway.

I laugh and as she walks in with a big smile on her face.

“Are you ready to people watch Sis? Cause I am,” she says way too excited about it.

I shake my head and say, “We are not going to watch people. Last time we did that we got in trouble because you couldn’t keep your face shut.”

She lays at the foot of the bed and says “I know, but it was funny as hell.” I roll my eyes at her sarcastically and continue to braid Emma’s hair. Just as I’m finishing up Megan looks at Emma and says “Hey Munchkin, Grandma has breakfast ready, so she said to come down so you can eat with the boys when you’re finished getting your hair done.”

Emma smiles at her and holds her arms out for a hug from her aunt as I fix the last braid into place. “You smell pretty Aunty Megan,” she says and then walks out the room closing the door behind her.

I get up to grab my glasses and I hear my sister take a deep breath “What?” I ask.

She looks at me and says, “I feel like I’ve been missing out on everything that's happening with you whilst you’re here, so I’m feeling left out,” with a pout.

I roll my eyes at her again and say, “Oh please, I’m sure you know enough.”

She sits up and gives me this ‘I don’t know what you’re talking about’ look, “What do I know Sis? I’ve been too busy to know what’s going on in your life Sina. So stop bullshitting and catch me up” she whines.

I shake my head and sit down next to her .“Fine, I’ll make it short since we’re supposed to be at the park in an hour, that means I talk and you stay quiet. Deal?” I say knowing full well Meghan will struggle like fuck to not chime in as I talk.

Megan rolls her eyes at me and says “Deal. But am I allowed to ask questions?”

“No you’re not.” I say as I fold my arms across my chest.

“Ew fine. Now tell me what the hell have you been up to since the last time I saw you?” she asks.

“You just asked a question.” I roll my eyes at her.

She huffs and puffs and says “Ugh. Okay, okay continue.”

I take a deep breath and begin. “After we left the Hut that night, we drove to the lake to watch the sunrise but it never happened, because we had sex twice and the second time he called me Becca.” Megan’s eyes get big and before she opens her mouth I put both hands out to stop her from speaking. “We got into a huge argument and I called Marino to pick me up.” Her eyes get bigger. “Reese and Leila came by the next day to check on me, and all I did was cry.” I watch my sister’s shoulder fall a little and I know she’s hurt because I didn’t reach out to her. It makes me feel bad that I kept this from her when she’s been nothing but an amazing sister to me and my best friend since we were little. I want to get it all out before I change my mind so I continue, “Then I saw Eli at Pixies and we had sex again, well it was more like goodbye sex.” My sister doesn’t say anything to that, just sits there and listens and I love her a little more for it. “I saw him the day before yesterday at the lake when I went there to read Daddy’s letter.” I feel the back of my eyes sting as I recall it. “We sat there for a couple hours, we prayed and then I left. Yesterday Reese, Lei, and I decided to go over to his place to have breakfast since we agreed to be friends. But when we got there he was in the driveway hugging Becca.”

Megan looks at me with a confused face “What?”

I take a deep breath and rush out, “She was there because she might be pregnant with Eli’s baby.” Megan looks at me with her ‘what the hell’ face, but I can’t hold the words in anymore.

“He wanted to explain himself, but I stopped him. I told him that I was done and for him to take care of himself and that all I wanted was for him to be happy with his life.” I feel my heart sting a little and I close my eyes for a few minutes.

Megan looks at me with tears in her