Pieces of Me by Pua Ramona (small books to read txt) 📕

or listen to her ‘oke’ me. Here’s the thing I’ve learned since falling in love with your mother. A woman should never have to cry unless they are happy tears. Any man that makes a woman question their relationship or her role in it, and is okay seeing her cry over something that he might think is pointless or silly doesn’t deserve her time and heart. I only say this Sina, because I remembered feeling my heart break the first time I heard your mother cry, because she thought I wanted another woman.

Every time you sat by my side the days you were sad and when you would cry with so much hurt in your heart, it broke my heart that I was too weak to get out of bed to comfort you. But Sina, I want you to know that you were heard, every single time you cried to me and for me. Every single time you cried, I prayed harder that God would help you find your way to where you needed to be. I know that you will be great in life my sweet girl, but it is your heart that worries me the most. Sina, you are me in every way and that I will forever be grateful for. I will leave this world knowing that maybe not today, but someday you will find the ONE who was made to love you in every way that is unconditional and deserving. And when he finds you, you will know he’s the one, because everything that is half full in your world will be overflowing with love and more life. He will be the one who will cut you the deepest, but will hold all your pieces together. Even on your bad days when you feel as if he’s doing everything wrong, he’ll make sure that he goes out of his way to hold you together when you don’t want him around. This is the man I pray for you to have one day when your time is right and he’s ready to be committed to you. Love him wholeheartedly with your prayers, heart and soul. And I promise you that he will move heaven and earth for you. Whoever he is, you tell him that he has my blessing, and that he is lucky to have a piece of me in his life. And if he makes you cry for all the wrong reasons, I will make sure that he doesn’t sleep for the rest of his life ;).

CONTINUE TO BE THE PROVERBS 31 WOMAN WE RAISED YOU TO BECOME AND NEVER FORGET THAT LOVE IS PATIENT. Don’t ever lose yourself in the things that will make you feel little. Love yourself enough to know your worth sweet girl. Last but not least, AUA LE GALO E MUAMUA LE ATUA I TAIMI UMA. Pray every day not just on your bad ones, don’t be like your brothers ☺. 

Love your mother, your brothers, and sister for your old man my love. And I promise you that I will ALWAYS be in your heart and will be watching over you. If you ever feel like life is going wrong, you will feel me in the air, you will find the man in the moon guiding you, and feel God in your heart.

P.s. If you ever wondered why I named you after the Moon it’s because you, Masina, kept all the dark corners of my life so bright the day you were born. You were the light I was missing and I was lucky enough to be blessed with such a beautiful little bundle of light and beauty.

Oute alofa ia te oe Masina.

I will forever be in your heart,

Daddy.

I hold the letter close to my heart and I break all over again. My heart is broken because I miss him so much, but my heart is also at ease knowing that he heard me cry when I felt like it was my Daddy that I needed and no one else. I sit there and allow myself to mourn for the man who has held my heart in both his hands and kept it safe for all his days. I cry and pray that God keeps him close by his side. I promise Daddy that I am going to do better “I love you forever Daddy” I cry. I sit there with a piece of my heart missing, and that piece is my father.

Chapter Twenty-Two

Eli

I’m not sure how long it takes me to get to the lake. I don’t pay too much attention to anything as I park my truck and grab my sweatshirt before I step out of my truck. I throw it on and make sure to throw my baseball hat on as well because it’s a little cold by the water.

As I start walking toward the rocks all I think about is the night I fell in love with Sina and how I broke her on the same exact fucking night. I close my eyes and throw my head back. I’m feeling lost and I don’t know how to fix anything right now. I’m still pissed off at my past with Chrissy, I hate that what she did is still squeezing my heart like a vice, stopping anyone else from getting in and not letting any of the hurt out. There hasn’t been anything other than easy sex since Chrissy and I don’t know if I could ever allow myself to open up to anyone else again. I’m even more tortured because I broke the heart that belongs to the girl who is probably the only person who could mend every broken piece I have and I fucked that shit up in just a few hours of being alone with her. I grab my chest and take a deep breath. I’m not sure if I’m going fucking crazy and I’m starting to see things, but as I make my way