Pieces of Me by Pua Ramona (small books to read txt) 📕

easier for me to live without him here.  When I look at you, I see a little bit of him and that is more than enough for me.” There are tears on my cheeks and my heart feels the void that losing Dad left behind. “Sina, I want you to know that I have always been proud of you and the mother you’ve become to that beautiful little girl. You may think that I don’t see you sweetie, but I do. I know since the Michael and Becca drama everyone has been treating you like glass” she says.

“Mama how do you know about Michael and Becca?” I ask her feeling humiliated all over again.

“I’m your mother Sina and I wasn’t blind to everything that was happening. Yes, I was busy with taking care of your dad, but I always paid attention” Mama says as she pulls me into a hug. I cry hard and she soothes me with her words as she rubs my back.. “Shh. It’s okay sweetie, I know it still hurts, but you will be okay. You and Michael were only meant to love each other as teenagers, not as adults. You were made to be loved unconditionally by the only man that God created just for you, and he’s out there finding his way to you.”

“Mama, why does it feel like my heart is half full?” I sob.

She hugs me tighter and says “Because you still have to find the little things that will keep your heart flowing babygirl.” I’m not sure how long Mama holds me for, but I know I must have fallen asleep because the lights are off when I open my eyes and she’s covered me with Daddy’s blanket. I lay there on the couch for a few minutes more, then I remember the envelope that she gave me earlier. I sit up and grab it off the coffee table. I don’t want to open it, but I miss Daddy so much that I just want to be close to him right now. So I go up to my room to grab my phone and a sweater because I know it’s a little cold outside and I want to be by the lake when I read his words. Emma’s spending the night with my sisters so I go to see if Mama’s still up before I leave the house. I walk down the hallway and see her folding towels on her bed. “Hey Mama” I say leaning against her door frame.

“Hey sweetie! Did you have a good nap?” She asks as she looks up from her folding.

“You let me nap and now I’m up and it's almost midnight Mama.” I chuckle at her.

“Well, I knew you were tired, so I let you sleep because we all know you needed it” she says with an indulgent smile on her face.

“Thank you Mama.”

“Are you going out?” she asks, noticing my sweater hanging on my arm.

“Yeah, I’m going to go to the lake for a little bit. Is that okay?” I ask.

“Make sure to take a blanket as well as that sweater, I’m pretty sure that it’s cold at the lake right now.” She says.

I give her a hug and kiss her cheek, “I love you Mama.”

She hugs me once more than she continues to fold her laundry. I grab daddy’s throw cover, my letter and drive to the lake.

Chapter Twenty

Eli

It’s dark when I finally leave the office. I make it to Reese’s place by eight-thirty and of course the love birds are still baking. I thought about going home, but figured I didn’t have anything better to do so I came here instead. I thought about going to the Hut for a drink, but thought I shouldn’t push my luck, especially with everything still fresh. Before I make it to the front door I see Micah walking out. He doesn’t see me until he hears me walking up the driveway. I’m not sure if he’s still pissed off at me so I keep walking toward the front door, but I feel like something needs to be said, so I turn to him as I pass by and say “I know I don’t deserve her.”

Micah stops walking and turns to look at me “Why are you telling me this?” he asks.

I shrug and say “Because like you said before, she’s your heart and I wanted you to hear it out of my own mouth that I don’t deserve your sister.” I walk over to where he’s parked and decide that I am too fucking tired to fight so I sit down on the sidewalk.

Micah walks away from his car and over to where I am sitting down and we just sit there for a few minutes until Micah asks “What happened Uce?”

I am done making excuses so I tell him the truth. “I’m not ready to be in a committed relationship. I can't give that to her.”

He looks at me and says “Aight, that I understand but what I don’t understand is why you decided to put her through all the bullshit when you knew you weren't ready? Did you push this whole thing with my sister because you wanted to make Becca jealous? I mean, fuck man, help me understand why my sister cried herself to sleep after she came home from being with you.”

Fuck I feel like a piece of shit, but it pisses me off more that he would even think I was trying to make Becca jealous. I don't know what to say so I sit there like a dumbass. I can tell Micah’s getting pissed, but I’m ready to talk about my issues out loud.

Before Micah gets up he looks at me and says “Look, I know you were invited to the family reunion this weekend and that’s cool. But I’m warning you to stay away from Sina.” I start to say something but he cuts me off. “Nah, you had your