Pieces of Me by Pua Ramona (small books to read txt) 📕

pain to ease off. “God, if you can hear me now, please don’t take my son away from me. If this is my punishment do as you will, but I am begging you to please give me a chance to love my son.” I sob, praying that someone will hear me. “Micah. Daddy. Please I’m not ready to let my baby go. If it’s his time, then I lay my life in your hands. Don’t let my baby die alone, please God.”

 I know it’s selfish of me to feel this way because I have Emma, but I’m too tired to deal with life. I curl up in a fetal position and slowly rock my body side to side, sending soothing thoughts to my baby boy. It’s okay Little One, Mama’s here and I’ve got you.

A car pulls over and I never thought I would be so grateful for hearing his voice.

“Sina. What the fuck happened? You’re bleeding.”

I can’t get myself to move, but I reach for his hand and say “Michael, the baby. I need to go to the hospital, please.”

He doesn’t question me about anything. All I remember is him carrying me to his car and the last thing I hear is “You’re going to be okay Sina. Just hold on a little bit longer.”

Then nothing.

Everything goes dark.

Chapter Forty-One

Eli

It’s been two hours since I kicked her out of my house, and it’s finally fucking hitting me hard in the chest. I grab myself a beer out of the fridge and head back to the living room and log on to my computer. I figure I’ll get some work done since my ass isn’t doing shit except for feeling sorry for myself. Not even five minutes passes and my phone starts going off. I see Becca calling, so I ignore it, but she doesn’t stop. After the fifth time it rings in as many minutes, I give up and answer it. “Not right fucking now Becca” I snarl.

She cuts me off and says “No! Right the fuck now you piece of shit” What the fuck? “I don’t know what the fuck happened after you took Sina with you, but you better bring your sorry ass to the damn hospital right the fuck now” she yells down the phone.

I hear the word hospital and all the air leaves my lungs in a rush. I close my eyes and ask, “What happened?”

“You tell me. All I was told was Michael found her on the side of the fucking road in the rain fucking bleeding out.” she screams. “You better fucking pray that nothing fucking happens to her or the baby.” I don’t say anything because I’m already halfway out the door. What the fuck did I do? I don’t care if I’m going past the speed limit, all I know was that I need to be where she is. I need to tell her how sorry I am, and that I didn’t mean everything that I said to her. I need her to know that I’m still so fucking in love with her, and that my jealousy had gotten the best of me in the heat of the moment. I know that’s a shitty excuse, but I need to be with her.

It takes me fifteen minutes to get to the hospital. I don’t care if they tow my truck or give me a ticket, I park right outside of the emergency drop off and abandon my truck and run inside to find her.

“Excuse me, Sir, you can’t park there. You’ll need to move it or we’ll be forced to'' one of the security guards says. I don’t give a shit at this point what they do with my truck. I just need to see her and make sure that she knows that I am madly in love with her. I don’t give a shit if she and Marino are having a baby, it doesn’t change the way I feel about her. I’ll love the baby as if it were mine. I need her to be in my life and I’ll do everything I can to make sure she knows how fucking sorry I am. I don’t deserve her, but I’m a selfish motherfucker and I want to be the one to love her the right way. I want to be the one who fills her belly with more fucking babies. I want to be the only one she sees; I want to be the one she trusts with her life. I want to be the one that completes her life. I want her to choose me to pray with her, I want her to be the foundation that we can build on. I need her to want these things with no one else, just me. I need her to be mine forever. I just hope that she doesn’t hate me after the way I treated her, although she has every right to and I wouldn't blame her for it.

I know where the waiting room is so I turn left and run down the hall. The closer I get the more nervous I feel. The first person I see when I make it to the waiting area is Megan. I feel the hole in my heart get bigger and I can’t get myself to breathe. I feel eyes on me and I have never felt so fucking small in all my life. Luka and Daniel don’t give two shits that I’m here. They act like I don't exist. Reese, Leila, Marino and Mona are sitting with Miss Rita and Mama. Becca is sitting between June-Bug and Michael. I can’t even hate the guy for being here, I don’t have the fucking right. I don’t have to ask him to know that he is still in love with Sina because his tears are proof of that. What almost knocks me on my ass is the blood that’s all over his shirt. My stomach drops and I feel