Pieces of Me by Pua Ramona (small books to read txt) 📕

like I’m going to throw up. I know I’ve fucked up when my own mother won’t look at me. Sina is here because of me and I have no one to blame but myself. My resolve shatters when I see Emma quietly crying next to Megan. I did this to this family. Not only did they just lose Micah today but now their sister is here fighting for hers and her unborn child’s life, because of me.

I don't know how long we’ve been waiting, but it feels like it’s been days. No one says anything and the room is pretty much silent as we wait to see if anyone is going to come out and update us. At least let her family know how she’s doing. I’m too busy wallowing in my own self pity so I don’t see one of the nurses walk into the room until everyone shifts their focus towards the door. It’s so quiet that you can hear a fucking pin drop as everyone looks at the nurse expectantly I do not envy her task, the tension is so thick that just being in the room is fucking awkward. But I’m not going to leave until I know Sina and her baby are going to be okay. I definitely don’t plan on leaving until I’ve seen her and held her in my arms. “Are you the family of Masina Peterson?” she asks.

Everyone stands as one and moves closer to where she is standing. Miss Rita takes a few steps further forward and says “I’m her mother. Could you please tell me how my baby’s doing?” My throat starts closing up and I make sure to hold myself together because this family doesn’t need me to lose my shit now. This is about Sina and the baby, not me.

“Hi Mrs. Peterson. I’m Annie, one of the nurses who’s helping with your daughter” she says. She smiles at Miss Rita and I know it’s fucking bad. I’m sure everyone knows, but needs the nurse to confirm it. “Sina’s lost a lot of blood and the doctors are trying to stop the bleeding. I’ll be back with more information for you, I just wanted to make sure that you didn’t think we’d forgotten about you'' Before the nurse leaves the room she smiles sadly and says “I’m sorry for your loss Mrs. Peterson. Micah was an amazing guy. My heart goes out to you and your family.” Annie walks out of the room and all that can be heard are the cries from each corner of the room.

“I don’t want Mommy to die Auntie Megan” Emma cries. Megan wraps her arms around her and carries her away from everyone. Lei, Mona, Becca and June-Bug are quietly crying next to where Luka and Daniel are standing. The guys don’t show any emotions, but I know they’re pissed off. Mama grabs Miss Rita’s hand and pulls her in for a hug. I look over to see what Michael is doing, but he isn’t sitting in his spot anymore. The next thing I know there’s a fist in my fucking face.

“You fucking made her walk in the rain? You piece of shit asshole.” Before I can defend myself I feel another blow on the other side of my face. Blood pools on my lip and I know it’s busted. “You out of all people don’t fucking deserve someone like her. You don’t even respect her, you motherfucker.” Another blow lands on my jaw. I throw my first punch and it hits the fucking asshole in his mouth. I swing again and clock his fucking nose. Blood gushes from it, covering his shirt, but I didn’t give a fuck. I throw my hands once more and connect two punches simultaneously. Before I can follow through with another, someone drags me away while Daniel holds Michael back by his hood. I fucking hate this motherfucker. All I want to do is beat his ass until he’s in a fucking coma. Everything he said was the fucking truth, and it pisses me off because he’s the first one to call me out on my bullshit. And I hate him for it.

“Stop man”Luka says. I push him off and if looks could kill my ass would be fucking dead already. “I’m trying my hardest not to put my fist through your fucking chest right now E, but you’re fucking asking for it” he snaps.

Before I can say anything else Marino walks over to us and stops right in front of me. He glares at me and says “You don’t fucking deserve to have her in your life, and you sure as hell don’t fucking deserve that little boy she’s carrying.”

I choke on air and stutter, “What?”

Marino leans in and gives me the most hateful look as he snarls “Yeah you heard me. She’s carrying your son, you selfish piece of shit.”

I know that everyone is as shocked as I am when the room falls silent. Marino pushes Daniel out of the way and walks out of the waiting area. I can’t even look anyone in the eye at this point. I can’t breathe. A part of me fucking hates myself because it’s my fault that the family I prayed for are now fighting for their lives.

Chapter Forty-Two

Sina

I hear voices, but there’s nothing I can do. I try to move, but I can’t. “She’s losing too much blood.” I try to scream, but it falls on deaf ears. The darkness pulls me back under and I feel nothing but coldness. The voices are fading away and no one can hear my cries. Am I dying? I’m not sure anymore because I can’t tell the difference between what’s real and what isn’t. I embrace the darkness that surrounds me and sink myself into it.

I try opening my eyes, but the lights are so bright that I have to close them again. I don’t know where I am and I