You Did This To Me by MEWagler (positive books to read txt) 📕

the distance and being the coward that I felt like at the moment I ducked my head and stared at my feet as I approached them.

“WHERE THE HELL IS SHE CHRIS?!!!” Charlie has seemed to lost all control and her faced contorted to a menacing anger while she screamed at me.

“WHY DID YOU NOT AWNSER YOUR FREAKING PHONE EITHER!? DO YOU KNOW HOW DAM WORRIED I WAS?! I AM?!” Her face was only a few inches from mine as she continued to curse and swear and freak out at me. Finally James places his silent hand onto her shoulder and she immediately shut up.

“Are you crying man?” James looked very worried as he inspected my face.

“No!” I sighed and whipped my arm across my face.

“Yes..” James gave me slight smile and nod like he already knew.

“Did you find her?” I glanced at James to see curiosity forming.

“Yes.” I looked back to the ground and watched my tears slowly drip one by one to the hard cold cement.

“WHY THE HELL DIDN’T YOU DRAG HER SORRY BUTT HOME?!” Apparently Charlie was done with being silent.

I glanced up at her. Tears still silently pouring down my face.

“Because I love her Charlie. I love her.”

Andy’s POV

I woke up to a sudden cold encasing my body. The shiver was long and hard and seemed to hit nowhere but my heart. I pulled the jacket tighter around my body and snuggled in to the reassuring smell.

Jacket? I don’t remember having this jacket. I didn’t think I stole this one of Chris’. I thought he was wearing it when he left?

That’s it, Im officially going crazy. Its time to keep going before I completely loose it. I stretched as good as I could in the car and started driving down the road.

Something bright kept catching my eye. Every now and then It would shine right into my eyes like a little disco ball. It would flash into my eye than gone, than flash again but be gone just a quickly.

I really am going crazy.

Hair fell into my face causing my nose to become itchy. My face fell into complete shock as I slammed on the brakes. Honks from other cars blared in my ears as I stared at the ring.

Oh Gosh, oh gosh, oh gosh! Oh freaking jitter bugs! A freaking ring!

I left my car parked in the middle of the freeway with cars still blaring there horns at me while I took off the ring to inspect it closely. It was large, VERY large. It was cut like a square with two bands of mini diamonds down them, most importantly though it was the most beautiful ring I have ever seen.

I twirled it in my fingers and caught sight of something on the insides.

An inscription lay neatly written on the inside band.

“I will always Love, Adore, and Protect you ~ Chris”

The tears came now, harder than they had ever come before. My heart wrenched in pain, the pain I caused him and was causing myself. I put the ring beside me so I could drive, I needed to drive and clear my head.

Glancing at the ring I had to put it back on. Something o perfect and beautiful could not be sitting on a car chair. The weight of it felt perfect on my finger, but with each mile I drove away from Chris, it just got heavier.

Wiping the tears away I did a U-turn and started rushing home. I had to make this right, I had to say sorry.

Once I got to the apartment all my confidence was gone and I just kept driving around and around trying to get my nerve up to go in and trying o figure out what to say…

Chris’ POV

I sat in her bedroom staring out into the street. I had to get these tears under control. I was Chris, strong confident, manly Chris. I didn’t cry. Right now though it seemed like I couldn’t stop, and on top of that I was having hallucinations.

I kept seeing Andy’s car drive around and around our apartment block. Gone. Here. Gone. Here. It was just going in circles.

I sighed deeply and started to feel the pain slowly subside as I looked closely at the car. Andy’s beautiful looked up at our apartment and went around the clock again.

Andy’s face!! That beautiful wonderful face!! I wanted to run and grab her, kiss her, love her!

I needed her so badly. My whole body was aching just a the sight of her. The tears were fresh but this time they were happy ones. I watched her car drive in circles for what felt like hours. A small smile had appeared on my face as I went to the kitchen to make her dinner.


Andy’s POV

Sick of being a coward I finally parked the car and stormed into the building. My palms were sweating while I stood in the elevator . When I slammed the door open to our apartment and stormed in I could see Chris sitting at our kitchen table with a very elegant dinner in front of him. When I say elegant I mean Cheeseburgers and fries with carrots and dip, my favourite.

I stared at Chris, tears brimming my eyes and threatening to spill. He stared back, that crazy lovable man just stared back at me. Neither of us moved for only God knows how long.

When he slowly got up and started walking towards me I started to shake. What was I going to say? What was those words I had practiced? I forgot, I forgot everything except that handsome man slowly walking over to me.

Chris stopped in front of my swollen body, the tears were now pouring down my face. His hand slowly cam up to cup my cheek. My face pushed slightly into his comforting hand while he swiped away the tears with his thumb. I started whimpering and pushed my faced further into his hand.

His eyes smouldered down on me, his face seemingly getting closer to mine. I felt slightly dizzy as I tipped my face out to his. I wanted this. I needed him.

I felt my lips contact with him. It was soft, careful, caring. Like he was scared to break me, like he was scared I wasn’t really there. He was so gentle. So loving. I would never deserve Chris.

I sighed and smiled slightly into his lips. He did the same than pulled back.

“I love you Andy.”

“I-I Love. I, um I uh,” I sighed and looked up from my lashed that hid my eyes. The tears tumbled down my cheeks and swirled at my jaw.

“Im so sorry Chris! I missed you! Im so stupid! Im so so sorry! I love you so much! I am so sorry! Please forgive me Chris?1 Please?!” He not might not ever love me as much as I did him, but that was okay because I needed him now. One day he would forget about me but until than I had him now.

The sobs wracked through my whole body making my shake almost violently. I looked up at Chris to see him smiling from ear to ear.

“What?” I sniffed quietly

“You Love Me!!!” His face lit up and he wrapped his arms around my body and swung me around the room with him.

“You love me, you love me, you love me!!!” I giggled as he stopped and stared down at me with those stormy eyes.

“Yes, Chris. I love you.”

Andy's POV

(This part is not edited yet-sorry)

Days passed, weeks grew old and left us and eventually even the months were whizzing by. Before I knew any better I was a week before our due date.

I was terrifyed and I think Chris could tell.

I sighed and hopped out of my bed. I was still not letting Chris sleep with me even though I constantly longed for his warm and tender touch.

I peeked in Chris' room to see him sleeping on his bed on top of the blankets with only his bottoms on.
His chest rose and fell according to his breaths and I couldnt help but to stare. He was so handsome, and for now he picked me.

I clenched my fist. I needed to take advantage of having Chris before I had the babies and he decided he didnt want me anymore.

He said he loved me but Ideffiantly knew better. He would love me maybe until some more responsibility would come than he would be gone.

Anyways who would want to take care of babies that werent his. Babies that werent even concieved out of love. Babies that were forced into this world. Babies that I would love unconditionally. Babies he could never love.

I slid back into my room and quickly brushed my hair and my teeth. I slipped off all of my cloths and snuck back into Chris' room. I would love him and let him think he loved me as long as I could. I would always love Chris, even if he didnt really mean it when he said he loved me...

Slowly I slid into his bed and rested my head on his chest. Automatically he rotated and slid his arms around my naked body and pulled me in closer to him. I sighed contently and held my breath as i suddenly felt Chris stiffen.

"Andy. What-What are you doing?" His voice shook with a certian intensity that made me want him more.

"I am surrendering Chris." I smiled up at his face as I watched his eyes slowly rack over my body and as I felt his harden against me.

"W-Why?" His eyes locked to mine and wouldnt move. Why? Why was too complicated to explain. It wasnt worth trying to keep myself pure anymore because I had been used in the worst possible way and now here was a man I felt myself falling for and I didnt have my morals anymore to stop me for what I was now attempting to do. If I told him that though I doubt he would let me continue.

"Because I owe you Chris. You saved my life." His eyes hardened as those words left my mouth and I could tell he was very angry. His body tore away from mine and he jumped out of bed. He paced the floor beside the window and raked his hands through his shaggy dark hair.

"No. No and No again! I refuse. Do you eveen know what your doing to me Andy? Just you laying there is making me go bezerk! I dont want you like this because you 'owe me'. I want you here because you love me, because your my fiance and want to spend the rest of your life with me. I absolutely refuse!" I could feel the pain and anger inside of me. He didnt want me. I was totally wrong about everything. He would never want me. I let a few stray tears slip down my face and fall to his bed sheet.

"Please Chris." I whimpered slightly.

"No." His voice was firm and set and