You Did This To Me by MEWagler (positive books to read txt) 📕

and watched her face contort into different expressions as she went on.

“I said No!” Soft whimpering and thrashing of her head.

“Please Mike, Not again.” I wanted to badly to kiss those lips that were quivering, but I knew it was better to let her wake herself than for me to. Last time I got punched in the gut and it hadn’t felt so nice.

“No. No. NO! I said I wont love you!” The tears started to escape her eyelids again and I wiped away a stray tear with my finger. Her hand went up to her face and caught my hand as she kept babbling. I looked at her with my eyes wide. She was gripping my hand, leaning into it. Did I feel safe to her? Was she finally letting me into her life?

“Mike I will never love you!” Her mumbles were almost screams.

“No. Please don’t hurt Chris!” Chris? Me? I watched her face changed from paint to sheer horror.

“NO! I LOVE HIM!” This time she screamed it and bolted straight up into a sitting position. Shocked beyond belief I slowly sat up beside her. Was she talking to me?

“You alright Andy? This one seemed worse than the others..” She started bawling and crumpled over onto her pregnant belly.

“Usually.. Usually its only memories.” Another sob.

“Th-this one, this one was something more horrible!” She broke down again and I slowly wrapped myself around her body, always scared that she will reject me. To my surprise and delight she pushed her body into me and gripped at my bare shoulders. It felt as if she was clinging to me for dear life.

“What happened baby girl?” She sobbed and shook her head no. Sighing I nodded.

“It’s okay, you don’t have to tell me.” She gripped me tighter, and I just couldn’t handle or control my body anymore.

My lips found the nape of her neck and I slowly started to plant soft yet urgent kisses onto her soft skin. She crying eventually lessened and her body softened into mine. I took this as a good sign and leaned her onto her back with myself leaning over top of her.

Her eyes shone with an intensity that scared the crap out of me and her lips were set into a line with the corners slightly bent up. If I hadn’t been looking for any good signs I would have never seen the tiny smile displayed on her lips.

I slowly brought my lips back to her neck and explored down to her collar bone than back up to her ear lobe again. I could hear her breathing quicken but not once did she try and stop me. Did she love me? Was she talking about me?

Andy’s lips parted slightly and I heard a low moan escape her lips. This only cause me to become aroused even further and I brought my hand to her waist and my kisses became more urgent. Andy’s body stiffened and immediately I stopped and looked into her eyes. All at once they changed from ones of love to filled with hatred.

Andy’s POV

He was kissing me. My body could not control its self and I soon fell into his awaiting arms. Slowly he laid me down and searched my face for anything that would tell him no. I gave none. I wanted his soften tender comfort. All of a sudden though he became urgent and memories of Mike washed through my brain. My body stiffened and anger coursed through my veins. He was just like Mike, another male using me to get what he wants. Maybe I made a mistake when I said yes. Chris was starting to know me too well and my weakness were beginning to become apparent. The wedding was two weeks away. I still had time to back out.

Chris face popped into view His eyes were searching mine frantically and I hardened them,

“Are you happy with yourself?!” I snapped. He looked dejected and hurt. All I wanted to do was say sorry, but I couldn’t. He couldn’t control me.

Chris sighed and I swore I could see his eyes glaze over with pain. I really hate myself sometimes.

Chris’ POV

After a few moments of looking into her hardened face I sighed. I was done for tonight. I couldn’t always do this. It was exhausting. The woman I loved could not trust me. I would try though every single day like the day before. I leaned forward and kisses her on the forehead.

“Good Night Andy, I love you.” I left. When I was just outside the room I paused and heard her whisper something I have been waiting to hear for a long time.

“I love you too, even though I try so hard not to.” I smiled, I hope one day I’d be able to hear that to my face, for now though I knew I was doing the right thing.

Since the night Mike stabbed me, no one had heard from him since. James and I had gone to the police and explained everything without the girls knowing. They couldn’t know. Charlie would be fidgeting all the time so Andy would know something was wrong, and if Andy knew Mike wanted her again I was afraid that it would effect her health and that of our babies.

For now I believe that not telling her is the best. I know if she finds out Im screwed and possibly everything I have done to gain her trust would crash down around my ears, but it was worth it to keep her safe. Not that she wasn’t safe, the police were looking for Mike because of what he did to me,. Once they catch him he should be locked up for a very long time.

I laid myself in my bed and listened to Andy’s soft whimpering. I knew I was doing the right thing, her knowing would ruin her.

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I was standing looking at two rings. Andy needed the best. I just didn’t know what to get. I paced around the room waiting for Charlie to come. I needed expertise. It was down to two rings. One was a simple 8 carat ring cut into the shape of a rectangle. The other was my favourite though. It was a padded 6 carat squared cut, with two diamond encrusted bands. I just didn’t know if Andy would like simple or not. Charlie came in and looked at the two rings sitting besides each other on the velvet stand .

“This one!” Her finger was pointed at my favourite.

“You don’t think its too much?” I was a little hesitant, I wanted this to be perfect.

“ARE YOU KIDDING ME! It’s beautiful Chris.” That settled it. I was proposing tonight. Officially that is.

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Andy’s POV

“Andy this is not a freaking question!” Charlie was marching around my room going through my cloths and telling me what to do. Where was a baseball bat when you needed one.

“Im not going out. I look like a whale and I feel like one too!!” I was whining, but I had my reasons. I did not want to leave this apartment. Essentially I was scared I guess.

“Listen smart ass. I know you hate me at the moment, but I don’t crap a rats bum about it!” I stifled a laugh.

“Char…” Interrupted again.

“No Don’t you play those big eyes on me young lady! You are going out if it’s the last thing I do!” I sighed, When Charlie’s like this there is nothing you can do.

“Okay… What have you picked me out to wear?”

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Charlie had finally gone and this was the only chance I would get for a long time. I grabbed my purse and my large overnight bag that was stuffed to its limits. I threw the note on my bed and ran to my car with tears streaming down my cheeks. I had to do this.

Chris’ POV

Char said she had gotten Andy all ready and that she left the apartment to ’get something she forgot at her house and she would be back in an hour or so.’ I was supposed to show up in forty-five minutes. Enough time to let Andy settle from Charlie’s antics. Half an hour latter I couldn’t wait any longer. When I drove up to our apartment with two dozen roses in hand Andy’s car was no where to be seen. I panicked and had to make myself calm down. She probably went to go get groceries or something Ill just surprise her when I got home.

Our apartment seemed so lonely when I walked in, like something wasn’t right. I walked all around the kitchen, living room, bathroom, my room, nothing was out of place. I finally walked into her room. It smelled sweet, like lilies and brown sugar. I inhaled deeply with my eyes closed. When I opened them I noticed an envelope on her bed with my name inscrolled onto it. That was nice of her to leave me a note. I smile to myself giddy that she had become so thoughtful.

My face dropped however when I read the first line.

‘Chris,

I have to leave. I Hope you understand. Please say good by to Char for me. Tell her she is the only family I have ever had and that I love her dearly. Tell her to keep James. He is a keeper for sure. I have to go though.

When you think of me and remember, it means I must have made an impression on you. It means that hopefully you will never forget me. If you need me just think of me and Im sure you will see my face. I will miss you dearly Chris. Please remember me. I hope one day maybe we could meet again. If I get up my strength maybe I’ll come home.

I've learned that people will forget what you said, people will forget what you did, but people will never forget how you made them feel.Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take, but by the moments that take our breath away. Chris you took my breath away every day I was with you, and that’s why Im leaving. I can’t give back to you what you have given me. I want to, but I can’t. I can’t let myself trust again. I’m sorry Chris.

I love you.

Andy.’

Over and over I read her letter. My own tears staining the page along with the ones she had seemingly dropped while she had written it. I gripped the ring in one hand and her letter in the other. She loved me. She loved me and she left.

Why didn’t she try! Why did she have to be such a coward! My tears stopped at I threw the giant crystal vase that contained her roses into the wall. I watched at the tiny shards and rose petals combines as everything mingled in together into a blur. I whipped my eyes from the tears that were forming again. This time how ever they were angry tears. I would find her. I would, and this time I would make her stay!

The letter gripped in my hand caught my attention again and I softened. A sigh escaped my lips. I couldn’t make her.