You Did This To Me by MEWagler (positive books to read txt) 📕

The tears kept coming and I could barely see the road ahead of me. The blackened skies screamed at me to turn around, to say sorry. I wished I had told him I loved him once to his face. I wish I could tell him just how hard this was for me.

He needed a life though. I couldn’t control him like I was. He needed to be able to find a girl who would love and care for him. I know he would. He is a great guy and any girl would be lucky to have his love. I was just standing in the way.

The twins started kicking me as if they were in protest too, or maybe they felt my inner turmoil. I pulled my little car over onto the shoulder of the road and placed my hands onto my swollen belly.

“Its okay my love. This is for the best.” The tears streamed down my face.

“I know it is…” I pulled into a motel and crawled into the dirty little bed. My heart ached and screamed for Chris to hold me. I wanted to feel his warmth so badly.

After not sleeping for two hours I got up and dug through my little bag until I found one of his many shirt that I had stolen. Slipping it over my shoulders I hugged my babies tightly and fell asleep to the smell of Chris.

The night mares came, but this time I had to comfort.

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Chris’ POV

I sat on her bed for hours staring at the broken shards of crystal mixed with the now wilted rose petals. Her crumpled letter was gripped in one hand and her ring was in my other.

How could she just leave me? I have tried so hard! I paced the room, I screamed, I cried, I sat silently. I would search for her, and I would make her come back to me. I would force her to love me, I would… I cant. I won’t be like all the other men in her life.

I will find her though, I will propose. I will love her and let her learn to love me. I will give her the choice, but I will find her.

I have to find her, I miss her already.

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Andy’s POV

Every part of my body aches from the constant nightmares which tossed and turned my body. I don’t want to move but the little peaks of sun rays that are squeezing through my hotel rooms curtains are telling me to move. If I don’t move and go now, Ill go back and I am not a coward, I can do this.

I got into the car slowly. Chris’ shirt still clung to my body. I couldn’t handle this silence. I couldn’t stand letting myself think. The radio was my only companion that seemed to turn against me. The song called to me. Told me to turn around. Told me to trust Chris. I needed him. The song was trying to force me to turn around. I pulled off onto the shoulder of the road and sat there with the tears streaming down my face as I listened to this song.


Well I'll always be there for you
When you need someone well I'll be that one
Well I'll do all my best to protect you
When the tears get me all right
Well I'll be the one that's by your side


“Well I'll be there
when you call me in the middle of the night
I will keep the rain from falling down into your eyes
I promise, I promise
I promise
I promise I will


When you're sick I'll take care of you
Take your darkest night and make it bright for you
Well I'll be there to make you strong
And to lean on
When this world has turned so cold
Well I'll be the one that's there to hold


Well I'll be there
when you call me in the middle of the night
I will keep the rain from falling down into your eyes
I promise, I promise
I promise
I promise I will

Well I'll be there
when you call me in the middle of the night
I will keep the rain from falling down into your eyes
I promise, I promise
I promise
I promise I will


And I'll love you more everyday
And nothing will take that love away
When you need someone
I promise I'll be there for you
There for you


Well I'll be there
when you call me in the middle of the night
I will keep the rain from falling down into your eyes
I promise, I promise
I promise
I promise I will


I promise
I promise
When you call me
I promise
I promise I will’

The painful sobs escaped my lips and my puffy eyes closed for a silent rest. I couldn’t drive on like this. I needed a break. I would get off the island by tomorrow, but for now I’ll sleep and dream hopefully of pleasant things.

“I need you Chris…” I hear myself whisper just before the darkness consumed me.


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Chris’ POV

I couldn’t just sit here anymore. The pain was excruciating. I could smell her everywhere in this room and that alone was making me want to cry. I couldn’t cry. Not right now at least.

I grabbed my cell and tried calling her. No one picked up. I hadn’t expected anything more than that. I texted James. I should inform him and Charlie.

‘James. Andy went a-wall. Ran off. Tell you detail latter. -C’

Five minutes latter the calls started coming from Charlie. It rang over and over for half an hour before she stopped calling. I couldn’t handle talking to her right now.

I walk out of our apartment and down to my car. I needed to drive, cool my head off. Let myself just think. I didn’t care where I was going or how long I drove for. I just needed the break.

The sun was risen fully now and I had been driving for hours. It must have been around two but I didn’t care. Charlie had called me over seventy times and the calls were still coming in. I pulled off the small side street I was on and onto the main highway when I saw Andy’s Car off to the shoulder. I have never been so happy in my live. I felt as if my heart was bursting!

I pulled behind Andy’s car and ran to her window quickly, I didn’t want her to drive away before I said anything.

Peering in the window I saw the woman I loved curled tightly in a ball shivering. I broke and the tears silently slipped down my face. She was wearing my shirt.

I noticed the car was open so I slipped into the passengers side. Slowly and quietly I slipped her sleeping body in to a more covetable position and wrapped my arms around her frozen body. I wanted to wake her so badly, tell her I love her. Kiss her, explore her. Anything. I wanted to be with her and my babies. My babies, they would always be mine. I wanted so badly to be their father. So badly to have Andy love me openly.

I sighed and kissed Andy’s temple while stroking her hair. Would she ever love me like I loved her?

Andy’s POV

The warmth that surrounded me so quickly and suddenly felt so safe and reassuring. My babies stopped terrorising my stomach and calmed themselves down and my horrible dreams stopped.

There was no more worrying, no more pain. Everything felt perfect. My mind started questioning this sudden comfort and warmth but stopped. It felt good, so why question it.

I sighed and snuggled closer to me sudden source of warmth and comfort. Moments latter the darkness had consumed me yet again, but this time it was peaceful.

Chris’ POV

I watched her face change from one of pain and horror to a peaceful content one. She snuggled closer to me and sighed softly. She was so beautiful. I let the tears silently fall as I unravelled myself from her.

I slipped off my jacket and covered her beautifully swollen belly with it. There was only a few more months and those babies would be here. Hopefully I would be here for that. I kissed Andy’s forehead and went to leave the car.

On a after thought how ever I took the ring that I had got for her and slid it onto her left hand. The fit was perfect and to see that ring there made me heart swell a million sizes.

I needed her. I could never force her to come back to me. I would never forced her to be with me or love me, but I would let her know how much I love her and how much she means to me. I would do anything and everything in my power to make her safe.

Even if she didn’t come with me I would make her safe. I would make sure Mike never got near her and her babies… Our babies! I would keep her safe even if he didn’t know I was doing it.

I love her and I will continue to protect my family. I unclenched my fist and kissed her softly on her forehead again. I left silently and locked the car behind me.

“I love you Andy.” I whispered as the tears silently slid down my face and I drove home.

“I always will.”


-Part -9-

Chris’ POV

The car ride home was the most excruciating thing I have ever done. I felt as if my heart was being ripped out over and over again with every mile I left between us. I needed Andy so badly and yet I left her to make her own decisions. I didn’t want to, hell I wanted to pick her up and drag her all the way home.

Silent tears dragged down my face. I wanted to go back to her so badly. I had to stay strong I had to let her come to me on her own accord.

My lungs burned as I thought of a life without her. I needed Andy like my body needed air.

It took me only twenty minutes to get home. I apparently I hadn’t gone far in the first place, or maybe I was just driving to dam fast and couldn’t tell through the tears sliding down my cheeks. Whether I was going too fast or I was closer than thought I had no idea, I was just happy to be home where her sweet scent lingered.

By the time I stepped out of my car I noticed Charlie and James standing at my apartment building doorway. Charlie was sending me a death glare across