My IMperfect Love Life by Neha Dua (audio ebook reader txt) 📕

clothes, yet no clothes for such kind of a perfect evening. “Aagghh…. I need to go shopping”, I was upset with my collection for the first time since last year. I threw all my clothes out of the cupboard because I was pissed off with the dresses, when I saw my favorite blue dotted sundress. I remembered that very moment from our trip when he first saw me in that dress and complimented me. I could recall his every word “You look beautiful” and he teased me by saying, “I know I am also looking handsome, that is why you still can’t take your eyes off me”.

 

With this special memory, I fell asleep on my bed with everything around me still unmanaged and with an unsorted wardrobe.

Chapter 25

It was Sunday evening, finally the day when I will again be meeting the love of my dreams, my life. I went to take a shower. I turned on the shower and started to loathe shampoo on my hair and soap on my body. Thinking about him even right now gave me goose bumps. I bathed under the shower with water flowing down the drain. I used one towel to dry my hair and another one to cover my body. I walked out of the bathroom and went near my dressing table. I used the dryer to dry my hair first, keeping aside the curling machine on to get heated. After 10 minutes, I started to curl my hair from the tips. I have thick hair, so it took around 30 minutes to make perfect curls. 

 

When I was done with my hair, I applied eyeliner, mascara, and lip gloss matching my dress for the evening. With this much of the makeup, I walked near my bed to pick up the dress and started to change. This dress I have never worn for the last 1.5 years, since the day Steve and I came back from our trip, but still, the dress fitted me perfectly like always. I picked up my white heels matching the dotted pattern on my dress.

 

I was doing the last touch-ups for the evening when the doorbell rang. He was late as usual and reached my place at 6 PM. I rushed towards the door and opened it. There he was, my man, standing right in front of me, all dressed up in his favorite blue shirt with casual jeans and black shoes matching his look for the day. He saw me and was speechless at that moment, but got into his senses back very quickly. He was smiling continuously looking at me, and said:“You still look the same Natalie, all gorgeous and stunning as always”. I blushingly pushed him away and grabbed my door keys and purse and locked the door.

 

We went to the nearby coffee shop. It was just a block away from my place so we decided to walk. When we reached the coffee shop, he ordered an espresso and a latte as our order. We both started to talk about our professional and personal lives. We both felt comfortable talking to each other even after so long. It was 8 PM when we decided to have dinner together. We went to an Indian Restaurant and ate our favorite Indian food of all time. We still haven’t forgotten about each other’s tastes in food. 

 

After the dinner, we walked out of the restaurant. An awkward silence followed, each of us unsure of what to say. Finally, he said “I will be leaving by Monday evening, it was nice meeting you again and reliving our old memories. These will always remain in my heart”. We said our goodbyes with a heavy heart and walked into opposite directions. 

Chapter 26

I was hurt but couldn’t say anything to him. Tears filled my eyes, but I couldn’t cry as it will make me weak again in front of him. I couldn’t let him go away from me again, but I was bound to control my feelings. I couldn’t let myself get hurt again hoping that he would accept his love feelings for me and will come back to me forever. I couldn’t take that chance and gained the confidence to keep walking away from him.

 

I continued walking in the opposite direction when I heard him call my name “Ahmm…. Hey, Natalie”. “Yeah!”, I said with a huge smile on my face and bigger than that in my heart, I turned around to face him. Steve seemed to have something in his mind, his eyes unfocused, his hands in his pockets, and his lips pursed in thought.

 

“Say it,” I said softly, reaching towards him. I couldn’t hold my breath when he suddenly grabbed my hand and his eyes focused only on me, an irresistible smile and force that always melts me while I am near to Steve.

 

“I don’t know if I should”, he murmured, still holding my hands but now with some more firmness. I could see in his eyes that he also missed me a lot in this last year when I was away from him, but I wanted him to say those words looking into my eyes and feeling them.

 

“What is it, Steve?”, I asked, with concern in my eyes. I cupped his cheeks into my hands and looked into his eyes. I could feel, how hurt he was. He looked up finally meeting my eyes. “Natalie, I know this may sound strange now, but I didn’t leave you stranded. It was for your safety that I backed off. I was afraid that… because of my situation, my family responsibilities, and my career obsession, I might behave with you in a more aggressive way than ever and that would hurt you more. I wanted you to hate me so that you could live your life happily, and I could feel happy seeing you living your dreams and life which I couldn’t give you because of my issues”.

We both had tears in our eyes at that moment. I calmed him down, as we were both near roadside. It was very late so I took him to my place. I held his hands till we reached home and unlocked the door. I softly made him sit on the couch and brought a glass of water for him to make him calm. He didn’t let go of my hands while sitting in front of me and put his head on my lap. He was very upset with what had happened in the past between us. He kept on saying “Natalie, I know I did wrong to you, I misbehaved with you many times and still, you never left. But when it was my chance to stand for you, for us and our relationship, I failed you. I walked out on you every time”. He kept on talking while sobbing that “If he could undo what he has done, he would be glad and more than happy to be with me again”. His last words made my evening and removed all my sadness. I was again filled with joy.

Chapter 27

After a few more seconds, I couldn’t take it anymore. I crossed over to him, wrapping my arms around him, leaning against him comfortingly. He seemed to welcome my sudden embrace, holding me likewise, suspending us in time. We were one with each other, our feelings mutual, nothing holding us apart.

 

It was late night so I told Steve to stay at my place for tonight. I live in a 1BHK apartment so he offered to stay in the living room on the couch. I changed my clothes and put on my favorite pajamas and a loose shirt. I handed Steve a pillow and a bed cover to make his night more comfortable. I started to walk away from him towards my room, as he took off his shirt and jeans to relax his body for a good night's sleep when he held my hand into his and pulled me towards him. We were looking into each other’s eyes and remembered the old times' stories and memories. 

 

We were laughing at our own stories from the past and the things we did together on our trips. While laughing out loud, we came so close to each other. There was very little space in between our lips. We could feel each other’s fast breathing. He approached a little more to close that little space also between us and pecked a kiss on my lips. It was a gentle kiss at the start since it was an awkward moment for both of us suddenly, but then, a voice came into my head and I couldn’t control my feelings once again for him. We both started kissing desperately and passionately, with no mood to leave each other.

 

He started to go down to my chin, jaws, and collar bone. We got lost into the trails of our past relationship that we used to share. We broke the kiss to pull off our clothes and threw them on the floor. Now we both were naked, looking into the eyes under the moonlight that strikes into my bedroom from the window. His smile was the same, a naughty and a happy smile. I couldn’t take my eyes off his face, his body. We began kissing again, him on top of me. I had a thought in my mind, “I could let myself be drawn to him all over again. I could never think of any other guy except him. I can’t live without him anymore. I want him only. I want him to be with me forever. I want him to feel the love and passion with me only.”

 

He noticed that I was lost in my thoughts when he bit my lips, to bring me back to my current reality. We both once again fell for each other and had a sensual