Damaged Beyond Repair by Kashmira Kamat (KittyKash) (motivational novels txt) 📕

BANG! BANG!

"OPEN THE DOOR, ALANA, I'M WARNING YOU!" Rowan barked from the other side.

I peeked out of the window and swallowed hard.

Yeah. It was stupid of me to think I could go superman from the ninth floor. At least I had my phone with me. There was little to absolutely no time until Rowan ninja-kicked the door. I had to think fast, calling Nina and asking for help wouldn't be such a great idea, I'd only worry her. Calling Chez would only put more fuel into the fire which is to say he'd find a reason to rub it in with a 'told you so.'

Nah!

I dialed Claire's number, it hit the recording, "The number you have dialed is not reachable, please try again later."

Of course, Claire was probably a thousand feet above the ground. My life depended solely on Dwight, if he did not answer my call, I'd have to dial the main house.

Thankfully, Dwight's phone rang.

Once.

Twice.

"Hello beautiful, just been two weeks and you're already calling me. Didn't think you'd actually take the brother switch idea so seriously." Dwight chuckled on the other end, "So...what's the occasion?"

"Dwight, you need to cut the comedy. I need your help."

"Is everything alright?" Dwight's cheerful tone had dispersed, "Let me rephrase the question, is Rowan posing a threat to your mere existence?"

"Rowan...he..he's been drinking and smoking hash and..." I began to tear up again.

"ALANA." Bang! Rowan pounded on the door making finch.

"What was that?" Dwight asked.

"I don't know what to do or what will calm him down. Rowan's been very aggressive. He cut himself, Dwight. I managed to lock Minnie and myself in her room but I'm not sure how long the door can stand him. He'll break it any minute now." I bit back the tears, I wasn't weak, "Dwight, I'm scared."

Dwight let out a sigh, "See, your 'I'm-gonna-be-Rowan's-savoir' plan is biting you back in the ass."

"Dwight!"

"Listen, let Rowan do whatever the fuck he wants. Pay him no heed even if he screams or bangs on the door, he will pass out in a while. Just don't provoke him. Stay behind the closed door and the situation will smooth out. I'm on my way."

Relief washed over me, "How much time would it take you to reach here?"

"At least an hour."

I cringed.

"Where is Minnie?"

"She is with me."

"Good, I will try my best to reach as fast as I can, until then will you promise me to stay strong and handle the situation?"

"Yes." My voice wavered.

"Okay, I'm on my way. Keep me updated on the situation and don't worry. You're gonna be fine."

Dwight hung up on me first. Minnie poked her head from below the bed, "Can I com out, Alana?"

"No. Stay." I told her as I climbed on my feet and kneeled close to the door, attaching my ear on it. I heard Rowan retreat and a second later his footsteps neared the door. I waited for the blow but there was just a soft knock.

"Baby, please open the door." I felt him press against the wood, "I just want to talk."

I stopped myself from going onto a fit of sobs.

"I'm not going to hurt you, I promise." He whispered, I could even feel his erratic breathing beginning to surface, "I just want you to listen to me."

"You consume every corner of my mind and I kept wondering if you'd even come back to me. Day and night, the thought was horrifying and drinking was the only way I could deal with it. A part of me thought it was best if you didn't return because for what it's worth, I turn you into my punching bag, I'm the reason you cry." He whispered, "I picture the day you met me and remember the good things you did to me. I was supposed to be your role model, Alana, a teacher and a man you looked up to but look what I've become. I wish I could make this stop, make these demons go away."

I wasn't sure how long I could keep from making a sound; I pressed my palm to my mouth.

"I know you're listening." Rowan continued in his clipped voice, "I'm sorry I lied to you, but believe me when I say that I was gonna tell you the truth eventually. Lauren was the biggest mistake of my life, my biggest regret, but Minnie is the best thing that ever happened to me, Alana, and she is the only reason I would never undo what I've done in the past. I just wanted you to know this."

I wanted to unlock the door and throw my arms around him but I couldn't. His malevolent behavior, his threats were enough to scare me for a life time. I had looked right into his red rimmed eyes and watched that animal taking control over him, consuming him. He could easily strike the door down with his herculean strength but the alcohol and the drugs had sucked the life out of him, making him weak.

"I'm sorry for what I have put you through, I really am. I'm not going to lie to you baby, I'm going to speak the truth like I always have. I love you so much that when you aren't around me I feel lost. Those sad violins start to play in the background which makes everything so much worse." He coughed, a harsh cough, "I know that I would never make it out of this, but you can. I don't want to be monster that would make your life miserable so when you walk away this time, don't turn around again baby. No matter how many times I call you. Just keep walking. "

I leaned my forehead on the hard wood, pressing until it hurt. You're redeemable Rowan, don't say all that. Don't lose hope.

Rowan never made a sound after that so I thought he had passed out just like Dwight told me he would. I pressed against the door again but there was still no sound. Rowan could have calmed down for now but it would take him a second to summon the demon back and I could NOT take any chances when it came down to Minnie.

"Minnie, come out now." She crawled out, her white freely dress had picked on some dust. I picked her up in my arms. The metal knob remained cold against my warm hand, I turned it and slowly but with precaution I opened the door. Rowan lay beneath on the carpet against the door; his eyes closed and breathing normally. The outer part of the door had red blood marks. The gauze on his hand was undone.