Scars by Brooklynn (bill gates books recommendations .txt) 📕

I put my wrist under cold water for a few seconds before digging a cloth down my whole wrist and slapping on huge ass bandage. I could already see it rising with thick blood, so I put one over it incase. I sat back down on the toilet, and began bawling my eyes out again. Suck it Up Kimberly! I Shouted To Myself In My Head. I Thought You Were Over This God Damn Crying Stage! FML.

Mickey...

I Walked Over To The Bathroom Door And Knocked. "Kimmy, What Happend?" I Asked For The Third Time. She Was So Cutely Stubborn. No! Focus on her wrists, her pain.You sound like a fucking pedo Mickey... Focus! "Go Away Mick" She Answered Back. Her Nickname For Me Made My Heart Skip A Beat, But Still, Her Voice Was Harsh. "But I Don't Wanna?" I Whined Back. "Please Just go Away!" She Shouted Back, her Voice Breaking In The Process. "Kimster, I Just Wanna No What Happend, What Made You Cut?" I Asked Using Her Nickname. Would it work for her like it worked for me? There was a silence and I was begining to think it would. "Let It Go Mick" She Said Strongly. Until she said that. Why Was She So Stubborn! "God Kimmy Your Acting Like A Little Kid" I Said Back. There Was Some Rustling And Then The Door Opened. Her Head Was Down So I Couldn't See Her Face. Her Hair Hung Over The Sides Of Her Head, And Tears Hit The Wooden Floor. "I Don't Need You To Babysit Me Mick, Im Just Some Little Kid To You Right!?, Fine! Just Leave Me Alone" She Said Looking Up At Me. "But Ki-" She Shook Her Head And Closed The Door Crying. My Heart Broke. Why Couldn't She See I Liked Her? She Wasn't A Little Kid To Me, I Didn't Mean She Was One, She Was Acting Like One, Yeah She Was Younger Than Everyone, But I Still Liked Her. What Could I Do To Show her That!? She Doesn't Like Me Back, That's What It Is. I Sighed And Did As She Said. I Walked Out Of The Room A Little Pissed And Sad At The Same Time. I Walked Into The Living Room And Everyone Looked At Me. I Shook My Head And I Held my Wrist at my side And Pretended To Cut It. The All Nodded And Understood. God Damn What Was Up! I Yelled At Myself In my Head, Over and Over. I Slumbed In A Seat On The Couch Beside Clayton. Clayton Was My Bestfriend In The House, I Knew Him The Longest, And I Was Closest With Him. He Know's how Much I Like Kimmy. He's The Only One Who Knows I Like Her. He gave Me A What Happend Look. "I Told Her She Was Acting Like A Little Kid, But I Didnt Mean It How It Was Said, And She Told Me To Leave Her Alone" I Whispered To him. He Sad Smirked At Me And Shrugged A "Im Sorry Man" Shrug. I Nodded. "What I miss anyway?" I Asked, Trying To Get Her Tear Streaked Face Out Of My Head. "Nothing really, Tyler Wanks To Jada's Picture's, Danny and Riley Have Never Had Sex, Annnnd Finally, Your still Annoying." Skyler Said Smiling At Me. I Gave Her The Finger But Smiled. Hey, C'mon, Shes My Bestfriends Girl? "And We Already Know Tyler Does that, Trust. And, Jada Has A Naked Picture Of Him On Her Phone, You Should See What She Does In The Shaaaawerr" I Said Waggling My Eye Brows At Tyler. "I Do Not!" Jada Shouted. Tyler Punched My Arm And We Went All Ninja. "Come At Me Bro" I Said Laughing. Tyler Laughed Along With Me And Started Boxing His Fists At Me. "Break It Up Queer's, We Gotta Get To School" Zoey Said. "Ahh Zoe, You Want Some Of This Too?" I Smiled. "Oh, Hell n-" Picked Her Up, Swinging Her Over My Shoulder And Spun Around In A Circle. She Was Screaming and Giggling, Telling Me To Put Her Down. "Whoa Whoa Whoa! Stop, Stop" Justin Shouted At Me Laughing. "Thank god, I thought he Would Neve-" As Soon as I passed Her To Justin He Began Spinning Her Around. "Justin!!, Quit it Out!" She Started Laughing Again. "Nah, Im good" He said. "Im Gonna Be Sick If You Dont" She said Between Laughs."Hey Zo, Nice ass" I said waggling my Eye brows again. "Mickey!" Zoey Swung For Me. "Justin put me down!" She said Banging on His Back. "Alright alright" Justin Laughed And Put Her Down. She Swayed And Then Fell Straight On her Ass. "Nice Reflexs You Idiot" Zoey Punched Justin In the arm And Grabbed Her Bag. "Lets Get Going" We All Grabbed Our Bag's And Were Getting Ready To Leave When Kimmy Came Down The Stairs. She Looked Like Nothing Had Happened. Her Eye's Wern't Puffy, And Her Nose Wasnt Red. She Looked Cute. More than cute, more like I fucking want her. I Sighed. What The Hell Was Wrong With me, She Obviousily Hates Me. I Looked Everywhere But At Her. "Sorry, I'm Late!" She Shouted Happily Smiling. I Felt Her Gaze On my Face, But I Was Avoiding Her Eyes Completely. Everyone Was Looking At Her Smiling, Worried Smiles. "What?" She Laughed. Her Laugh Was Amazing. "Snap Out Of It Mickey!" I Said To Myself. Clay Nudged Me Smirking And I Realized A few People Heard Me. I Shrugged And Looked Away. "Alright Let's go!" Jason Shouted. She Ran And Jumped On Clayton's Back. Clayton Was Like A Brother To Her, That's How He Knew I Liked Her. Skyler Didn't Mind, They Seem Distant Mostly, Since He Knew Kimberly Before He Met Skyler. He Smirked At Me And I was Smirking Back When Kimmy Looked At Me, And I Instanly Turned, Looking away. We All Got Into The Car's And Drove To School. Me, Jason, Justin, Danyelle And Clair Were in 'Nightrunner', Tyler, Clayton, and Kimberly Were In Tyler's Car, The Green Sexy One. And Jada, Skyler, Zoey And Riley Were In The Yellow Jeep Girly Car. Clayton tried To get Kimmy To Ride In The Car Im In, I Was Freaking Out Cause I Really Didnt Want To See, Or Be With Her, She Just Whinned and Pleaded Him to Stay With Her. Of Course He Caved In. Her Puppy Eye's Killed Me. I Feel For Him. Sighing I Climbed into The Car.

Clayton...

I Couldn"t Resist Her Eye's. She's So, Ugh. God Damnit. I got In The Car With Her And Tyler. Me And Kimberly Were I The Far Back Talking, When I Made The Mistake To Ask Her What Happened. "Clay, Ple-" I Put My thumb To Her Lip. She Was My 'Little Sister'. I Would Do Anything For Her, I Just Wanted Her To Trust Me. "Kimmy, Listen To Me, I'm Not Going Anywhere, And Neither Are You, So Tell Me, And I'll Be Here For You" I Said And Kissed Her Forehead. She Nodded. "My Aunt Told Me, She Acidently Broke My Parents Ash Vase's, And That She Just Sweeped Them Up, And Threw Them Away" She Said, A Little Tear Forming In Her Eye. I Wiped It Away Quickly, And Acted Ninja. "Don't Show Weakness, Tyler-Son Is In the Front Seat" I Said. She Smiled And Laughed Abit. "Its Okay Kim, Your Parents Are Always With You, No Matter What. Those Ashes Just Showed you They Died, But In Your Heart, You Know They Haven't Died From you" I Said. She Nodded And Smiled. "The same goes for your mom Clay" She pecked my cheek and rested on my shoulder. "So That's What Made you..." I Lifted Her Wrist. "Yuup, I Guess I Just Needed, A Coping Skill" She Said. "Your Still Young, Live A little Before You Go Leaving Scars" "Okay, Dad, And Whats Your Excuse" She Said Lifting Up my Sleeve. "Dont Start Kim" I Shoke My Head And Pulled My Wrist Away. "So What's Going On With You And Mickey?" I Asked Breaking The Silence. Her Cheeks Got Red, And Her Face Went Into Cutely Crush Mode. Shit, Kimmy Likes Him Back, Who knew! I Laughed To Myself. "Your Blushing" I Told Her Laughing. She Punched My Arm. "No Im Not, Its Just Hot In Here" She Said. "Or your Thinking Of Something Hot In There, and its getting hot down there" I Said Poking Her Head, and pointing to her zipper. She Blushed More and punched my arm again.. "Okay, He's Friken Cute!" She Admitted In A Low Voice. I Bust Up Laughing. "Its Not Funny Clay" She Said Sounding Hurt. "Yes, Yes It Is" I Said laughing. "No, Its Not." She Said, More tears Formed In Her Eyes, But She Tried Hiding Them. "Im Just Some Little Kid To Him, I'm Like His Own Personal Fucking Baby Doll" She Said Crossing Her Arms Over Her Chest. I Rolled My Eyes. She Sighed And Un-crossed Her Arms. "Clay, You Arnt Getting It!. Im A Little Kid, Im A Virgin, Ive Never Been Kissed, And I Cut My Wrists, How Could Anyone Like me?" She Said Sighing. What She Mentally Fucked In the Head? I asked myself. "Being A Virgin, Isnt Going To Matter Kim, Its Just Another title, And never being kissed shouldn't be a Problem Either, I Cut Myself Too Kim, Everyone In The House Does, Even Mick, People like you." I Said holding out my Wrist.. "I'm Sorry, But What If Im Not Good At It, If I Cant kiss?, I'f I can't Have Sex Cause Im not Good at It?, I mean... Not That Me And Mick Would Have Sex" She Said Trailing Off Into Mumbles About How She Wanted To Do Dirty Stuff To Him. I Held Back The Snort I wanted To So Loudly Do. I Can't Believe Im doing this, I said to myself. "If you Want, I'll Help you With It, Just The Kissing, I'll Teach you" I Told Her. She Raised An Eyebrow. "Awkward... And what About Skyler?" She Asked. Ok, Secret Time. Thinking In my Head. Me and Skyler And Are Dating Yes, But I Really Dont Like Her As Much As A Boyfriend Should. I Care About Her, and Love her And I Know She Cares About Me and loves me, But Really, I Like Kimmy. God Damnit Clay What Are You Doing To Yourself!? Deciding What I Should Say, I Thought Long and Hard. I Couldnt Tell Kimmy Could I? No! No! It would Freak Her Out. Ohkay... Ohkay.. "What About her?" I Smirked. Please Dont Let Her Catch on. "Ok, Fine, Teach Me To Kiss Bucko" She Laughed. "Alright, I will, After School Today". I Said. She Stuck her Tounge Out at Me And I Started Laughing. "Alright, After School Today, Just Dont Tell Mickey or Skyler!" She Smiled. What Was I Going To Do? Mickey's Gonna Hate me. Skyler Is Going To Dump Me. If She Finds Out... God Clay Your tuning into A Man Slut. I Internally Sighed and Slapped Myself. "Kill Me Now" I Whispered. I Put My Head In My Hands Just As We Pulled Into School.

Ah hell.