Scars by Brooklynn (bill gates books recommendations .txt) 📕

eyes. I nodded slowly. "Tonight?" I asked, my voice cracking. Clayton was such a good guy, He didnt deserve this! No-one deserved this! It would kill me if jason did that. I would feel hurt, and alone, and in-secure. I feel so bad for clayton. Skyler was such a slut! The anger was back. It hit me like a ton of bricks, and guilt, rage, sadness, hatred all washed over me so hard I fell hard on my butt. "Clair!" Jason croutched down to me and fanned me face. "Kiss me again" I said swallowing back the tears. His eyes looked sad, but as soon as his lips found mine, I let everything go and let him hold me tight. I didnt realize I was crying until Jason wiped my eyes and hugged me. Holding me on the ground in his arms, as I cried over someone else cheating. He's your friend.. you should cry for him. My little voice said so calm to me, I think I fell asleep in my boyfriends arm.

Skyler...

Alright yes, what I'm doing is wrong. I love clay, dont get me wrong, but I dont know... Yes im on my knee's, in an art classroom, and thinking it over I felt super guilty and my stomach started feeling sick. But.. I, I wanted to stop. Though, I didnt. His grunts and moans got louder as I moved my mouth in and out. He was moaning my name, pushing the back of my head closer and deeper. He grunted really loud and the door swung open. I looked, shocked and embarrassed, to see jason and clair totally flipping out. Clair seen me first, Mumbling ewh ovver and over again. Oh god... She looked like she would cry, then all she looked was mad and dissapointed. "Skyler!?" He shouted. Here I was, caught by two people who live in the same house, and are close with my boyfriend... on my knees. Clair looked pissed. Like she would come here and slap me. My heart squeezed and I begged her eyes to forgive me. "Wtf!?" He screamed, slammed the door and left me there. I was on the verge of tears. They would tell clay... I would loose him. I have to get to him first, I got off my knees. "Nu-uh, your not done bitch" Seth pushed me back on my knees really hard. I felt the bone in my knee hit the floor and tense up. "Owh you stupid ass!" I held onto my knee for a few seconds before trying to get up. Sighing, I pushed past him. "Thats it" he said. I stuggled against him, his everything. He pinned me to the floor, and teared up my shirt. A big rip when from the bottom to just below my bra line one the side. He tugged down my jeans the whole time I was struggling. "Help!" I screamed. He slapped his hand over my mouth and and shoved his hand down my pants. I was bawling my eyes out. I felt like gagging, and puking up everything Ive ever eaten. I yanked his hand away from my mouth. "Would you fucking stop!" I screamed in his face. He swung his tightened fist and got my right along the corner of my eye and jaw. There was a stinging pain, more than just getting punched, and when he pulled away I noticed he was wearing a god damn ring. That fucker cut my face! I bawlled harder as my face tensed and leaked a liquid that I wasnt sure was blood or tears. "Seth" I sobbed. He didnt listen, instead he started up-doing my pants. The bell rang and he looked to the door. I took my chance. I brought my knee up and slammed it the hardest I could into crotch. He collapsed down , slipped his hand out of my pants and I ran for the door. I slammed it behind me and took off, pushing through the crowded hall way to my locker. I spun the stupid lock and ripped the door open. I looked at my little square green mirror and I froze. My jaw dropped and my eyes I swear blazed an angry shade of red. (Not literally, im no vampire wolf thing). My whole jaw starting from my now blackened eye, all the way to just above my chin was pouring blood. It was only a thing line, about a half a cm wide, but 8 cm's long. My eyes were red and puffy, leaking tears that ran over the cut making it sting like a mofo. I kicked my locker hard and my face stung again. A few drops of blood hit the floor, and I just kept bawling my eyes. People were giving me dirty looks, walking to lunch. I shot them glares but I was really just too hurt, and in to much pain to be mean. "Hey Skyler!" His voice was gentle, but it still made me jump. Please don't let my voice crack, please! He wrapped his arms around my waist, pulling me against his chest. I relaxed against his touch but quickly snapped out of it. His hot breath was on my neck, and I tensed. "Can't talk right now Clay" I said and pulled out of his arms. I slammed my locker shut, walking off. Thank god. I cant deal with clay right now, not yet. Maybe not ever.. I found myself thinking. I walked out the front doors and past the cars in the parking lot. I'll just walk home, 7 miles isnt that far. I felt my feet moving in the direction of the house. I pulled my iPod out of my Dickies red and black checkered bag and slipped in both my headphones. I turned the music the highest it would go, I flinched at first as Payphone by Maroon 5 starting roaring in my ears, but I got used to the sound and started wiggling my hips down the side walk. I had to just.. keep everything off my mind. Clay and seth and the fact Clair and Jason were going to blab there mouths and ruin my relationship completely. I shook myself and started mumbling to the song. Just... dont think about it girl. Just dont..

Mixed emotions

Clay...

"Hey skyler!" I greeted her. I wrapped my arms around her waist and pulled her against my chest. I breathed in her scent, but it was a little off so I scrunched my nose and breathed through my mouth. I was breathing on her neck and her body tensed. I smirked, thinking it was from shivers or chills that ran down her body. "Cant talk right now clay" She said as she slammed her locker and walked off. I stood there, thinking.. What the hell was that? Did she honestly just.. run off like that? I shooke my head and looked down. What the- blood? Did she cut herself? What made her do that? There were at lest 6 drops of bloodpooled in a little blob. She must have cut a lot cause thats some pretty intense blood amount I thought to myself. I followed out the same doors that she left just 5 minutes ago. I walked down the parking lot, thinking she took a car, but when I got there, they were all still rowed in a line. She's walking? While bleeding!? "You've got to be kidding me!" I punched the side of the nightrunner. "Whats wrong?" His voice made me jump out of my jeans. I snapped my head around to Justin and Zoey on his back. I relaxed a bit, but not too much. "Skyler, I think she cut again, cause she's bleeding bad, and she's fucking walking home" I told him running my hand over my hair. "But thats 7 miles!" Zoey shrieked. "Fuck, I couldnt walk that after I cut" She mumbled, but I heard her and almost smirked. "C'mon, we can just go follow her in a car" Justin said, shifting his weight, and pushing Zoey's ass up further. I smirked and propped his fist below Zoey's eye vision. "Alright, we just need to go get our stuff, okay?" I told them. They nodded and Zoey giggled loud as justin spun around in circles. Yeah, I knew my girlfriend was bleeding and also walking a 7 mile, which means a 45-hour walk if your fast.. But I couldnt help but smile and laugh at my friends. I jogged up behind them and we stalked into the hallways. I followed them up the flights of stairs too the 3rd floor. The long hallway , had turqoise walls, with a vomit green color for the lockers. Justin dropped off Zoey at locker B124 And walked down the hallway to his. They were like 30, maybe 35 lockers apart. Thats only a guess though. I stayed with Zoey as she grabbed her, green, orangish yellow jansport bag. She stuffed her cell phone in her bra, and her ipod in her back pocket, and searched for something else. "Whatcha looking for zo?" She snapped her head at me, like she didnt even know I was there. "Geesh clay, mind your mouth when your sneaking on girls, cause you just scared the piss outta me" She said holding her hand over her heart. I laughed and kissed her hair. "Yeah yeah, so whatcha looking for?" I asked her again. "My note book...." She trailed off. I looked at her locker door, there were pictures of her and justin mostly, but there were some of her and the girls, or just her, or all of us in a group. I picked at my favourite one and stuck the magnet else wear. Staring down at it I smirked wider. It was all of us infront of are tree. The girls had there tongues out, some had there hands in little rock on fingerines, and all the guys were smirking or kissing the girls, or peaking down there tops. A bubble of laughter escaped my lips and Zoey jumped again. I showed her the picture and she too laughed. "Look at Tyler and Jada.." She laughed louder. I looked at the two of them. Jada was infront, doing her little squinty eyes and scrunched up duck lips pose, bent over, while tyler was behind her, looking like he was giving it to her, with his arms pulled to his sides, biting his lips and smirking at the camera. I was taking the picture, so I wasnt in it, but it still made me smile and laugh and urge to be with my friends at that moment. I magneted the picture back on her locker and peeked down the hall. Justin was stlaking towards us with his finger to his lips. I grinned knowing he was going to scare the fuck out of zoey. He was wearing his black graffiti backpack. I nodded quickly and looked back at the pictures. There was ones of Clair and Jason .. Zoey and Justin, all the girls at the beach in bikini's.. which by the way, they all looked really hot. Im not going to lie, the girls at