Gone by By: Morgan:) (ebook reader library TXT) 📕

from my house. Debbie didn’t own it but we liked the people who worked there and we like the food so we keep going there.
As soon as I got there I got out of my car and went inside. I found Debbie and mines regular seat. I waited for her. As soon as she got there I showed her my ring.
“Aw!” She shouted.
“I know. I just wish he was here.” I said while looking at it.
“Hang in there.” She said.

After Debbie and I went back to my house. I kinda was a little scared from seeing her like that. I don’t know what I was thinking. The guys and us have never done anything like that. I don’t know why we agreed.
“How’s Johnny?” I asked while putting my keys on my desk.
“He’s good. Really good.” She smiled.
“So he’s REALLY good.” I laughed.
“Yeah, he is.” She laughed.
“That was a crazy night.” I pointed out.
“Yeah, so how did Alan take it?” She asked.
“That’s how I got the ring. He didn’t want it to happen again. He wasn’t mad, at least he didn’t seem like it.” I answered. “What I hate the most is that I liked it. I wanted it to happen. I know I tried to stop it but I didn’t try hard enough.”
“Kenny is a pushy jerk. Don’t blame yourself. You’d have to be an idiot not to enjoy it. because I saw his...” She stopped.
“Yeah.” I said in a daze. I missed Alan so much. I missed his lips. I missed us sleeping together. My bed seems so empty without him. I’m tired of missing him. We have a one in a life time love and I can’t stand not being with him. I shouldn’t have to miss him. He should be here.
“Jane?” She asked snapping me out of my daze.
“Oh, yeah.” I said and laughed.
“So, can I spend the night? Its my parents anniversary and I don’t wanna be in the same house as that.” She chuckled while shaking at the thought.
“Of course. I can’t let you go through that.” I told her. I heard a knock at my door. My Mother came in with something in her hand.
“Jane, this came for you.” She said and handed me an envelope. I don’t know what it was but it was addressed to me. Alan’s letters didn’t come on this day and his only came after I wrote mine.
“What is it?” I asked while taking it.
“I don’t know. I was hoping you could tell me.” She said. I slowly ripped the seal and took out a piece of paper. I read it to myself.


Janey,


Hello, my dear sister. I’m sorry I haven’t written. I’m doing great and I hope the same for you. I’ve missed everyone so much. You, Mom, my friends, Debbie and even Dad. I have been so over whelmed. I wanted to write to tell you that I miss you and wish I could see you. I want to dance with you again. I want you to tell me what has happened, like you use to. Jane, you’re my sister, my best friend and I love you. I just wanted to talk to you. I can’t wait to receive a letter from you. Tell Mother I love her. Tell Father I’m sorry. I didn’t mean to hurt him the way I did. Always thinking of you.

Love,
Your Big Bro


I smiled as I put the letter back into its envelope. Mom and Debbie stared at me impatiently.
“Well?” My Mother spoke first.
“What did it say, who was it from?” Debbie spoke.
“It was from Jesse. He says he loves you and he misses me.” I said to them.
“How is he doing?” My Mom asked.
“He says he’s doing good and he misses everyone.” I told her.
“Thats great.” She smiled. I nodded in agreement and put the letter where I put the others from Alan.

Later that night I sit down at my desk as Debbie sleeps in her bed. I picked up my pen and paper and began to write my letter to Alan.


My dear,

I’ve gotten your letter. I was so surprised when I found the ring. You don’t have to do this. You don’t have to purpose to keep me. That was a one time mistake and I promise it wont happen again. We don’t have to rush this. My love for you will always be there. The children miss you. Everyone does. I love you. If your purposal is true then all I can say is I do, I do, I do. I love you forever more.

Love,
your baby girl


After I wrote the note to Alan, I wrote to Jesse. I was tired and did have the will to write a whole front and back letter to Alan like I usually do. He will understand.


Jesse,

I’m so happy to have finally gotten a letter from you! So much has happened! Alan asked me to marry him! I still haven’t talked to Dad but I told Mom to tell him you said you are sorry. I’m sorry but I will not talk to him after how he treated you. Debbie has been helping me. You wouldn’t believe it but Debbie and our friend Johnny has really hit it off. (In all ways) . I’ve been more dangerous lately. I’ve been getting out more. Music isn’t the same without listening and dancing to it with you. The kids say hi. They say they miss your story time with them on fridays. They miss Alan too. How is he really? We are all okay here. We miss you to death! We love you so much! Come home soon. Come home safe. I love you!

Love,
your little sis:)


I wrote but just after I drew the smiley face, I had fallen asleep. Before I knew it was late the next morning. I looked out the window as I saw the mailman pull up. I quickly grabbed the letters and raced out the door to catch him.
“Wait!” I yelled as he got into his truck. He wait and then I handed him the letters.
“You’re lucky you caught me.” He said. I smiled and nodded and watched as he pulled away.


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So, its been almost a half a year since Alan and Jesse have been gone. I miss them terribly. Something has happened that I don’t know what to do. I’ve forgotten. I’ve forgotten Alan’s smell. I’ve forgotten how is lips taste. I’ve forgotten how they feel. If it wasn’t for the pictures I think I would have forgotten how he looked. I don’t know how this could be happening. I try to hold onto it but it has disappeared. I don’t know how to get it back. I looked at the ring on my finger and hold onto the feeling I get. The feeling of butterflies, warmth, and safety. It makes me feel like home. I hold onto that feeling because it cannot leave. Alan and I always say most of the same things. That we love each other and we miss each other. Once in a while he will go into more detail. I hated waiting for the letters each week. A week seemed so long. It seems even longer if you’re waiting for something. No matter how many times we write each other, we never run out of things to say. We always have something. Wether its the weather or the little things he can tell me. Sometimes he described to me where he is and he tells me whats outside. I love trying to paint a picture.
As I waited impatiently for Alan’s letter to come. I looked down the long, empty dirt road. I got a weird feeling as the wind blew. Where was he? As I looked down at the perfectly white snow as I heard his engine. I walked to the end of my drive way as he approached my house.
“You only have one this time.” He said as he handed me one letter.
“Are you sure?” I asked. He nodded and then pulled off. I looked at the letter in my hands. It was addressed to me as usual but it was Jesse’s hand writing. I opened it and read it. It was just a normal letter from him, continuing our last conversation. Where was Alan’s? His always comes the same time. As weird as I thought it was I ignored it until the next week, still nothing came. I went inside and wrote to him.


Alan,

Whats wrong? Why haven’t I received your letters yet? Did I do something wrong? Whats happening there? Alan, I love you. You have to talk to me. I’m guessing that you have just misplaced your letter. I love you. Still thinking of you. Its cold outside now. The snow slowly comes. The wind blows the flowers that are sticking up through the snow and it looks so beautiful. The sky stays orange more. As the snow collects on the ground I love how white everything looks. I can’t wait till I can see you. Every time I say I love you its like the first I love you You and I have ever said so I love you! Love you now, loved you yesterday, love you today, always have, always will.

Love,
Jane


As I nervously licked the seal and handed it to the mail man I looked up into the clear blue sky. I watched as snow flakes fell on my nose. I smiled as a gust of wind blew my hair. I tucked my hands into my jacket and went back inside.


Another week went by and nothing. Before I knew it it was a month before I have received a letter from him. I’ve asked Jesse but he can’t tell me anything.
“Mom, I’m really worried.” I confessed at the dinner table.
“I’m sure his letters are just getting lost.” She said trying to make me feel better but it didn’t work.
“What if they are not lost? What if he’s not coming back?” I asked her with tears in my eyes. She stood up and walked to me. She hugged me.
“Don’t think like that.” She said and touched my brown hair. I cried into her shoulder as she held me close.

I didn’t eat dinner. I went straight to my room. No one knew what I was going through. They didn’t love him as much as I did. His parents didn’t care either. As soon as he reached 18 he moved out. His Father hardly even talked to him. His Mother was a doll but if she really cared she would try to see him more often. He stayed with his friends when he wasn’t with me. His mailing address was my house. He did everything at my house. No one understood. We were in love. We are in love.
Each day I wait for a letter for nothing to come. I didn’t understand why nothing came. I knew he wasn’t gone. He couldn’t be.
I sent him more letters, as if we never stopped talking. I don’t know what was going on but it must be a mistake. He wouldn’t hurt me like this.


Alan,

Its been weeks since I’ve received anything. I hope you are doing good. I miss you so much. I miss your strong arms around me, holding me so tight. I wear my ring proudly. I can’t