feelings for her by Vishal Singh (books to get back into reading .txt) 📕

“Hey Srishti, You Sneha, You Meenakshi & You
Radhika, How was the goal??”, during celebration
of the victory….

Srishti,” Awsm, My hero…..”.

Sneha,” May our Ronaldo Live Long!!!”.
Meenakshi,” Our school can’t afford a match of
football without you, charming ‪#‎Chiku‬….”.

( Jay to Chiku, matlab kuch bhi… lolz.. ,actually my Dadi gave this short name to me , then they know by mistake .)

Radhika,” Not so much to cheer about, it was just
nice…”.

Jay, “ Just Nice? You go & see POGO, Just Nice
haan? We could have lost the game………”

Radhika,” Hey cuty, Don’t be so rude, I was just
joking…..”.

Digvijay (interuptingly) ,”Hey Jay, leave all these
girls, they are just waste of time, we have to leave
now for our Celebration, Hey girls, Mind it, it is
‘Boys’ Celebration, Boys rocks’
Naananannaaannaaa… hey….. Hey… Hip Hip
Hurrey……… …..”.

Jay,”Sorry girls, I have to leave, The orders are
from supreme court (Friends are just like supreme
court for Jay), catch you all soon…….”

Jay (To Mirror),”Hey ‘Yaadi’, are you enjoying??
Haan??? “
Yaadi,” Of course Buddy, Now tell me How did you
all boys celebrate you victory??”

We Digvijay, Siddharth, Sumit, Kuldeep & Akshaya
drove straight to the Fun & Fun WaterPark, we
took ride over various Dragons, we all together
jumped from a height to straight to the swimming
pool, we bathed, we went for vodka, we were
young enough, as we were 11th standards students,
who can care about themselves, especially when
there is a businessman in name of father & a
women caring about herself in name of mother,
Yaadi you know how it feels when returning home
from school, all children mixes up with their Mom
& Dad, & I had to satisfy myself with Playstation,
Laptops, Food like someone had just take it out
from cold storage, No one is there to celebrate my
victory, No one cares, My friends think I’m richest
but reality is that no one is as poor as I am, as pitty
as I am……..
Some tears trickeled down through Jay’s eyes, A
strange silence is all around there, on his whole
face, suddenly…….

Yaadi , ”Jay don’t feel so pity, atleast you know
What Love is?? Please stop crying, look I am also
crying with you…….”

Yaadi,”I said Naa, please stop crying, Clear your
tear & now complete the celebration, tell me about
How you made Digvijay naked in the swimming
pool???”

Jay (Smiling),”Oh, Ya… That one, ya listen…. We
all friends made a plan that during the bath, we all
will keep our clothes aside & Kuldeep will steal
Digvijay’s clothes & then we all after clothing up
will enjoy the Digvijay as ‘Nangu’……”

Hahahahahahahahahahah………. Laughing out
Loudly……… (Jay & yaadi, both are laughing
furiously…)

But after then we all appollogised to the Digvijay &
reminded him that whenever you should go for
bath, you should first ensure your clothe’s
safety……….lolz………..

What a great time it was, though I was devoid of
parents love since birth but I was thankful to god
for gifting me such a great “BINDASS” friends…..

Sometimes I feel money is my enemy, as if my
father, let suppose He was a clerke with ordinary
salary & my mother a normal housewife taking care
of house not jwellery, then I would have certainly a
most richest boy, Then we used to share food
together, we used to laugh & enjoy together as a
small happy family, in a single room not in that
graveyard, where there is no ray of happiness, only
a terrible silence that can kill you, if you try to know
what LOVE is……… .
I wanted to quit, I wanted to live with my friends at
their home, but I couldn’t as according to my
friends I’m happy at my home, I just wanted their
presence only during school time & after going
home I forgot about them & enjoy my luxurious life
style…. But no, it was not true & there was no point
of enjoyment about that f**king Life style, where I
used to feel a sort of suffocation, moreover the
reality was that, at that time I needed them the
most, I missed them the most & found myself caged
in my own house, encircled by the Keepers
(Servants), highly paid just to Cage me…

Yaadi you are my only best friend who know me
more than anyone can, even more than I can………
But I didn’t leave the hope, hope to cultivate love, a
hope for which this wind is blowing, this moon is
rising, this earth is rotating, this world is breathing,
everyone is living, I’m living… I used to have my
lunch with my school gate keeper Shambhu Kaaka
ji , not with friends who need my lunch not me……
He was the man of self-respect, with only one hand,
still he used to salute very strictly with only hand,
He used to tell me stories & I preferred to feed him
with my hands as it gave me pleasure, He was well
aware of my problem, though I never had told him,
to this he gave me several explanation but I was
never convinced but one day, he told me a story, a
story of a boy, a boy of my age, a boy in the same
condition in I was, One day the boy along with his
parents was going for a movie which he never liked
as young boys didn’t like to prefer old moral stories,
he also wanted his parents love not the movies &
suddenly their car collided with a truck & on the
spot his parents, driver died & his one hands
detached from his body, unluckily he survived…??

I asked,” How it was unlucky?”.

Shambhu Kaka,” Because the boy whose story I’m
telling you is none other, moreover it’s not a story,
it’s a real incident, & the boys is standing infront of
you Shambhu……”.

“Oh So sorry, You had lost your parents at young
age ???”, I asked.

Shambhu Kaka, “Ya, that’s what I want to teach you
is, It doesn’t matter they are loving you or not, they
are spending time with you or not but atleast they
are with you, but I am all alone….”.

“Ok I got your point, from today onwards I’ll
respect my parents, but this is not my real problem
my real problem is where do I cultivate love?? ”, I
asked.

Shambhu kaka,”Just love the life, Life will love
you.... Just show deep faith in life & life will never
leave you alone……. ”.

“Ok Shambhu kaka ji, namastey… let me go”, I
replied & left the place……

But reality was that at that age, I was unable to
estimate the worth of his last sentence, It was very
difficult for me to compute the real sense what
Shambhu kaka wanted to convey to me… might be I
havn’t seen the other forms of life, or I was still 16
year old………………

But now when I Know the each & every aspect of
his sentence, what he wanted to convey, Why he
over emphasized the word LIFE, even more than
word LOVE…... & Now the reality is that I don’t
have any more time left……..

But anyhow at that time, what only desire for me
was to cultivate love…….

Jay,”How was Shambhu Kaka??”

Yaadi,”Awsm Chiku (Reminding Meenakshi’s words)
lolz…….. Your cigarette is finished, throw the bud
down you idiot…. Lolz….smile emoticon ”.

Jay,”Ok I’m coming, just wait for me….”.

Jay leaves for bedroom…………..

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‪#‎cigarette_2‬

Mayur Vihar, Delhi……….
12 Oct, 2014 ; 7:00 p.m…

Jay goes to bedroom to take second cigarette &
also takes a cup of coffee, & then lights the
cigarette & continues the conversation with himself
ie- with Yaadi…

Anyhow it was the turning year of my life, It was the
year which was going to direct my life to
somewhere, where I could get LOVE, as if you are a
science stream student & you score good in
competitive engineering entrance exam, you could
go for a college, more precisely a ‘hostel’ is always
there for you, better than that graveyard……

I started giving proper justice to my 3 core subjects
“PCM : Physics, Chemistry, Mathematics”, & the
best part was that, there was certainly a feeling of
love with those sexy numerical of Newton’s Law,
Coordinate Geometry, Electrostatic, Magnetism,
Complex Number, Organic Chemistry,
Thermodynamics, Equilibrium a lot…. I was having a
good habit of sleeping with them, there was a
LOVE, Ya Joy of LOVE, in class-room, in Coaching
class, those attractive multiple choice question with
IIT-JEE, AIEEE formats have, with this I was also in
the race with those, whose posters you can see at
every end of entrance exams in news-papers,
magazines, T.V.s, ya & it should be because they
work hard, but I was not working hard, I was loving
my studies as if my books are my soul mates.... It
was tasting nice, you can say it was my first crush (Author : with PCM lolzz……… Padhley
Bachhu Aagey pata chalegi, jab 3X3 ki nhi 6X6 ki
matrix aayengi tab kahega, maine entrance kyon
diya ??? lolz…….. I was just joking, just to make you
laugh, as even your breathe can leave you, but your
knowledge can’t……)

Jay finishes the Coffee & puts the cup aside, He
goes inside the bed room again & brings a Photobook,
to show yaadi some of his sweet memories at
the Digvijay’s Birthday party…….

“Look yaadi, what a wonderful collection I got…..”,
Jay says.

Jay continues….. It was the day before our 12th
board Physics exam, It was Digvijay’s Birthday, My
best school buddy’s birthday & You know me, I
don’t fear, fear of anything.. (In a very low voice,
Jay to himself, just I fear from LOVE word…), So
we had to celebrate that night, However Digvijay
was rejecting the proposal of going for a drive, but
I knew the ways, how you make your friend to say
YES, only thing to do is just kick 4-5 kicks at your
friend’s back, in a few seconds he will plan a trip for
you………….. We(along with 4 other friends) all
boarded in my Dad’s TATA-SUMO ( Atleast there
are some advantages of being belonging to a rich
class you always have a car, Thanks God!, ) At that
time there was no tension for OPTICS, or Modern
Physics, No Gauss Formulae, No Faraday’s Laws,
Only there was friend’s full-toooooo masti, a
moment to make a history, we drove straight to
BETA Mall, a place where day starts when Moon
rises, we danced in pub, Even we Hi-jacked the
whole DJ Dance Floor, everywhere on the floor we
were six, we made camera clicked several times, I
purchased a Laptop & gifted it to Digvijay (as he
was very intelligent, & even topper of our school, I
was sure after selection in entrance, he will leave us
after making it for some reputed college, that’s why
for making my gift useful there for his engineering
studies, I opted Laptop as suitable gift….), to this he
thanked me as if I had given him my Dad’s whole
empire, why the friends are so formal, they call
themselves friend & they very rarely behave like a
friend, But I can’t afford to miss that day at this
point of life, what an awsm day it was, just before
Physics exam,….

Jay showing all images to Yaadi, pointing to a
particular image in which all 6 friends were there
with the Laptop (gift), & showing some more
images at dance floor, laughing very loudly,
enjoying as if he is now at the same Dance floor….

“Yaadi, But the time didn’t remain constant, LIFE is
something which gifts you something which you
can’t expect from it ever, Almost everything
changed, everything reverted back, I didn’t know
whether it was boon or bane for me”, Jay says.

Yaadi replies,”(curiously) Time changed? How?
What it is all about? Your friendship got broken ?,
Tell me what went wrong ?”

Jay,” Everything went wrong, After our exams it
was time for result one by one, I was not expecting
anything from any result, I just enjoyed my studies
& I executed my level best without any desire,
atleast you can’t expect any sort of gain to your
soul-mate, only thing I wanted was just to make
clear my board exams & nothing more, But…”

Yaadi,“ But what? ”

Jay,” The result time is a time when in some
homes there are celebrations, happiness, of