feelings for her by Vishal Singh (books to get back into reading .txt) 📕

Jay,” O.K., Mam…. Just calm down, I got your
point…… Still there are 3 more years, I’ll try my best to……..”
Drishti,” Wht are you talking about, What try, can
you make it clear……”

I had not so much courage at that time to go
straight, I started diverting the conversation…..

Jay,” I mean to say, I’ll try my best to make you
smile, forever, Even my whole life……. Anyway, So
you like surprises Haan???....”

Drishti,” Ya, Of course, r u planning any surprise for
me, haan?? ”

Jay,” Can you meet me tomorrow ?”

Drishti,” Sorry I have to study a lot, I can’t come
outside the hostel….. Sorry again ”
Jay,” Who the hell wants you to come out the
hostel,……. ? ”
Drishti,” Oh My God!, You will come to my hostel,
Jay will come to the Girl’s Hostel, Say you are
joking……..”

Jay,” So, then be ready, see you tomorrow
morning, Till then good night, & Before going to
bed, 4 lines for you……..

Har pal khushi un jaisy kyun nhi,
Dil ki pukaar us tk pahunchti kyun nhi,
Jaane-anjaaney me vo samajhti kyun nhi,
Vo duur jo gai…. Vo duur jo gai……..
Is dil ki khushi khud me kaed ho gai………. …”

Drishti,” Are you flirting with me, Haan ??”

Thinking to myself, Mai to kab se kar rha hun, isey
ab lag rha hai……

Jay,” Not at all, Kya ek dost apney dost ko kuch
lines dedicate nhi kar sakta…… Don’t make it too
much complicated, just enjoy dreams Gud Nyt…
Bye…… See you tomorrow, at sharp 8:00 a.m…..”

Drishti,” O.K. Gud Nyt Chiku….. ”

Again Chiku, what she thinked about me, Who was I
for her? , A joker who something like time pass,
Why sometimes she behaved like she was soul mate
& sometimes she was just a class-mate ……..

I had promised her that I’ll will come to her hostel,
But how, at that time, I myself didn’t know,
However, I used my engineer brain whole night to
find out a ‘Jugaad’, & it was too simple……..

Yaadi,” What happened?, How did you make it for
girl’s hostel…… ???”

Jay,” Just wait, I need one more…… Just wait I’m
coming……..”

Jay goes to bathroom, He refreshes himself,
takes a quick shower, This time he doesn’t wear
anything at top, just a Jeans gifted by his Dad at
bottom, He makes room heater on, as it’s very cold
outside, He is humming a famous song, looking like
an English Song, ‘ My Octember’ by Linkin Park, He
combs his hair, & takes his 8th cigarette out & lights
it………

Mayur Vihar, Delhi……….
13 Oct, 2014 ; 01:00a.m..

Yaadi,” Please come straight to that morning…….”

Jay,” I’m coming, I’m coming…. Ya, Everything
went according to my plan, One of the mess worker
at Girls Hostel was ready to exchange his identity
just in 100 bucks, though for Drishti I gave him
5,000 bucks, It was the time for me to act as a mess
worker after working as driver, You Know, It adds
experience to one’s life, What a wonderful scene
was going in their mess, Girls are not so soft & cool
as they look, they are even more harsh when it
comes to food, they need proper baked food even
they eat as we are thankful to them for eating our
food, there was a long line at sharp 8:00 a.m. unlike
in Boy’s Hostel where we leave our bed at 9:00, &
our college authority also betrayed us, they were
not only served better food than us but also they
were properly served, I was serving for them, they
were eating like they hadn’t seen food since a long,
they were coming for more & more, I was sure
workers at Girl’s Hostel would get double salary for
tackling them, Some of girls were laughing at me
after reckoning me, as they had seen me in campus
time, But for them I was not there, neither for
serving them more & more, I was there for Drishti,
But there was no clue of her, I was feeling very
suffocating, Even her room-mate was coming to me
for more & more food, milk, I asked her about
Drishti, she told that she was not feeling well, She
might me skipping the breakfast, (I was thinking to
myself, might be she took my challenge as joke or a
dream, but anyhow I had to prove right Jay’s
word…), I asked her room-mate to order me to
fetch her breakfast to her room in front of all, She
went back to her seat & came back for milk &
ordered me as I had told her, Now this had given
me green signal, I Octorated her breakfast plate,
with a chocolate by my side, I went straight to her
room, without any difficulty, thanks to my
binoculars, Oh! There She was, She was slipping, I
touched her head, little bit warm, I kissed her hand,
I made her awake, seeing my face just at 1 meter
distance, She started shouting as I had entered her
room by means of pipe, To make her quiet I
covered her mouth with my hands & quickly told
her about How I made it possible……

She then
became very quiet, She was smiling as for her I was
there, I took her tooth-brush & made her teeth
brushed by my hands, Then I made her eat by my
hands, She was swallowing very slowly unlike girls
do, might be she needs my presence for more time,
I unwrapped the chocolate & put it in her mouth,
she just ate half of it & left it for me, Oh God!, she
had made that 50 rupee chocolate, a chocolate
whose cost no one can Octide, even this moon is
less expensive than that chocolate after getting
touched by her lips, I took that chocolate piece &
asked her permission to leave, Then I headed back
to my hostel room, I didn’t go for anything that
whole day, all I was doing was kissing that piece of
chocolate, It took me about 8 hours to complete
that piece, I can’t express that taste to you,
Yaadi………… ”

Yaadi,” But I’m feeling that taste now, you needn’t
to define it, you just continue…. I am experiencing
everything’s taste…… Keep on moving………”

Jay,” O.K., This was the sweetest memory
associated with 2nd sem, Then again It was time for
exams, we died again for 3 weeks, in middle of 3
hours paper screwing you there & viva question’s
bazooka blasting over you there at practicals, &
again It was time for separation, But this time I had
a plan, A plan which I was planning since our first
exam of 2nd sem……… ”

Yaadi,” Plan ? Which Plan ? You were going to
celebrate this semester end, somewhere else…..”

Jay,” Ya, Just enjoy with me…… I hired 2 more
Apaches, one for Deepak & one for Ankit, I had
prepared them how to drive Apache, I serviced my
Apache & made all 3 (Ankit, Deepak & Drishti),
aware about my plan & they were very excited too,
It was journey to ‘Lay of Ladhak’ on bikes, straight
from AIT, We packed one-one bag for each &
Apache had enough space to carry them……………”

Lay of Ladhak : Ladakh ("land of high passes") is a
region of Jammu and Kashmir and lies between
the Kunlun mountain range in the north and the
main Great Himalayas to the south, inhabited by
people of Indo-Aryan and Tibetan descent. It is one
of the most sparsely populated regions in Jammu
and Kashmir. They call it "Little Tibet", not just
because of its geographical proximity to Tibet, but
also because it plays host to several Tibetan cultural
festivals. Ladakh might be India's most remote
region, but its beauty is incomparable. Stark
mountains dotted with colorful gompas
(monasteries), fluttering prayer flags, rocky ridges,
dry plains and tiny settlements. And adding to its
beauty is the Indus River that seems to have a
different shade for every season. During summer it
turns grayish, owing to its silt deposits, occasionally
turning a shade of violet. Autumn turns it the most
beautiful - shades of aquamarine waters flowing
through orange-flamed poplars and weeping
willows.

There are many ways to reach there from Delhi, but
the most enjoyable way is to do so by road. If you
can drive the distance of about 1075 kilometers,
taking at least 3-4 days, it is sure to be an
experience you will cherish for life. And try to drive
yourself; there is a different thrill to it than being
driven by someone else.

Yaadi,” Ladakh on Bike, Nothing can be better than
that…… Mind-blowing Idea…. Ab to kehna padega
What an Idea, Guru ji…… lolz…… ”

Jay,” For the first day, We left for Kullu or
Manali. It took us about 12 hours to cover the 550
km to Kullu via Ambala, Chandigarh, Roopnagar
(Ropar), Bilaspur and Mandi. Where we took a
hotel room, We were enjoying the trip, I put fire on
some wooden pieces, we were playing Antakshari,
Now it was the time to show my real practice, I
took my guitar & started playing with each & every
song, This made everyone puzzled as now I was
playing like I had been playing it since last 7 births,
Drishti’s heart knew that it was not her style of
playing guitar, it was completely different like her
love’s pain agony had made me to play like this,
Deepak knew my heart, he was making busy Ankit
as long he could, for giving me time to spend with
her, That night she taught me a lot about her, her
likes & dislikes, We were talking without breaking
that eye contact for even a single second, Stars
were glowing very bright, All was set for me to
propose her but I couldn’t, I was afraid of whether
she rejected my proposal, I will surely die, I didn’t
want to lose her, I was just finding myself in her
eyes, then her eyes fell down, I took her to the bed
& covered her with blanket, kissed her forehead, &
I left for another room where Deepak & Ankit were
already sleeping, Then on next day we headed for
Jispa, located about 145 km from Manali via
Rohtang Pass & continued further 65 km to
Keylong, for lunch break there were shacks along
the way & some restaurants in hotels in Keylong.
Jispa, located at about 10,890 feet, is a strongly
recommended stop to get acclimatized to the
subsequent higher altitude regions where we
stayed at in Ladakh. We took a night halt at Sarchu
about 87 km from Jispa, It was very cold, with
strong windy conditions, We then made run for Leh
from Jispa, about 325 km away. The drive from
Jispa to Leh was worth stopping to admire the
natural features as well as to take pictures. Leh, it
was all right as the terrain, mostly flat and more
densely populated, It was an awsm trip, though
Deepak gave me several chance for proposing her,
But I couldn’t, During whole journey, she was with
me, there at back grasping me tightly as it was very
cold & we were driving very fast, All I want from my
life is, once again that complete trip with her, But
now, I can’t…… :-( :-(”

Yaadi,” Yaar you have revived that trip to me, It is
same as you have completed your wish of going on
that trip again…….”

jay,” But there is no Drishti with us……”

Yaadi,” Don’t think so, she is always there with you,
She is in your heart what else you want, No one can
snatch her from you, even The God can’t, You
should feel proud on yourself for loving her like
this…….”

Jay,” Ya you are saying right, I loved her from
my side, I am loving But will I die loving her ?...”

Yaadi,” Leave it, Yaar don’t restrict the word ‘LOVE’
for a girl, LOVE is vast enough to swallow this
Universe, Just keep on completing this copy, We
have very less time left…..”

Jay was trying to define Love to himself,
suddenly his mobile rings…….

Jay,” Hi Saumya…….”
Saumya( Jay’s Wife ),” Happy Birthday Dear,
Let us allow to join you tonight, After all it’s your
day, Let us celebrate with you…….”

Jay,” As you are saying it’s my day, then please
Let me alone to celebrate it in my own ways…..
Thanks for reminding me…….”

Saumya,” As your wish, Dhanush wants to say
something to you……”

Jay,” Give