Everyday Thoughts. by Gabby Follin (ebook offline reader txt) 📕

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I hope you all have a lovely day. :) 

 I just woke up, I was up till at least six in the morning last night. I'm feeling a little droozy, I feel like I need to try and find some way to get my sleep schedule back on schedule before the end of July. 

I recently had to change everything to a different email address because I pissed of a few hacker friends of mine, and I don't want to get fucked so uhm yeah. I changed that and that's what I've been doing all afternoon yesterday, I had to change everything before anyone could do anything, which I'm glad I thought about it so at least now I'm prepared. The only thing I didn't change was Skype but I don't use it much anyway, so I'll just leave it. Plus who would fuck with someone's skype? All I have on there are a couple fuckboys and like three friends. Anyway..

I'm quite worried about something but I'm not sure if I want to share it on here or not but let's say something is five days late and I'm so worried lol. But then again my Calender isn't always right but... It's been 35 days since my last one so I think I'm fucked. I even fucking asked the last guy I fucked if he came because I was worried. He said he didn't, which was kind of a relief but then he started throwing facts at me, like why are you doing that? It made me worry so yeah I'm just freaking out. Hopefully my body is just being a giant dick to me. The one time I want to bleed from my vagina, god. 

Oh! My friend Cierra has decided to not be a sensitive cunt anymore. I texted her a few days ago asking if she hates me because she sure acted like she did (and over that too, :/). She said she didn't but explained why she was mad, and right before it she said "I'm not trying to sound like a bitch or mean or anything but..." then went on to say all these rude things. but yeah I kind of get it why she's mad, she said I had been acting kind of different and she assumed I was because of Logan. I hadn't talked to him for almost two weeks when we started texting again, so like no? Plus he's not where he usually lives right now, he's living with someone else for a while. I assume for the whole summer, which kinda bums me considering I wanted to hang out. But then again when I think about it, why would I want to hang out with him? Because he's funny and he's got great memes. I need too stop, sorry. 

This was a long ass chapter compared to the other ones. I'm sorry for my ranting! I just got a lot of stuff on my plate and it's always nice to get it out. Don't keep things inside! Eventually you'll break anyway and everything will come out. Okay, have a great you guys. :) 

 I have been in a great mood all day, I've been motivated and energetic to do activities all day but I'm hella sore from the last two days, I couldn't move! Monday, I went to the public pool we have here with a friend, I had to walk across town to her house and then walk from the pool back to my house so I was already sore to begin with. And I spent the fourth with the fam and a bunch of friends so I was up on my feet for the whole day, so I am just plain sore. But I'm not sore enough to keep from writing so here I am! 

Happy late fourth to all! If you live in America, sorry it was so late. I got home around 1 a.m. and I dropped, I was so tired, I basically passed out! And don't tell anyone, but I might've had a few drinks! But yeah, that was my fourth. We lighted off a shit ton of fireworks, we went to battlefield too to watch their firework show and it was kinda weird. I think that they accidentally set off their finale first and went backwards. I mean, it was still great it was just a little weird, but anyway. 

I hope you all had a great fourth (if you live in America) and I still hope you have a great night. :)

 Hello, uh haha, i haven't wrote in this thing in forever, but I mean I shouldn't have to update it every single two seconds. Uh, nothing's really going on. I mean a lot of stuff is happening and I've been busy that's why I haven't been on but, like nothing's wrong as I should say. One of my closest friends, Ryan, yesterday he confessed his love for me and I really don't feel the same way. I've been friends with him for like four years, I've always thought of him as the brother I never had, so uh? Haha, this is funny, I told my friend Cierra that and so she told me to tell him I'm a lesbian and that I'm dating her. I thought it would be funny, but me being me to the sweetheart Ryan is I wasn't going to be an asshole to him. He's a good guy yes, but I wouldn't date him. Uhm, I don't think I'll write another one until maybe a week or two has passed so stay tuned, haha. I'm going to have a even busier week this week and possibly the start of the one after. 

Well I'm emotionally stable at the moment so there's much to complain about, I might just go on a full rant and tell you all the crappy things that have happened, or just plain... idiotic. 

So I have this friend Lakeira, I'm not sure if I've talked about her in other entry's but here she is. She's been my friend forrr.... 7 years. Yeah, seven. And so she told me like a week ago that she got a new boyfriend, I was happy for her yes, but then I asked who it was. She told me his name is Caleb. She added that he found her on Facebook and said he liked her and she said, and I quote, "alright let's try you then". Because before him she's had *troubles* with two guys, Logan and Matthew. It was ridiculous and really idiotic in my opinion. It was just barbaric, like I didn't even know why it was happening, it all could have been prevented. But she told me that and I was like okay? cool? I guess? Yay? and then afterwards she went to try and convince that he wasn't like Matthew or Logan at all and that he's really sweet to her and blah blah basically telling me he's the opposite of everything that Logan and Matthew are. So I just said okay, great for you. Because honestly, I really didn't care. Her and boyfriends don't mix, there's always a lot of drama that goes on, for no reason too. But uh, haha, yesterday he broke up with her because he said "he wasn't ready for a relationship and that he needs time". She was all sad but like, why the fuck did he get in a relationship with you in the first place? Like why??? I'd that like to be explained. 

But yeah that happened yesterday. I don't know if I should rant on about how Ryan confessed his love or not. Eh, sure I will, but if you don't want to read it then sure, but I find the whole thing hilarious. 

So my friend Ryan, I've been friends with him for four years, all I have ever seen of him is he's always so happy and nice. Well lately, he's been a little too nice. He's been trying to flirt with me, but I've been shooting him down haha. But uh, I started to think he started to like me, so I kinda just tried to keep a low profile. And so yesterday we were joking about uncle memes, heh. And I said "I can't wait for the next meme when ur face is on it". and so afterwards I thought that was TOO offensive so I said jkjk I'm sorry. He said "it's okay, I still love you". and I just kind of

w h a t

And so I sent him a picture with the words "did you mean it when you said you loved me" scattered around. And I hoped he hadn't read it, but he said, yeah I did. So I just 

o k a y  n o p e

And so I started sending memes because I really didn't know what to do, I was kind of confused and like whaaaat. But yeah. 

Then a later little I had asked him, "were you serious serious?" and he said, if I didn't mean it I wouldn't have said it. AND I FREAKED. I stopped texting him and started texting Cierra and thats when she threw out the idea of me telling him I'm a lesbian. 

But I didn't, I'm just texting him like I normally would. But yeah that happened and I'm still shook. 

I also read the new chapter for Killing Stalking today and that has me shookith too. The copper whose name I can't remember how to spell is fucking lakjfklsdjf in this chapter. 

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