feelings for her by Vishal Singh (books to get back into reading .txt) 📕

about the future he had planned
for her. Even he was ready to accept her with her
young son. When I talked with Drishti about Akshit,
she refused as she didn’t want to become a burden
on Akshit, also She believed that she still loves that
Bloody **************************************Boy,
because though he had used her but still she was in
love with him, I could now realize her pain
associated with her singing like I am living with.
Even the determination of Akshit also reminded me
of myself as he was ready to wait for Saumya
forever & even there was same pain in his
Drumming with which both me & Saumya & now
he also was living with. I didn’t know whose fault
was it & neither I made it complex too. In both of
them, I was again searching for my friends, my
family. I came up with an idea…………”

Yaadi,” I know…. I know…… It’s formation of the
ultimate band called ‘DARPAN’….. Hai na Bhai….”
Jay,” Absolutely correct, I thought that we all 3
love music, why can’t we come together & work as
a team for our individual Love…… On asking them,
they were ready as I was going to pay them for it,
but none of them was ready to take even a penny
from me as their thoughts were same as mine as no
one can Octide the cost for MUSIC like as we can’t
Octide for LOVE, finally it led to the formation of
the ultimate music band ever ‘DARPAN’, with two
guitarists Saumya & Jay, one drummer
Akshit……… After working hours at my father’s
company, I started practicing various songs with
them upto late night. We use to fuse various tone,
sounds together, it was just amazing feeling which
could only 3 of us feel. We all 3 + Saumya’s son
Dhanush, started living together at my Dad’s farm
house. About a year passed with them, those guyz
were just amazing… They had filled the void, that
gap after AIT in my life… I even didn’t log in to my
facebook account as there was no need of it, I was
enjoying Darpan….. One day while going through
the letters, in the mail box of my house… There was
an envelop like that of an invitation, I tore that
apart, ya I was correct it was from Ankit…. Drishti &
Ankit Octided to marry, after being in relationship
for about 6 years….. For once, all earlier memories
revived in my head but this time I was not feeling
something like my love lost as Now I knew Love
never loses or wins, I Octided to leave it on
Darpan…… Ya, Without letting my identity known, I
made Drishti’s father to book our Band Darpan for
her marriage… Even I didn’t take a single penny
from him as Darpan was going to sing for Drishti
not for money, though I had never told anything
about Drishti & my past life to Saumya &
Akshit………… ”

 

Yaadi,” So, great Man! Hats off to you…. It needs a
lot of courage & a big heart ever ready for
sacrifices to sing song or even show your presence
in the marriage of whom you love more than
yourself….. So, Darpan was going to sing in Drishti’s
marriage……..”

Jay,” But it was very difficult for me to control
my emotions, my love for her & always it will be…
The stage was set, Darpan was ready to give its first
live performance, I started singing songs with
Saumya & drum-beats from back by Akshit..
Someone shouted from back ’Hey! Messi!’, It was
Deepak who had come to join Ankit’s wedding, He
was very ashamed of me as he had married without
inviting me though it was love marriage at court…
He asked me sorry for that & as usual I forgave him
because I knew he was good by heart, He
introduced me with his family, he was having 1 year
old daughter… He asked me all about Darpan & I
told him in short….. There only 3 person knew my
reality Deepak, Ankit & Drishti…… Darpan was
exploring its music, everyone was blowing in our
notes, even our stop for changing track made them
disturb as they wanted us to go on without any
break….. Then there Ankit came to take the
Bridegroom’s chair, he was completely shocked
seeing me in that fashion, but he couldn’t do
anything as Bridegroom is not allowed to leave his
chair… But still I was singing, singing sometimes
Folk songs, Wedding Songs etc… & then

She came
Yaadi, Drishti….. Her first view after 3 years in
Bride’s dress nearly killed me, I stopped singing…
The whole palace went silent, all started shouting
to continue the songs, but I was not giving any
attention to them, the way I was staring her made
Saumya & Akshit very clear that there is some
connection between the Bride & me… Seeing the
whole palace silent, she looked at me & then she
was with tears, I had broken that promise given to
her but I had to as I didn’t want to miss her in
wedding dress which always I dream of, The
wedding procedure was going on, My voice started
quivering, My eyes went red…. I couldn’t sing
anymore but I had to, After completing almost all
songs that we came with, I Octided to sing my
favorite song of Lucky Ali which I used to sing for
her in college time….. I asked Saumya & Akshit to
leave the stage…. Now it was time for Jay
leading the Darpan for Drishti…. I gripped my
guitar very tight & played it without singing for 10
minutes & with guitar I started singing……………
Teri yaad jab aati hai,
Meri aankh bhar jaati hai,
Hum to bichhde yun mil mil ke,
Khwab tooten hain is dil ke……….
Yehi gum mujhe sataayega,
Phir tu laut ke na aayega,
Phir bhi tere aane ka intezar karta hoon,
Pyar sirf tumse , pyar sirf tumse, pyaar karta hoon……….
Maine vaada to nibhaya tha,
Socha kabhi naa sataya tha,
Phir bhi jaane anjaane mein kahin,
Tera dil to naa dukhaya tha…………..
Kaisa dastoor hai jaana,
Sab kuch jaan ke hai sab sehna,
Yaar tujhpe main ye jaan nisaar karta hoon,
Pyar sirf tumse, pyar sirf tumse, pyaar karta hoon………..
Sunle sadaa…… Sunle sadaa…… Sunle sadaa……
Sunle….. sunle …….sunle sadaa……. Sunle….
Teri sehmi sehmi baton mein,
Khoya chand mulaqaton mein,
Aaye nazar vo saare makaam,
Tera pata yaad hai na naam…………….
Ye dil tujhe na bhulaayega,
Kya tu phir se laut aayega,
Main to khud ko bakaraar baar baar karta hoon,
Pyar sirf tumse , pyar sirf tumse, pyaar karta hoon………
Pyar sirf tumse , pyar sirf tumse….

 

With tears all around on my face & equally on her,
without participating further in the marriage
procedure, I left the place & drove back to home
back…. I locked myself in a room, just to cry as loud
as I could… I cried for very long just to delete her
memories from my heart but I couldn’t… I didn’t go
to my farm house back for about one week,
Saumya called me a lot but I didn’t take it…. After
that week with unbearable pain, arised from the
broken pieces of my heart…. I returned back to
Darpan but I knew I have to answer them very first
question to me, I gave them this copy ( pointing
towards the same copy from which he is reading to
himself as he used to write it at the end of every
year), Both Saumya & Akshit went through it, They
returned back the copy with tears in their eyes &
their hands saluting me for sacrificing my Love
inexchange of knowing what love is, inexchange of
my mother’s memories….. Even Saumya asked me
for permission to call Drishti & tell her why didn’t I
propose her that night, But I just refused her to do
So, just by telling her that Love never meant for
expectation, it meant for sacrifices & After all, she
was married & happy with her new life too, I
wouldn’t be a hurdle for her again after giving her
so much trouble……”

Yaadi,” Bhai mai tere jazbaatoin ki kadar karta hun,
Bhai bahut khuun aa rha hai pehle paunch le…….”

Jay,” Nhi yaar, Ab nhi…. Ab mujhey maut bhi
manzuur hai, maine zindagi jee lii, jitni mujhey
jeeni thi…… Tu fikar na kar, tera bhai hasteiy huey
maut ko galey lagayega………Mujhey meri ye kitaab
puuri kar lene de……. So, Where was I?”

Yaadi,” Drishti finally married to Ankit, Deepak is
also doing fine with his job & small family, You
mother’s memories are still there in your heart,
Your father is doing fine…… Haan, you had told
everything to Saumya & Akshit…..”

Jay,” Ya, Then everything became normal again,
our practice made it possible, Darpan was Octlared
most popular music band of India, We started
doing live performances in India & outside as well
like in Austrailia, Singapore, New York, Tokyo, paris
etc… We were world famous for our way of
presenting songs, by making them appealing to our
fans there in crowd. We were Octlared as Rockstars
who put the stage on fire….. I’m sure Drishti had
seen me in Television, in newspaper, in magazines
etc…….. I hope she would have loved it too, ya she
should because my every song was for her…. Also I
didn’t want to lose my new friends again but what I
hadn’t expected was… Saumya proposed me, she
fell in love with me after reading this copy &
spending time with me in Darpan, just because she
liked the way I used to love Drishti in my college
time. I simply rejected her proposal as I could never
give her that place which I had already given to
Drishti & further made her aware of that, that no
one could take that place neither God nor Death…
To this she simply told me that she would wait for
me till her death…. I tried to explain her but she
was not ready to talk anything to me in this context.
I love her voice, her way of singing but Yaadi you
know naa, I can’t Love her…….. One day she once
again proposed me on her knees with tear in her
eyes, seeing her like this my memories again
revived & I simply accepted her proposal but on
condition that I’ll never touch her, to this she just
said No problem at all…… I knew it would have
hurted Akshit a lot but this time it was he who have
to give sacrifice. Then I married Saumya, simply in
a Temple & gave Dhanush my surname Singh… I
personally loved him a lot, as I used to find myself
in him….. We were a complete family…. I used to
sleep with Dhanush & my guitar at first floor & she
at ground floor…. I had gifted Akshit one of my
apartment at Rohini….. I started talking with
Saumya like I used to talk with Drishti though I
couldn’t give her the same love as for Drishti. Even
on her wish, I used to celebrate picnic at various
places in Delhi remembering my old memories with
my Apache again……”

Chapter 13

 

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Mayur Vihar, Delhi……….
13 Oct, 2014 ; 06:00a.m..

Jay is vomiting a lot, in blood, blood is all
around through out his nose, mouth….. He is
finding himself very weak, pathetic… Even He is
trying but he is not able to stand on his own…. The
copy he was reading is completed upto 2011, Now
he wants to share his journey of 2014 which is not
in copy as he writes that copy at the end of year….
He is trying to share, share 2014………

Yaadi,” Are you alright? ”

Jay,” Ya, I’m fine… Just little bit Red…. Bhai, I’m
very lucky naa…….”

Yaadi,” Ya, You are very lucky… I know it…..”

Jay,” Ya, As it was the time for God’s Gift or you
can say it the outcome of loving someone other
than Drishti……. It went as, My health started
deteriorating a lot, I went for medical check up &
then one Doctor came to me & told that I have
Blood Cancer : A God’s Gift ,I was shocked
completely shocked, I was not believing what was
going on with me…. I started loving Dhanush, my
son…. He is only 3 year old, Why did it happen to
me, I asked the Doctor for calling it to be a gift
given by